I'm sorry
Let me just say from the bottom of my heart I am sorry,I'm shaking right now I am truly sorry to everyone who I have hurt or upset. For years I have been lying about things online,I compulsively do it,I also have no reason to do it,I lie and I lie and I always end up hurting others due to my lying but who I am really isn't anything,we do go by Connor or William,we are all nonbinary and not straight, I am autistic and I do ship pedophilla/abuse/incest/etc and I do feel bad for everything,I've been wanting to make this apology for a while and I just I mess up,there is no excuse for me to be lying and for me to go out of my way to hurt others,I don't have an excuse I dont have a fucking reasons I'm just fucking retatrded,I fucked everything up,Since 2018 I have been lying about my age,I have been telling others I am older than I'm actually am,I am around the age of 14-16 and I am so so fucking sorry,I don't know why I wanted people to think I was some creep,I do have bad and disgusting thoughts about hurting people my age but me as older than i am and it make me sick and I am sorry,I don't know why I did anything,I want way to fucking far,Anyone who angrily messgae me I sent them ns//fw art and I am sorry,I don't know why I did that I truly don't and I'm done lying,I'm done hurting others and I'm just done,I have no life,I have no personality nothing about me is interesting and I am sorry,like genuinely sorry ,we fucke dup and I know it and I can't fucking fix anything it's all out of my control and hands and there nothing I can really do besides simply saying I'm sorry and I will be archiving the edits I made and I will no longer will be using others art and I might stop wiriting and I'm so sorry,I just meant to make some people mad and cause some kind of chaos just for fun but than my ex messaged me and we started talking and I started getting feelings for her so I didn't want to drop the act I had,I am not blaming her ,she did nothing wrong and I am sorry,I never meant to hurt you or anyone,and I lied and I lied and I feel shittiy about it I feel horrible terrible and empty and numb and I am sorry,I use to do other really cruel things to others for attetion for something to happen I can't explain because I have no true reasons behind any of this but the guilt is killing me and I can't stop thinking about all the people and no one has to belive me and no one had to trust me or forgive me or tell me they feel bad for me because I am in the wrong,I am in the wrong and I cause all of these problems for no reason and I can't explain it,I can't explain my thought process I truly cannot and I am truly truly truly so sorry,I am sorry for all the people ptsd and tramua I triggered I am sorry for everyone who I made uncomfortable and I'm sorry to my ex for abusing you ,I really didnt mean to and I am sorry to anyone else I hurt , I'm done with hurting people I'm done with upsetting others and I am done,simple as that I am done causing others pain and I am done,I am sorry and I will no longer interact with anyone who I have hurt and I will simply keep to myself and I am sorry,I might disapper for a while but will answer dm andnshit and just I'm sorry,I over stepped so many lines and boundries and I just hurt others and I dont have an excuse sure I'm I'm tramuatized but that doesn't excuse anything and I am sorry Like so fucking sorry and I am the only one in the wrong and I am the only one who needs to face consequences and I am just sorry and I just can't keep lying to others and I am sorry for everything,I use to go by arrow on here and fuck if you remember all that drama then yeah that me and that my real age I just can't lie anymore,,,and I dont epxect you all to belive me and that ok,,just know I am sorry and that I will be stopping
@williamizgay @foxybroz @sisterlocationz
@squipjer-shippers-safe-space
Hey,this is my ex,we "dated" for a while since about the beginning of the year,I think around the beginning at least around March,I think(after I turned 14). Let me start off with the fact this doesn't excuse my actions,just gives a small explanation of some them (me defending irl pedophilla/cannibalism and also lying about my age)
From what I know once I post about mine and her dms,she did detective her Instagram,I do not have the energy or right mental state to look for her,I just hope she doesn't find me.
Here are some of my convos with her,I have deacative my old instgram which was (@/William.is.stanky) it didn't have any kind of ship content and for a little while was a discourse account that was fnaf theme. So I don't have whenever we first started talking,I dont really have proof of that and I do whish I did,at first we were sorta freinds who role played nsfw topics and it just slowly progressed into us sending each other nudes(mainly me sending them) and nsfw texts in general. We did stop talking for a like a few months (when I got with my other ex) but reconnected after I remade my old(but not deactivate) instgram account(where I made those stupid edits which I do also regret those too)
Anytime we talked she would turn it nsfw,no matter what,it would always end up in a nsfw roleplay (Luckily I got grounded for about a month and that gave me time to think and reflect and realize our relationship was disgusting). She often encouraged me to behave badly and to bug other people(deactivated account) so it kinda became a habit to do just so I could get to see her nudes ,which I knew and still know it was bad but she liked me writing non-con,she liked me pretending to be a pedophilla and I liked her. I wanted to make her happy and I wanted to play into her werid little fantasies despite most of them being about me being raped by her or about me being a bad person. I think we stopped talking for about two-three months but I'm not sure
Again,I'm not excusing my actions,I'm not saying people should forgive or anything,you can still block me just understand that it kinda made sense in my mind at the time to do those things just to make her happy. I feel bad about them,I feel bad about the people I hurt and upset by the things I did and how I treated and dismissed other people feelings. And I'm aware I still make toxic ship content,I now try my best to tag it properly and I just dont harras anyone anymore and I dont edit others art anymore and I've learned to back off and got away from Bunbun and I am a little paranoid she has remade and may be watching me but for now I am safe from her and while I still worry about her finding me I need to say this or else I will just end up feeling worst and worst and it doesnt excuse my actions,I know, but I am geneuaily sorry about to all the people I hurt mainly the people I got close to and didn't acutally want to hurt but also didn't want to tell the truth because if they knew the truth then they would be able to help me and at that time I knew mine and bunbuns reltionship was unhealthy and pedophillac and I knew she was into underage children and like c/p but I also didn't want help because I liked her and she made me feel special and was so nice to me!
