Wildemann.

It started with the scandal surrounding Matt, and just when it seemed like things were finally calming down, I witnessed one of the biggest dramas over what should have been a relatively minor issue.

Do I support queuing early? No.

Am I surprised that it happened? Also no.

It’s not like this hasn’t happened before. People have been queuing early and creating numbering systems for a long time. Yet somehow this situation escalated into something far bigger than the original issue itself.

What shocked me the most wasn’t the queuing. It was the sheer amount of hatred, insults, and public call-outs I saw today.

We have reached a point where people are being filmed without their knowledge and posted on TikTok to shame them for standing in line early or because someone had a personal issue with them.

At some point I found myself wondering whether people have completely lost sight of what this is supposed to be.

It’s a band.

It’s a concert.

It’s supposed to be fun.

Being part of a fandom is supposed to be fun.

Going to a show is supposed to be fun.

Instead, I’ve spent today feeling devastated and deeply disappointed by what I’ve seen.

I’ve been looking forward to my show on Monday for months. There was a time when this fandom meant everything to me, and that wasn’t even that long ago. Lately, though, it feels like I need to take a major step back because the constant drama has been exhausting, and today was the breaking point for me.

I hope I’ll find the motivation to continue writing and sharing my stories in the future, but right now I’m simply tired.

Maybe this sounds dramatic to some people, but I’m sitting at home crying while writing this because a space that once felt safe and welcoming suddenly doesn’t feel that way anymore.

Yes, I’m very sensitive.

And maybe that’s exactly why this affects me so much.

But I’m just not made for this kind of hostility.