down bad cryin’ in the carriage

To my Bridgerton besties…WHAT THE FUCK. I had to turn off episode 6 when a certain someone showed her face. I didn’t expect that at all. What the fuck.

I haven’t had a hyperfixation that’s stuck in over a year. Am…am I broken? I feel broken. It truly feels like my ADHD diagnosis is failing me in my most critical hour. I’ve lost interest in fanfic, old fandoms, poetry, reading, writing, puzzles, and crafting. New fandoms last about a month. I deleted Instagram, Reddit, Threads, and I’m debating Facebook. I don’t even use this site much except to yell into the void. I gave up owning and admining my old fandom Discord. I’d give Discord up entirely if my spouse and I didn’t use it to communicate daily. Keeping up with people and life is hard and I just feel stuck. Oh wait, this is the depression isn’t it. God damn.