willy nilly

need more fics where ron is vulnerable or sick like air to breathe. where he needs to be taken care of where lip defends him or stands up for him but it upsets ron and he gets in lip's face about not needing him because why did no one ever care for him like that before or teach him to accept love and why is his lieutenant so goddamn stubborn does he pity ron? does he think him weak? fragile? fuck that and fuck him but god his hands are so gentle when he puts a wet rag on ron's forehead and he's so warm at his side when ron can't sleep and he's patient when ron's stubbornness gets the better of him and his gloves on ron's fingers feel cozy and smell like him and the shitty canned food he brings ron is surely what ambrosia tasted like and it doesn't matter how many times ron snaps at him he still holds ron when he's shivering with anger and shame it doesn't matter if ron pushes him away or hurts him he's still there in the morning he's still there in the evening he's still there at night when ron wakes up screaming and it doesn't matter because in the end carwood is even more stubborn than he is and he's passionate and his love unconditional and ron's not sure he deserves this and it feels selfish to say yes but it's all he can say between kisses and carwood undoes a lifetime of loneliness and refusing to let anyone in with such ease and this kind of vulnerable doesn't feel so bad and and and