Its okay if you find it hard to communicate through words, or find it difficult to convert your thoughts to sentences. Take as long as you need to understand yourself first, its okay if other people don't understand you right away or at all.

the inherent pain of wanting to start again but also the inherent joy of getting to start again

I think adults need summer vacation. Like let's just close down all our jobs for three months and play outside. Please. I'm so tired.

we should talk more about how every decision you make as an adult leaves you with the same sensation you got at a friend’s house the morning after a sleepover when you’re the first to wake up. It’s dreadful and a homesickness and loneliness and you want your cups and you want your comforter and it’s just you on your own trying to get through.

i loooove being delusional. catch me ignoring reality altogether. catch me never being reasonable ever. catch me straight up making up things in my head to cope. delusion is my best friend

something i'm grateful to have internalized is the fact that i'm okay with falling off the wagon. like it's okay to have to go back to affirmations every now and then. it's okay to need pep talks or to need to talk to a friend or just to have an emotional flux. it doesn't mean you're an unemotionally unstable mess who can't sustain a good mood for a considerable period of time--it just means you're human. this was big for me bc i used to think i'd achieve this ideal where i no longer needed to read positive affirmations or hype myself up or whatever. but that ideal doesn't exist. accessing a good state of mind is an active process, that you have to repeat over and over, and that's literally okay