Here and Now

It’s not easy to be you, especially if you are someone else. You didn’t want to be like that, you didn’t want not to be yourself, but circumstances, or rather family, shaped you. So you grew up to be suspicious of everyone and everything. It was impossible for you to believe in people though you desperately sought them. You needed their company, someone to talk to, somebody to love. But you never really trusted them, and they could feel that, and you never actually loved them, you only liked the idea of them being there for you, and you only. Money is god, is what your family taught you, and that god you worshipped to no end. And you used any way you saw fit. You thought it could buy you love. It didn’t. You thought it could buy you friends. It didn’t. You thought it would make you special. It definitely did not. And now you are all alone, wondering what actually went wrong, in your blinding blindness. Oh, you fool! It’s not easy to be you, especially if you don’t know who you truly are.

Lakis

Surely, we can express gratitude for our desires and wishes for them to manifest in our lives. But saying thank you for the blessings already present in our life makes a big difference altogether.

I have seen the shift in myself since I started writing a gratitude journal. I was by default happy in my life without any special thing going on. I used to keep finding the existence of good things in my life, and I used to wait for the time of day when I would write my gratitude.