a place of goofing

I finished the last of the rift-filling quests and I realized that the long dash from the safe zone to the rift itself must be what it was like for the Yinglungs usually (i didn't want to place a gas dispenser for xiranite gas but I ended up needing to bc it was do that quick or die from my bad sense of direction LOL do not ask me how I get turned around when its essentially a straight line)

Not that I want more rifts to open bc PLEASE LET ME LEAVE WULING??? but doing the miasma stuff and watching your device activate when you step into the danger zone is so fun....the deep purple lighting and the vibes...I like finding memos in the zone too because it's depressing LOL

Rover: a machine...isn't supposed to have emotions

I did the Lifeng sidequest they put in for the post-story and SUMMIT HAS AN ADOPTED BROTHER....cute....

And he's a musician!!! Summit revealed as one of the mystery musicians whose instruments are recovered from the disaster site is so fun, what a talented guy haha

I need to remember to put in my survey that I would like playable Summit if they can swing it, he is so cute...he's kind to animals, he's so pretty that at least one person mistook him for a girl ten years ago, despite the awkward attitude when you meet him he has a sense of humor and he's concerned for his teammates, he adopted one of the kids who survived the disaster ten years ago and then! At the end of the musicians quest he gives his brother his old flute and starts teaching him how to play. He is so so cute LOL

Also the Yinglung task force really grew on me from the files you can find and the safe zones they leave behind arghhh, exploring the miasma zones was so fun.

WHY DID SHE REVEAL HER HAND SO QUICKLYYYYYY WUWA WRITERS WITH THE FUCKING STEEL CHAIR FOR SOME REASON I know it was Suspicious but I wish they would let things simmer a bit

His doomed sibling relationship with Char is everything to me...the sauce of it all...I really enjoyed that while Camille was trying to be a protective older brother, Char misread his intentions either from low self-esteem or pride and thought his brother was looking down on him, and while he does have some attachment to or possessiveness regarding his brother it's been twisted by resentment and anger...

It's especially interesting that seemingly a pretty important prophecy was hidden from Camille in particular and not Char—and despite Char doing everything to lean into the prophecy, he also seems to be railing against it in his own way...it'd be kind of interesting for him to be trying to protect Camille in some twisted way by destroying the people he thinks have set them up like lambs for slaughter, but rather than him doing it while being secretly a good guy, I like. He does want to protect his brother but he also enjoys being able to torment him like this, if it makes sense? Char wants Camille wrapped up in their hellish game etc etc, I don't usually go for disastrous yandere brocon but Char REALLY sounds like he's in jealous disbelief that Camille made a friend LOL

Like Char Really went out of his way to recreate the moment he and Camille fought and the way he laughs in the cutscene where Camille has him pinned...his expression and how Camille still hesitates to kill him...the "aren't you lonely brother?" "Come to my side, big brother" oh my god

When I was going thru his recreation of all his childhood agonies And the replica of their childhood house I was like "bro what is your PROBLEM" but that cutscene oh my god he has EVERY problem for real

And on Camille's end bro the agony of trying to be a good older brother and not realizing that your little bro was—not even on the wrong page, in a whole other book, trying to protect him and hearing that he thought you were condescending him the entire time and that he thought he wasn't as beloved by your parents AUGH. And their parents are dead! They can't answer questions! And Camille saved his life because of course he would, that was the only family he had left—and realizing the miracle that was Char's survival has become a kind of curse because of what Char has done since then with the power that Camille gave him....the agonies man, the voice acting in this story quest was so good haha

Camille keeps saying that Char is dead to him but part of him still caring because it's not that simple...him being the older sibling and thus responsible as both his brother and his vampiric sire is so good HAHA the! Lore of the key accessory! (Char uses it against him wrt Camille breaking the music box in the first place but the fact that he made it into a key for Camille so he can always go home, when the young Camille was always losing his house keys....augh....) (this is in one of Camille's voice lines)

Not sure where to include it but lmao when they reveal the surveillance cameras and the one-way mirror i was like NOT THE STALKER ROOM (bro with EVERY PROBLEM)

It's already pretty good as a doomed sibling relationship normal platonic style but (and I'm seriously saying this as someone who doesn't really go for this usually) Char Seriously feels to me like a yandere brocon that wants to murder and/or possess Camille in all ways possible LOL (his reaction to being pinned down by Camille. Oh my god. I am a little sad he did it with someone else's face but it still worked)

(I thiiiink the suspicious undertone is one-sided on Char's part because I don't get the same vibe from Camille but that's just my take on it HAHA) (Camille has problems and Char is so many of them)

I think if Char turns out to secretly be an agonized good person as I've seen someone suggest (possible evidence being that no one actually died in his quest) then I will accept it but I'll be a little baffled LOL I want the bros to be a fiery disaster. It's possible Char is making himself hateful so it will hurt Camille less to kill him but I don't think that's entirely it

Alsooo the vibes between Endmin and Camille are excellent LOL the fucking hand holding scene at the end. I am honestly attached to Wulfgard/Endmin but a very good case has been made for Camille/Endmin (Wulfgard/Camille/Endmin poly is also a fun concept to be sure) (somewhat curious if I can run an Endmin, Wulfgard, Rossi, and Camille team bc I like playing Endmin tbh) (the in-universe implication of Rossi fourth-wheeling this situation is extremely funny)

Camille/Wulfgard crack ship is also good I think Camille would be able to empathize with being betrayed by someone the way Wulfgard was betrayed by Giovanni & the pain of knowing that the boy you knew has become a stranger (altho Wulfgard managed to kill him while Camille is still hunting)

This got longer than I meant it to LOL I hope I am....coherent enough?

I am cackling at friendship speedrun happening but I will accept it due to enjoying the? Fucking family Situation going on? I was like oh wow this family has Every problem between these two brothers I See. I think their dynamic is really interesting HAHA a lot of potential but I don't have the energy to write for it

In this scenario lupo, among other groups, have some mild to moderate mating season shenanigans (not so severe that it would be dangerous in and of itself; it's ordinary enough that there's paperwork to fill).

Wulfgard usually powers thru it by himself whenever it comes up due to trust issues and not much caring about sex in general—he knows enough about sex and his own preferences to avoid falling into trouble but doesn't really......it doesn't appeal most of the time, because sex is a pretty vulnerable thing and he doesn't let that many people get close to him. Working through it is actually not too bad—irritating more than anything because he can feel where his inhibitions are lower than normal and his focus is, like, not quite where he needs it to be? Technically he could be taking medical leave during the worst of it but ehhh he had to learn how to cope for times where he really won't be able to retreat somewhere.

Kind of an awkward time to be making friends tho, because Wulfgard's having some pretty persistent stray thoughts about Endmin after everything they went through in the sidequests. He's thinking that if he waits it out then it'll fade back to normal at some point, (and a small mean part of his brain keeps remembering Giovanni's scorn and souring the mood) and uh

unfortunately for him, the stray thoughts get a lot more vivid and pointed over time and he keeps contemplating what it would be like to bite the line of Endmin's jaw or fold Endmin like a piece of paper etc etc etc

and he's trying to be a professional about it, you know, but what the fuck is this timing,

Endmin, who has amnesia and only met this guy fairly recently, thinks Wulfgard doing a lot of casual, friendly touching is just normal gap moe & part of befriending him. And like, they Are getting to be good friends but. Wulfgard is just barely keeping a lid on it. Endmin thinks Wulfgard being in his space is a friend thing and appreciates it! because even tho they're nice he isn't really on hugging terms with the girls yet and is a little lonely...there's less awkward hero worship with Wulfgard so there's less pressure to play the role of a responsible Endmin, and he can relax a bit

and Wulfgard meanwhile is like. Dying emoji??? He touches Endmin whenever his self control cracks (too often for his liking) and Endmin just goes with it?? Leans into it??? Initiates contact himself sometimes, and if he's allowed, then Wulfgard wants everything that Endmin wants to give, because—well, he likes him

It genuinely slips anyone's mind to let Endmin know about the lupo seasonal Thing until another lupo operator accidentally rats Wulfgard out by commiserating at him about it where Endmin can hear and ask questions and. huh!! So Wulfgard was holding back the entire time huh

...And then they fuck about it yay. Something something the appeal of a really controlled character losing their composure and letting out all the pent up energy