come sit a spell #2

five I really love being with and remember very well.

one I think about and yeah I can get turned on by memories of him

Do you want to know if my family know this?

no they will never find out or maybe when I get older I'll spill the beans to whichever sibling is left.

and I'll look at them and say I really don't care what you think of me.

Do my friends know about this?

one very close friend who lives in the Netherlands knows about it and friend of mine knows about it and about 3 others

God knows of course he does care about it.

Do I want to become a sugar baby again?

No I promise God I was not going to turn back.

Do I listen to stuff about sugar babies and their stories?

yes why because I just want to.

When I was young there was a magazine called the Washingtonian, I think I started reading it when I was a teenager when I was like 13 or 14 on up until the time I left the house

In the back of this magazine there were advertisements and some of the advertisements were about men looking for women that use words like: generous, I'll show you the world, I'm famous and Rich... blah blah blah blah and of course they were men looking for sugar babies.

if I had really known of what they would looking for would I contact one?

yes because I was interested in doing it. I was interested in knowing what kind of lifestyle what it was actually about and later on I knew what was it about.

my 10 sugar daddies all were very nice.

1 was a little psycho okay a lot of psycho and I dropped him like a weight

Have I told my ex-boyfriends anything about it of course not.

I never told any of them they would have been my ex-boyfriend before the first date was over, I'm not stupid

Have I told you in my ex-boyfriend's about my bondage quirk yes I told about three of them well one was the sugar daddy who really said let's do it

I'm adventurous person and even at my age now I want to do things.

like tie me up, gag me, blindfold me, handcuffed me, tickle me with a feather.

if you want to put me on the wall put me in a position where there was no way I can escape it.

I like that as long as there's no pain involved and no blood of course. No whippings nothing that might hurt me physically but other than a good couple of thrusts .

Would I like to have multiple partners together at one time? yeah if I really trusted the men .

yes I would do that ...not many just 2.

would I have with a woman? yes

I'm adventurous I like doing things that might just put me over the edge and sexually do I like a guy eating my pussy, yes do I like his cock in me, yes do I like him sucking on my nipples, yes would I like a woman to do it too

I like having sex... I like different approaches but I will not ever have anyone stick anything in my butt that's where I draw the line, along with the pain in the whippings and cetera

So I hope my family finds this post.

shock the hell out of my sister (Miss goody two shoes Miss snobby stuffyI think I'm too good for everybody)

Sorak... Doe.....

He was my 1st love.... Hot in bed... Handsome.... Awesome personality....,.. loyal.... Hot intelligent....Stbmm

Keith..... Cute... Funny.... Willing to try bondage with me.... Great sex.... Generous... intelligent... great personality.....mm

Robert smyth..... Mmsd.... Sexy voice... If we ever had the chance we would of been smokin in bed.... Great turn on

John doe..... Sd..... Generous.... Expert lover... BC! .... Never knew his real name

Dan Mc.

Never had sex..... Great guy.. handsome.. .. loyal.... Hot personality.. Charisma..... Respectful.... I adopted him as my real brother.....very intelligent...very funny

Steve Weisberger.....

Charisma.... Great personality..... Hot sex... Smart.... We matched at almost everything.... Good looking.... Funny ....sm

Mike j......

Hot looks.... Very very intelligent.......hot personality..... Generous..... Hot sex.... The biggest c. Yet.... Hot c...... We are matched in everything..... Sexy... Very funny..... His soul is hot too

I left Vinny G. out.... What he had went sour when he tried to abuse me .

It shocked me his house Hardly has any furniture in it. And the furniture it did have is outdated and mismatched yet.

also had papers all laying around

He fixed the dinner which was ravioli and boxed vegetables dessert was one scoop of ice cream

He's a top engineer or was I think he's going into retirement, he's 74 years old.

He made lots of money.

I would describe the inside of his house that's a bachelor pad. I even told him that this is a typical bachelor pad. He laughed

I also noticed that his mailbox was full of mail told him about it he says I may get it tomorrow or next day.

I also think he started having memory problems .

He's a nice guy he really, he probably would do anything for you if you could.

What broke us up was the fact that he would not get off the dating site that we met on.

I gave him three chances to get off it.

I even deleted his whole profile off the dating site and yet he put it right back on.

Anyway last night he kept trying to find reasons to touch me ....touch my hip... touch my waist ...touched my arm..

After dinner it was done he asked me if I wanted to stay and watch TV with him

I knew what he was trying to do he's trying to see if he could get a kiss or something out of me or more

I declined I said there's things I have to do before I go to work tomorrow and there was so I didn't lie.

I do feel sorry for him he doesn't have a woman in his life because he's also OCD Plus hyper Plus he has a need to be in control

He does have some pluses he's very knowledgeable and he's very very good in bed

But like I said he wouldn't get off the dating site and now I think he realizes that he lost a good person and unfortunately I am now with a new guy and I really do love and we planning on marrying soon

This is my second blog I've had on Tumblr

I lost the password to my first one

But in my first one and I'll make this very brief

I told you things about me that most people don't know

Like when I was born my cord was cut in half and the doctors told my mom all kinds of horrible things that would go wrong with me

I'm a normal person I can walk talk eat by myself think by myself live on my own etc doctors were wrong God knew what he was doing

I go on and tell you more after I get off work

Let's see

I was a sugar baby for a year. I had 10 sugar Daddy's that year.

I do remember 5 of those sugar daddies very well.

And contrary to the belief sugar babies are not prostitutes. We don't have a pimp and we get to keep all of our own money.

We get to set how much we get, we also get to decide what we will and will not do. We don't have to have sex with every single guy comes that our way.

I only had sex 4 of them .

The rest were companionship daddies.

And also contrary to popular belief that daddies only want teenagers.

this is not true in fact a lot of daddies would prefer the older mature sugar babies.

When I was 19 I got raped by my brothers friend. I know the name of this person but I won't reveal it here the first initial is J.

I don't know what happened to him other than the fact that he moved to Maryland

My mind blocked out the whole episode I only started remember bits and pieces (and I don't know the whole thing still)

I started to wonder when my virginity left . I started remembering when I was 30

It's not trimatic for me .

my subconscious blocked it for me so not traumatic to me.

I always believe what's in the past stays in the past .

I was abused by my ex-husband physically mentally financially and emotionally.

Karma found him I gave him stage 4 lung cancer and he died in 2024, I had already divorced him in 2016

he also cheated on me with many women but in the divorce trial I got even with him plus his daughter stood up and testifies against him. he had also abused her.

I have been attracted to married men in the past. At least 4. But when I started to follow Jesus I left that sin in the dust.

I have been broke 3 times in my life

I had wanted to have sex with a woman friend of mine... Michelle. But did not.

I was strongly attracted to her, but she had too many mental problems for me.

Never had that feeling after that.

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Update Steve and I are still just friends in fact I talked to him today and he's like well why did we break up and I wanted to say because you were fooling around on the dating sites when you were supposed to be in a relationship with me but I said I think it was a mutual break up.

Cuz I really didn't want to hatch it all out we're just friends it's gone any feelings other than friendship is gone for him

And it wouldn't have done any good because he would deny that part like he did in the past.

Anyway I met a new guy his name is Mike he's exactly like me like saying things I do has the same ideas perfect match for me

I've been seeing him since December 30th 2025 next month is our 6 month anniversary.

She did get married to a guy who turned out to be the world's worst jerk there is and then she changed to back her maiden name.

So I text her I said "you got married and I didn't know I wasn't invited to the wedding that's okay I see how it is and I don't need an apology"

She text back and said "I don't need an apology to anyone we didn't invite any extended family members to the wedding"

While I'm not mad at her because that's her right her choice.

I am upset that at least she could have said "hey I'm getting married it's going to be a very small wedding we're not inviting family members to the wedding because we can't afford a big wedding"

That would have been the proper thing to do that way no one would be upset because they didn't get invited and they wouldn't be upset because they do the reason they didn't invited.

So I got to thinking about it obviously my brother and his wife and their other children knew that she was getting married.

but yet nothing was said to me, I bet the other siblings heard they were getting married and got the proper excuse why they are not invited.

so what happened to me?

This is also been going on with my other brother's family his daughter got pregnant you know how I found out about that?

I happen to see that she put on her Facebook page a sonogram of her baby and that was a 4-month-old picture.

I didn't get notified of it I didn't get any pictures of the baby when it was born and I saw them all on their Facebook page

I done nothing wrong to deserve this treatment from my family other than wanting to be called a name I like that was similar to the name I was given (that I didn't like).

In which they still call me by the name I don't like even though I've told him about it over and over again

Oh and also I introduced a long lost cousin of our family. who was born into the family by my dad's twin sister, who she was made to give up because her parents wanted her to finish nursing school.

I have no regrets but accepting him into the family and when I did introduce him to the family no one wanted to talk to him no one wanted to talk to me they were all mad at me because they had a cousin they never knew of and then instead of accepting and loving him for being part of family member they shuned him.

Anyway so it looks like my family is actually turning their backs on me.

That's fine I don't need the stress I don't need the drama they have I don't need the disrespect they give me I don't eat any of that I've been doing very well on my own without them far back 10 years now.

that's right ..10 years ...no one's called me, no one's asking me out to do things with,no one wanted to do anything with me, I haven't received happy birthday cards notices calls whatever from them, I haven't received Merry Christmas wishes Thanksgiving whatever.

So I decided that I'm going to block everybody's number everybody nieces nephews my sister my older brother the only one who's going to be able to contact me for anything it's my brother John I was the closest to him

It hasn't been just 10 years it's been the whole life they didn't want to do anything with me grown up .. my mother had to make them take me places with them my mother had John include me with the dungeon and dragons games he played

My sister didn't want to do anything with me never I invited her to be my maid of honor because my mother said it was a proper thing to do I would never done it.

Every single dress I've been picked out she found fault with she didn't like that she didn't like that yet when I was her bridesmaid, I accepted the dress she picked out which was no frill along ugly Pepto-Bismol pink puffy sleeve dress.. it look gross....

I accepted it because it was her wedding and she should have gotten what you wanted.

But when it came to my wedding my opinions didn't matter my ideas didn't matter what I wanted didn't it matter it was all about her

I've been happy without all their drama I used to go to Christmas dinners and Thanksgiving dinners over at their houses only because mother and Daddy were there and I did let one of them know that the only reason that I was at the dinner was because of mother and Daddy

Now that they're gone I don't go to any of those dinners why why should I go to a dinner to be disrespected ignored or picked on??

I love my parents very much and I know I'll see them in heaven but my siblings I'm barely like them I probably won't get notified that any of them died either I'm the youngest of the family.

That's fine I'll read about it in the paper I guess or see it on their Facebook profile whatever died oh she had one tear I'm going to go on and live my life

Does that sound cool to you no I'm not cold I'm a very warm loving person but when I get a mistreated when I get pissed off I turn into a cold person only to that person will I be cold too and in this case I'm cold and my sister my older brother my younger brother he's okay

I love my cousins that have in Michigan and I love my cousin down in Florida

I don't need blood related siblings I have adopted sisters and adopted Brothers ooh the best friends I could ever have.