When We Kiss Fanfic

 “Here we are.” I stood on the middle of the stage with Harry. “This is massive.”

“It’s Madison Square Gardens Harold. What did you expect?” I looked at the boy, still in awe of the atmosphere he was in. 

“Here.” He handed me his phone. “Take a picture.”  Arms outstretched, looking up, I stood behind him and took a picture. “Got it.” He came up beside me and grabbed his phone. Swiftly kissing my cheek and snapping a picture all at once. 

“Harry!” I laughed. He smiled at his accomplishment.“Gotcha.” I shoved him playfully. “I can’t believe you guys play this tonight. It’s crazy.” I spun around taking it all in. Everyone was flying in for this. All of their families were going to be here. It was such a huge deal. 

“I’m happy you could come and share it with us.” Harry’s finger tips were swirling around my arm. My skin felt hot. 

“I wouldn’t miss it for the world.” Harry glided his fingers down my arm and grabbed my hand. 

“Kenzie.” I whipped my head around to Louis calling my name, dropping Harry’s hand.. “Someone just got here.” Eleanor peaked out behind Louis.

“El!” I screamed as I ran over to her. It had been so long since she had come along for one of the boys shows. I hugged her. “When did your flight get in?” 

“Just an hour ago.” Anyone in the world could pretend they knew what I was going through but El was experiencing it first hand with me. “Thank god. I’m dying without another girl here.” She laughed and Louis smiled behind us. He knew how much my friendship with Eleanor meant to me. “Do you mind if I steal her for a couple hours?” I turned to Louis. 

“No no. Go ahead. I think we have rehearsals and shit anyways.” Louis gave her a quick kiss and I grabbed El’s hand as we headed out. 

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We didn’t grab a car or even a cab. We just wandered around New York with our coffee and each other in hand. Every so often one or two girls recognized Eleanor and I. We waved and said hi. “How’s touring life been treating you?” 

“It’s insane. I can’t do this for all of the next tour. I won’t be able to maintain school and my job. I love Niall but this is just too nuts for my life.”  El sipped on her coffee.

“Now you know why I can’t do it all the time. It just gets too much.” The air was cold and the wind had a bit of an edge when it hit your skin. It was just barely snowing as we headed towards some shops.

“I know but Niall and I haven’t really done the whole be separated from each other thing. I’m always coming along. I told him it would be different for the next tour but he doesn’t seem to understand.” 

“He will Kenz. And if he doesn’t you need to talk to him. He’s never done relationships before ever. At least nothing serious.”

 We walked in and out of stores quicker than expected. We window shopped for a little while. But got bored of it and headed to Forever 21 in Times Square. We each got new outfits especially for tonight. We walked back to the hotel. It was just down the block. There was a massive crowd outside of the hotel even though none of the boys were inside. We grabbed everything we needed for tonight and got driven back to MSG. We went into the dressing rooms. Lou was working on Niall’s hair. The rest of the boys goofing around with each other. I kissed Niall on the cheek and sat down next to Harry on the little couch in the room.  He draped his arm over my shoulder. 

“The hotel had so many people outside. It kinda made me laugh.”  El said to Louis. 

“Why?” Harry raised an eyebrow. 

“Because clearly you guys are here not there and I find it funny they think you are.” I laughed to myself a bit. Niall got up out of Lou’s chair. 

“Harold your turn.” He got up reluctantly. 

“Lou could you do my hair for the night if you have time?” I asked her. 

“Of course Kenz.” She smiled at me as she combed through Harry’s curls. Niall came to sit down next to me. He kissed me on the cheek. 

“What did you get?” He tried opening up my bag but I pushed his hand away. 

“You’ll see tonight don’t worry.” He smiled at me and kissed me softly on the lips. 

“Get a room.” I threw a pillow across the room at Louis. He caught it easily. 

“Don’t temp me.” Niall whispered under his breath. I tried to hide my smile. Harry’s POV

Kenzie was smiling from ear to ear. I hadn’t seen her smile like that in forever. It was the type of smile where she was just radiating. Niall was whispering into her ear. I was trying to ignore it all. Lou pulled through my curls and tried to tame them down. I wasn’t too focused on anything at the moment. My brain was a blur. This concert was so huge for our band and here I am still day dreaming about one of my best mates girls. 

“Harry! Harold!” Caroline was now standing in front of me. “What?” I snapped at her, not realizing how harsh my tone was. I had spaced out for a little while and didn’t even notice. 

“You need to get dressed. Stop fooling around.” I nodded and got up as Lou was spraying the last few curls down. 

“Alright Kenz you’re up!” Kenzie hopped up from the couch and bounced over to Lou’s chair. 

“You alright mate?” Liam came up to me and put his arm around me. 

“Ya. My heads just not in the right place today.” 

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The amount of people here was just insane. I was meeting everyone and shaking hands and thanking them for their support. We had just under and hour before show time. 

“Alright if everyone could please clear the area for the boys and family. Thank you!” Paul said. Family of course meant the girlfriends stayed back too. Louis was getting pulled into taking photos with his sisters. Liam was talking with Niall and his parents. Zayn was trying to manage his attention on his sisters, his mother, and Perrie all at once. My mum seemed to be talking Kenzie’s ear off. But she didn’t seem to care. Eleanor came and whisked her away for pictures of the girls. Kenzie looked absolutely stunning. All of them did honestly as they smiled and posed for pictures. 

“She’s lovely.” My mum was now standing beside me. I watched as Kenzie laughed and posed next to Eleanor, Dani and Perrie. 

“Hm? who?” Kenzie’s eyes floated over in my direction. 

“Don’t play dumb Harold. I see the way you look at her.” My mom knew when I was lying especially about a girl. Every time we talked on the phone I would mention Kenzie whenever I could. I didn’t do it on purpose. But she just seemed to always come up. My mom really had no idea that anything had ever happened with Kenzie. All she understood was the fact that I wanted her but she was off limits. 

“I don’t know what you mean mum.” I walked away and headed down the hallway opposite from everyone else. I still wasn’t in the right place. I literally have a show in less than an hour.  I just need some space. 

Kenzie’s POV

I watched Harry turn away from Anne and walk away from the crowd of everyone. “Sorry guys. I’ll be right back.”  El tried to pull me back but I needed to go. Harry wasn’t himself at all today and I know I needed to talk to him. I ran after him in my worn burgundy boots. “Harry!” I yelled. He kept walking and didn’t stop. “Harry! Come on!” He turned into a doorway. I followed him. He was leaning against the wall in the corner of a dressing room the boys hadn’t invaded.  “Harry what is going on?” He didn’t respond. I walked across the room and stood in front of him. “Fine don’t say anything. You were fine earlier today and now all of a sudden you’re not acting like yourself at all. Harold you’re about to go on. This isn’t like you. Put aside whatever you’re feeling and just give it your all…” I put my hand on his face, pushing a few curls away. He looked to me, leaning his head down on mine. Our foreheads were touching, his hand resting at the nape of my neck and the small of my back. He pulled me in between his legs and tilted my head up for his lips to meet mine. My body relaxed back into is hands as I pushed my hands up to his face and through his hair, pulling me closer and closer, just trying to deepen the kiss. He pulled back and walked away without looking back. What just happened? 

3 Weeks Later

Things really had gotten a lot better once we were back in the UK. Niall and I talked about the tour and said we’d work around it and see when I could travel along side with them. I decided to come with them when they were in the states and Australia for part of the time at least but honestly I was just praying Niall and I could last that long. I mean nothing was wrong currently. We had stupid little disputes about things but honestly what couple didn’t. Harry and my relationship was a complete mystery to me. We still hung around each other and spend way more time then necessary together. I wasn’t cheating on Niall. I’m not that kind of person. And our relationship wasn’t like that.  But Harry and I was something I couldn’t explain. Holiday just started for me and I was working double time at the Times trying to pay for college loans my parents refused to pay. “Get that Irish boy to pay them. Isn’t he rich or something?” were the words that came from my mother when we tried to have a “civil” conversation about my new “budding" relationship. Life never seemed to slow down. We’re back in NYC now for the boys Madison Square Garden concert. We didn’t know if we were gonna get to England before Christmas but it was all worth it. My dad was flying here to meet Niall. He told my mom he had a “business trip” I knew it was never gonna fly but she believed it enough. I watched as the snow fell from the sky. It was the holiday season in New York and it made me think of all the memories with my father. I couldn’t wait to be back in the city and spend time with him.  

“So tonight ice skating correct?” I glanced down at my phone and nodded in response to Niall. “Are you nervous for me to meet him?”  

“Not at all. You guys will get along fine.” We were on our way to the airport to pick my dad up. Niall insisted on coming. “Are you nervous about meeting him at all?” He smiled slightly at me.  

“Just a little bit.” I grabbed his hand. And breathed out. Something about this just seemed so fast. Even though it wasn’t. It’s not like we were this “budding” relationship as the tabloids wrote, we were honestly serious. The car rolled to a stop. As much as I wanted Niall to meet my father, I wanted nothing more to just spend time with him.  “Here we go.” Niall said excitedly, pulling me out of the car. I couldn’t help but smile from his excitement. There were no cameras, no fans, it was peaceful and I couldn’t have loved it more. It’s not like I wanted to shove my father into this lifestyle he never wanted. I took off my jacket and sat down waiting.  

 ——— 

What had seemed like ages was only minutes. His plane had landed and people were beginning to come through the terminal.  My dad was kinda hard to miss, fuzzy winter hat, round black glasses, long grey jacket. I instantly ran up to him and hugged him.  “Hi kiddo.”  

“Hi dad.” I hadn’t seen or really heard from my dad at all since my move to England.

“I’ve missed you so much.”  

 “Me too kiddo.” I let go of him and he looked past me at Niall. “You must be Neil.”  

 “Really dad?” My cheeks were burning. As if this wasn’t enough, my dad thought now was the time to be a comedian.  

 “I’m just kidding. Nice to meet you Niall.” My dad reached his hand out to shake Niall’s.  

 “Nice to meet you too sir.”  

 “Have you been taking good care of my baby girl?” Now my dad was not the tough type. Not one to “scare” my boyfriends. But he was testing Niall.  

 “Dad please.” He laughed.  

 “I’m just kidding.” Niall laughed.  “Alright enough of this let’s go please.” I shot my dad a look and he just shrugged. 

 ——— 

 We decided to take a stop at the hotel. My dad wanted to change and get settled in a bit. Niall went back to his room to let us have some time alone.  “How do you like England?”  

 “Honestly, I’ve never felt more at home.” His face dropped a bit as I said that. I knew how much me moving hurt my father.  

 “Good, I’m glad.” He straightened his tie.  

 “How is everything with mom?”  

 “As happy as ever.” 

 “I don’t see how you could say that when you had to lie to tell her you were seeing your daughter.”  

 “Kenzie you know how your mother is. She’s controlling and manipulative. You didn’t want her coming along. This was my best option.”  

 “I know. I shouldn’t be getting mad at you.” I twirled a piece of my hair in between my fingers.  

 “Are you happy?” I looked up.  

 “Of course I am.” I looked down again.  

 “Okay. That’s all I’ve ever wanted for you.” I nodded. “What’s going on? You seem very off.”

 “Did you ever want something but knew you shouldn’t want it?” My dad looked back at me in the mirror.  

 “Mackenzie what are you talking about?” He never called me Mackenzie and he knew I hated it.  

 “There is something I want. I’ve always wanted this…thing but I can’t have it because I have something better. Or really what I thought was better. And now all of a sudden I’m realizing everything I wanted is in this one thing that I absolutely can not have.” He came over onto the bed and sat down next to me. 

 “I don’t have the slightest idea what this ‘thing’ is but what I do know is that if you want this thing bad enough it isn’t unattainable.”  My dad always seemed to know exactly the right thing to say and when. But in this situation I don’t think this is exactly what I wanted to hear. Harry Styles was this unattainable item. I was completely and utterly in love with Niall because he’s everything I had ever wanted. But now all of a sudden we didn’t see everything the same anymore, we fought over everything and it felt like I had made the wrong choice. We and Harry never had the right moment to try something and we probably never would. There were time that this never even began to cross my mind but with how crazy everything had been these past few weeks, I couldn’t keep it off my mind. 

 —— 

I couldn’t have asked for a better night with two of my favorite men. Niall was a perfect gentlemen and got along with my father exactly how I had pictured it. It was a evening filled with laughter and love. It just was too good to be true to be honest. When we got back from ice skating Niall, my father and I all went our separate ways. Niall kissed me goodnight and went off to his room.  I unlocked my hotel room and flicked the lights on.  

 “You’re out a bit late.” I nearly screamed as I turned around to see Harry laying out on my bed.  

 “What the fuck are you doing here?”  

 “I was bored. Zayn, Liam and Louis all went out with the girls. I didn’t wanna be alone all night.” 

 “And I was your first option?” He smirked and shrugged his shoulders. I rolled my eyes.

 “Harold.”

  “Mackenzie.”

 “Don’t.” I unwrapped my scarf and threw it on the ground.  

 “How was your night?” I kicked off my boots and flopped onto the bed. 

 “Everything went exactly the way anyone would ever want it to go.” I stared up at the ceiling. Harry propped himself up on his elbow, leaning over me. 

 “And you make that sound like a bad thing.” 

 “I know. But it’s not and I should be happy.” 

 “Right. So then be happy.” 

 “Easier said then done.” I lifted myself off the bed and continued undressing. Walking away from Harry as I removed clothes.  

 “I don’t know why you over think everything you do.” He yelled from the bedroom.  

 “I just do. Why didn’t you call Kara? I’m sure she would have been thrilled to hear from you.” I laughed trying to change the subject. I stepped out of my skinny jeans and threw them on bathroom floor.  

 “Ha. Ha. Ha.” I couldn’t help but laugh. 

 “It could have been entertaining.” I pulled a giant T-shirt over my head and pulled my hair in a ponytail. Harry leaned up against the bathroom door and watched me as I took my makeup off and washed my face. I watched Harry’s eyes float over the reflection of my body in the mirror. 

“What are you looking at?”  

 “You.” I rinsed my hands off and wiped them on my shirt.  

 “Again, don’t.” I picked up my dirty clothes and walked past him.  

 “How are you and Niall?” Harry was the only person I probably shouldn’t talk to Niall about. But I did anyways.  

 “Picture perfect.” I threw my clothes in the laundry.  

 “Everything could be going exactly the way you want it in your life and for some reason you’re still not happy.” Harry laid back down on the bed.  

 “I don’t need another therapist.” I pulled my hair into a quick bun, messy and pieces flying everywhere.  

“Kenzie, I’m being serious. What is it about that?”  

 "Harry I don't think  you wanna hear my stereotypical "my life really sucked" story." The truth is everyone has one. There is always some part of your life that you think my life sucked. No ones is a bigger deal than anyones. Different life situations suck for different people.  

 "Yes I really do. Tell me." I sat down on the bed next to him. 

 "My mom and dad were picture perfect. When I was growing up my parents seemed absolutely perfect to me.  My dad gave my mom exactly what she wanted and he was more than happy to give it to her.  They always seemed to so happy. As I got older I realized happy was the last word to describe their relationship. My mom may not been the abuse type but she sure had a way with words. My dad was her personal punching bag. He didn't do one thing perfectly he got it. My dad was worthless to her. Still is." 

 "So your mom likes to emotionally abuse people?"

 "Pretty much yes. My sister was absolutely perfect in my mothers eyes so she got everything and anything she ever wanted and was allowed to do it all. I on the other hand was not. I followed everything my mom ever wanted to do and I still don't have her approval. I knew I wanted to be anywhere but near my mother. So I flew across the world and landed my self in London for school. Thank god too. Because my life has never been better." Harry looked at me slightly confused.  

 "Why don't you like picture perfect? Are you afraid somethings just gonna go wrong?"

 "I'm afraid that if everything seems like its perfect, it really isn't. Eventually something has to get fucked up along the way." Harry just stood their shaking his head.  

 "I don't believe it. For once in your life Kenzie everything is going even better than you could have planned. For once in your life can you just believe that it doesn't always have to turn for the worst." I smiled.  

 "You're right. You're right. God I'm stupid." I stood up and laughed. 

Harry's POV

I wanted Kenzie to believe that everything was going to turn out for the absolute best for her. And honestly how couldn't it. Her life was on point right now. I watched her as she walked over to the mirror and pulled her hair down again and brushed through it.  

 "Kenzie you're going places. I hope you know that." She smiled in the mirror as she brushed her hair. I was utterly in love with this girl. I couldn't help it.  "I better get back to my room." I got up and showed my self to the door.  

 "Harry." I turned around.  "Thank you. She came up to me and kissed me on the cheek. I wrapped my arms around her and she nestled into my chest. I kissed her lightly on the top of her head. 

 "You're welcome." I whispered. I walked my self out and closed the door behind me. I slumped down on the floor and held my head in my hands.  "I'm in over my head."

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Niall’s POV

I walked around the corner back towards the restaurant and saw red and white lights flashing. I saw a stretcher being put into an ambulance. The person had long blonde hair and Harry was jumping in the back. Wait. My heart dropped. “Kenzie!” I screamed running up behind Zayn. He put his arms up pushing me back away. They started pulling away from the curb. “Zayn let me go!” 

 “Stop. We’re going to the hospital.”   

“Why did he go with her?” I screamed.  

 “He wants to make sure she’s alright.” Liam put his hand on my shoulder. “He was the last thing she saw before she passed out.”  

 “Where’s Tess?”  

 “She was headed back to the hotel already I think Paul…” I cut Louis off.  

 “Call her now.” I know Kenzie wasn’t the happiest with her sister currently but Tessa would freak if she was unaware of the situation.  

 “It’s gonna be okay.” I tried to grab the keys from Louis but he pulled them away. 

“Sorry man. You’re in no state to drive.” I climbed in the passenger seat and waited for everyone to get in the car. 

Harry's POV

The ambulance suddenly stopped and we were at the hospital. Kenzie was quickly moved out of the back and rushed inside. 

"Wait!" A nurse started to push me back. 

"Sir you need to stay back here." 

"I need to stay with her! She can't know I left her." 

"Unless you're family I can't do that." 

"You don't understand." 

"You'll be able to see her in a little bit. Let the doctors do their work." She shoved a clipboard in my face. "Please fill this out to the best of your knowledge." I took the clipboard and went off into the waiting area. I started filling in her information. Name, Date of Birth, Symptoms, Allergies, etc. 

"Where is she?" I heard Niall yell. 

"They won't let us she her yet." I continued scribbling on the clipboard. "Family only." 

"I'll talk to them." Tessa stomped off. She didn't seem to thrilled about this whole situation. 

Kenzie's POV

I wasn't sure where I was or what exactly had happened. I was staring at a ceiling. Florescent lights flew past. I realized I was being rolled. I looked over to my right and saw a tube in my arm. A nurse looked at me. 

"She's awake!" What I assumed was the doctor quickly looked at me. 

"Kenzie." I blinked everything started to blur together. "You're at the hospital..." 

Niall's POV

We had been waiting for what seemed like forever. I looked at the clock.

Without opening his eyes Harry yawned and said "Chill Niall. It's only been a half hour." 

"We wouldn't even be here if it wasn't for you." I glared at Harry. Harry stood up from his chair.

"How do you even know that I did anything? You were the one who ran out on her!" Harry bit back. Louis came between us.

"Lads. This isn't worth a fight." Harry turned around and sat back down. I sat down next to Tessa. Her eyes were kinda glossy. I grabbed her hand and she lightly smiled. 

"It's just she's my baby sister. I'm supposed to look after her." A tear escaped from her eye. I rubbed her hand. 

"Shh. It's okay Tess. She's gonna be just fine." 

"Anyone here for Kenzie." We all stood up. 

"One at a time please." Everyone sat down expect for Tessa and I. 

"Could we go..together?" Tessa looked at me. The nurse rolled her eyes. 

"Follow me." I grasped Tessa's hand and followed the nurse.

Kenzie's POV 

"You passed out because you were having a panic attack. We also pumped your stomach because you had a high blood alcohol content. I'm going to look that over considering you are only 18." I felt my cheeks getting hot.

"Ya sorry. Can I take this off?" I started to pull the clear tube off my face. The doctor put his hand up. 

"No. You need the oxygen. No need to explain. Have you had panic attacks before?" I shrugged my shoulders. 

"I used to get them really bad when I was younger." 

"May I ask why?" 

"I don't know. My mom." 

"I see." The door creaked open. 

"You have visitors miss." The nurse opened the door further. 

"Hi." Niall came over to me and Tessa followed close behind. 

"How are you feeling? Are you okay?" 

"Tess."

'What did the doctors say?" 

"Tess."

"I'm sorry I left you. I shouldn't have left you." 

"Tessa!" I said a little too loudly. 

"Yes?"

"I'm fine. It was just a panic attack. And they pumped my stomach because of the alcohol." Niall still hadn't said anything. "Could you give us a minute?" 

"Sure. I'll be with the boys." I grabbed Niall's hand. 

"You scared me." Niall said. 

"You left me." 

"Kenzie I knew I upset you I just need some air." 

"Well excuse me for not having a better reaction to you going on a world tour for almost a year." I started to feel light headed. I took a deep breath.

"Calm down you don't want to get worked up." 

"Niall I'm fine." He left go of my hand. 

"Do you want to see Harry?" 

"What?" I was confused. 

"I know you were talking to him when you passed out. Do you wanna see him?" I shrugged. 

"I'll go get him." Niall left the room and a nurse came back in. 

"You seem to have quite the army of people here for you." She moved over to my IV drip, changing out the bags.

"We seem to travel in a pack. Where one goes, we all go." 

"I can see that." She laughed. "They seem like lovely boys." 

"They are. I really hope this doesn't make the tabloids." She had a puzzled look on her face. 

"I'm dating the little blonde irish one." I stopped myself. "Niall. He's in a boy band." 

"Oh I recognized them my dear. I have two teenage daughters." She laughed. 

"Oh." The door creaked open. Harry peaked in. 

"Come in dear. I'm just leaving." The nurse smiled at me. 

"Are you okay?" Harry came to my bed side. 

"I'm fine Harry." He looked down. 

"This is kinda my fault." I reached for his hand. 

"Harry it was a combination of the alcohol and what you said. I'm not blaming you." 

"I didn't mean to make you and Niall mad at each other. I didn't think he would walk off. Or you would drink yourself to death." 

"Don't be so dramatic Styles. I wasn't going to die." He cracked a smile. 

"Did you mean what you said?"

Harry's POV

Kenzie and I got heated back at the restaurant. 

"It wasn't exactly the way I was going to tell you but ya Kenz I did." 

"Harry you know that I..." I stopped her. 

"Kenzie don't its okay. I'm not upset. I understand. And everything just got really out of hand." 

"Okay Styles." She looked exhausted. 

"Can we get you outta here?" She laughed. 

"Doctor said I had to stay the night. I'll be out in the morning." 

"Okay Kenz. I'll let you sleep. I'll see you in the morning." She closed her eyes as I turned around to leave. I opened the door and looked back. "I love you Kenzie." 

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I quickly text Harry telling him that Tessa and I would meet them at the restaurant. The boys insisted on going some place completely out of my price range entirely. Niall felt bad we hadn’t had any time to ourselves and was trying to make up for it. I pulled my braid out and re did it for the hundredth time. I stood up and looked at myself in the mirror. I had on a black tutu shirt and a cream sweater that had a low back. Black tights and black heels with red bottoms to complete the whole ensemble. I heard a knock on the door.

“It’s open!” I said. I turned to see Niall come in. He was in black skinny pants and a leather jacket. His hair was standing up perfectly. “I was expecting Tess. I thought you were going with the boys. ”  

 “Just me. I wanted to wait for you.” I kissed him lightly. He rubbed my arms. “What’s wrong? Are you nervous?” 

 “Nervous?” I laughed. “Never.” I swiped a bit more blush on my cheeks.  

 “It’s just your sister.” He looked at me in the mirror.  

 “It’s Tessa. She’s different. And frustrating.” I decided to put my blush in my red clutch with me for the night.  

 “It’s gonna be just fine. You look absolutely perfect. We have yet to go out since we’ve been in America. Just try and enjoy this night a little bit.” I smiled up at Niall right as Tessa walked in the door. She had on a high waisted red skirt with a solid black top and tights. She had a pair of nude heels on and a nude clutch to match it. Her hair was pulled down to one side curled beautifully.  

“Bug! Did you finish that article?” I smiled  

 “Yes I did.” I clutched on to Niall’s hand. “Tessa’s this is Niall. Niall. Tessa.” She reached her hand out and he grabbed it.  

 “You can call me Tess for short. Nice to meet you Niall.” She smiled showing her perfect teeth.  

 “Likewise Tess.” He smiled. “The car is waiting for us downstairs and the boys are meeting us there.” I grabbed my clutch off the dresser and followed behind Niall. Paul was waiting for us in the lobby. The other boys had already left and since Niall did not accompany them, people were waiting outside. I grabbed Niall’s hand as we headed out through the doors. The lights hit my eyes quickly. I looked down watching every step I took. The car was a short distance from us thank god. Niall helped both Tess and I into the car before climbing in himself.  

“Wow, is it like this everywhere you go?” Tess fixed her skirt.  

 “Not usually. We have a lot more privacy than people think. It doesn’t get to bad.” Niall said. I dug my phone out of my clutch. I scrolled through my twitter feed. Niall grabbed my hand and laced our fingers together.  I smiled at him. He leaned over and kissed the top of my head lightly. Tessa began to indulge herself in conversation with Niall as I spaced out looking out the window. We didn’t have much more time in New York and the boys had so much planned for them. This “vacation” wasn’t ask great as I had hoped for it to be. Between Niall working and me trying to keep up with Robert’s ridiculous deadlines, I felt like I didn’t have a moment to breathe. I felt the car come to a stop and Niall gently tugged on my hand motioning for me to step out of the car. We walked inside, Niall’s hand placed on the small of my back. Liam and Harry were standing at the bar and Louis and Zayn sat at a table. I waved to Liam and he smiled. I turned to Tess.  

 “Please just be cool.” Tess rolled her eyes.  

 “I work in Hollywood. These aren’t the first celebrities that I’ve encountered.” I was lead by Niall over to the table.   

“You look lovely Kenz!” Louis beamed.  

 “Thanks Tommo. Not so bad yourself.” I gave him a wink. I looked behind me as my eyes wandered over to the bar to see where Harry was. Tessa cleared her throat. “Oh, right. Um this is my big sister Tessa. That’s Louis and Zayn.” She waved and the boys returned the gesture.  

 “Nice to meet you.” Niall pulled out a chair for Tess, she adjusted her skirt and began chatting up Lou. Niall started to pull mine out but I stopped him.  

 “I’m gonna go to the bar and get a drink. You need something?” Niall shook his head. 

Harry’s POV

“You really need to stop that mate.” Liam said.  

 “Stop what?” I wasn’t exactly listening because Kenzie was coming our way from across the restaurant. She looked so beautiful. Liam hit my arm. “Ow!” 

“That. You can’t have her. Stop thinking that you can.” I rolled my eyes.  

 “We’re just really close. Nothing is going to happen between us.” I straightened up as Kenzie came up to me. Liam laughed.  

 “Hello boys.” Her heels made her come up to just above my shoulder.  

 “You look stunning Kenzie.” Liam sweetly said. I took a sip of my drink and waved the bartender down.  

 “Thank you.” Kenzie adjusted her braid, bringing it over her shoulder.  

 “Is that Tessa over there?” Liam gestured towards the table.  

 “That would be the infamous Tess.” She looked down at her shoes. “She’s just itching to meet the other 2/5th’s of One Direction.” 

 “Well best not keep her waiting.” Liam held out his arm and lead Kenzie back to the table. I downed the last of my drink and followed behind them. 

Kenzie’s POV

“Thank you for dinner. It was absolutely delicious.” Tessa patted her mouth with her napkin. I sipped on my glass of wine. The night was actually going well. Tessa was the perfect quest and listened politely, didn’t talk about herself too much, and best of all she didn’t try and get with any of them. I was pulled out of my stare when Niall placed his hand on my thigh. I smiled at him and joined the conversation.  

 “London really is wonderful. I enjoy living there.” Louis said.  

 “It’s nice to be all in one city especially.” Liam added.  

 “I’m sure it makes things easier on your relationship as well.” Tessa looked to Niall and I.  “We have yet to travel heavily. We really are just getting into the new record.” Niall replied.  

 “Things will get tricky once we start the tour.” Harry looked directly to me.  

“Tour?” I turned towards Niall. “You didn’t tell me about a tour.”  

 “Oh come on Kenz. You had to have known it was coming.” Harry slurred his words a bit too much.  

 “You’ve had to much Styles. Shut your mouth.” Harry put his hands up in defense.   “Kenzie we can talk about it more later okay?” Niall placed his hand back on my thigh. I nodded without making eye contact. 

Niall’s POV

We stayed around well after dinner just to make conversation and ever since the mention of the tour, Kenzie had downed almost a whole bottle of wine by herself. The waiter came back to fill up her glass again and I put up my hand.  “I think you’ve had more than enough love.” Kenzie looked at me, her eyes were glazed over.  

 “No, no, no babe. I’m just enjoying a few glasses. More please.” I motioned for the waiter to leave. She stuck out her lip and began to pout. “Don’t ruin my fun.”  

 “I’m not ruining it. I’m saving you from regret in the morning.” She rested her head on my shoulder.  

 “Wow bug. I haven’t see you like this since…ever.” Tessa took a drink from her glass of wine.  

 “Maybe you should get her back to the hotel?” Zayn suggested. Kenzie lifted her head up.  

 “No! I’m having so much fun. Aren’t you sweetie?” She turned to me, the smell of alcohol on her breathe.  

 “Yes I am. But I think it’s time for the fun to end.” Tessa began to stand up.  

“Come on bug. I’ll take you to the bathroom to freshen up.” Tess pulled Kenzie up out of her chair. She steadied herself against Tessa. “We’ll be back.” I put my head in my hands. I was beginning to get a migraine. 

 “Thanks for that Harry.” I looked over at him.  

 “This isn’t at all my fault.” Harry said nonchalantly.  

 “If you would have kept your drunken mouth shut..” Harry cut me off. 

 “Niall I had like 2 drinks.”  

 “Don’t blame him. How the hell didn’t you tell her we would going on a world tour for 8 months??” Louis said. 

 “So you’re defending Harry? Lou we just figured this all out. She’s been so stressed with her parents and Tessa coming to New York, hell just being in New York. I was gonna wait till we were home and alone to discuss this.” I eyed Harry.  

 “Get your panties out of a bundle Niall.” Harry slouched down in his chair. 

 “Fuck off Harry.” I got up from the table and went outside. 

Kenzie’s POV

 I splashed some cold water on to my face. At this point I didn’t even care what I looked like. I was hot from all the alcohol in my body and my head was spinning. Tess came up behind me and rubbed my back.  

 “Bug you okay?” I let out a breathe I didn’t realize I had been holding in. 

 “8 month world tour? And you just forget to tell me?” I whispered as I dried off my hands.  

 “What did you say?” She leaved over me slightly.  

 “Nothing. Nothing.” She gave me a hug and I leaned my head on her chest.  

“Maybe we should just go back to the hotel and get you to bed.” I nodded. I followed behind her. I ran right into Tess as she stopped abruptly outside the bathroom.  “Harry what are you doing?” She said a little too defensive.  

 “I wanted to talk to Kenzie.” Tessa crossed her arms.  

 “I think you’ve done enough damage for one night.” I pushed past Tess. 

 “Stop. Just go back to the table Tess.” She looked back at us as she walked off to the table. “What do you want Styles?” I leaned up against the wall, my head still light from all the wine.  

 “I’m sorry I said that. I didn’t mean to make either of you mad.” I leaned my head up.  “Yes you did. You did it exactly for that reason! Don’t stand here and tell me you didn’t say that so I would be mad at Niall.” 

 “Okay maybe I did but…” I cut him off.  

 “But nothing Harry. You can’t say things just because you’re pissed I still went for Niall after everything that happened between us. I want you to be my friend. But if you can’t handle that then…”  

 “Then what? Gonna break up with Niall so you don’t have to deal with me all the time. Hate to break it to you Kenz but wherever Niall goes we all go. Including me.” I took a step towards him trying to stand my ground.  

 “If you wanna be mad at someone, be mad at me. I did this to you. Not him. You’re just pissed because for once in your life you didn’t get what you wanted.” I was saying things just to make him mad at me. I watched his facial expression and the words continued to cut deeper.  

 “You played me! I didn’t play you. I love you Kenzie and I was ready to do whatever you needed me to do to make me you happy.” I backed up and hit the wall. My vision started to go blurry. My head was spinning and I felt like I couldn’t breathe. I felt my eyes roll back into my head as I fell to the floor. 

Harry’s POV

  “Kenzie! Kenzie!” I shook her trying to get her to open her eyes. “Call an ambulance!” I screamed. “Kenzie please don’t do this…” My voice was shaky, fighting back tears. I shouldn’t have said those things. What did I do? Liam came around the corner and gasped.  

 “Oh my god what happened?” He knelt down beside Kenzie. I shook my head.   

“We were just talking and all of a sudden she collapsed.” Liam took her other hand in his. “Is someone calling an ambulance?” I sounded panicked. I was breathing too fast.  

 “Calm down Harry she’s gonna be okay.” Liam put his hand on my back.  

 “I just need her to be okay.” The rest of the boys came through the hall with a couple of paramedics. It was all a blur. People were asking questions and moving so fast in such a small space. They moved Kenzie off the floor on to the stretcher and rolled her towards the exit. 

“Wait. ” Everyone stopped and  looked at me.  Louis came close to me and said almost to quiet to hear, 

“No paps. The restaurant handled it.” I followed behind the paramedics. I started to climb into the back of the ambulance.  

 “Someone needs to be with her.” I looked to Louis and he motioned me to go. I didn’t want her to think I left her if she woke up. I needed her to know I stayed there through it all.   

 “We’ll meet you at the hospital!” Zayn said. I nodded as they shut the doors and began to drive away. 

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“This is Kara.” Tessa and Kara hugged each other and we sat down in a booth at the diner. Kara had been here for almost 6 months and knew the area pretty well. 

“I’ve heard so much about you!” Tessa said. Kara laughed a bit.  

 “Really cause I hav…ouch” I kicked her under the table and glanced up at her from my menu. Truth is I didn’t talk that much about any of my family to anyone. I loved Tessa more than anything but it was better just to keep my family life and my social life in two completely separate worlds. “Likewise.” Kara put a smile on her face.  

 “Mom and Dad really were kind of upset that you didn’t tell them you were gonna be in the states. They really miss you and wish you kept them a little more up to date on things.” I kept looking at my menu. “Bug did you hear me?” 

“I tell them what they need to hear. Plus she really sounded like she’d missed me this morning.”  

 “What? She called you?” I put my menu down to look at her.  

 “Yes. She saw the news. She said I had ‘explaining’ do to.” Kara looked confused.  

 “You didn’t tell your own mother?” I could feel Kara and Tessa’s stares.  

 “Guys, it’s my life. I am an adult.” 

 “Bug I never said that you had to tell anyone.” Tessa put her hand on my shoulder.  

 “I need some air.” I got up and threw my coat on. I went around the corner to drug store and bought a pack of cigarettes. I walked the streets of NYC occasionally taking a drag of my cigarette. I walked through central park and went to sit on one of the big rocks that my dad always sat me up on when we came here. I didn’t want to shut my dad out once I moved away. But if I only talked to him and not my mom there would be tension between them. I always was closer to my dad. He understood me better and approached things in a much more level headed way. I took my cigarette and smashed it under my foot. The air was getting cold in New York. I tugged my collar of my jacket up around my neck. My phone started to vibrate. I wanted to ignore it but I noticed it was Niall.  

 “Hi sweetie.” 

 “What wrong?” I laughed.  

 “How’d you know?” 

 “Cause I know you Kenz. Now what’s wrong?” I let out a sigh.  

 “Tess brought up my mom and dad. I literally thought that was the last thing she was gonna talk about. But I guess I was wrong. She didn’t even ask how my job was or school or my life! She said literally 2 words to Kara and I feel bad cause I ran out on the both of them.” Niall started to laugh. “What’s funny?”  

“You left your sister and Kara alone. I feel bad for Kara.”  

 “I’m sure Tess is talking her ear off.” 

 “Where are you?” I looked around.  

 “The middle of central park.”  

 “Meet me back at the hotel. We can watch movies and order room service.”  “I thought you had some big night planned.”

 “I’d rather lay in bed with you then get dressed up and be papped.”  

 “You’re incredible. I’ll be back in a bit.” 

 “Bye love.” I ended the call and completely forgot that Preston was driving me around for the day. Hopefully he had taken my sister and Kara wherever they needed to be. I quickly called Paul and asked him to come and get me. I decided to text Kara and apologize to her. 

Me: Hey boo. I’m sorry about lunch. I’ll make it up to you. The boys are busy all day tomorrow so I’ll come to your flat and we can spend sometime together. Hope my sister wasn’t too much of a bore. love you .xx

Paul pulled up and the back windows rolled down.  “Sup love!” Liam smiled at me.  

 “What are you doing?” I got into the car and sat down next to him.  

 “I figured you needed some company.” I leaned into him and hugged him tight.   

“Thanks Li.” I looked down at my phone and saw two messages. 

Kara: No problem boo. I know your family is a touchy subject. We can talk about it to more tomorrow. Have a good night with Niall. He text me earlier.

  At least Niall knows where to get his information from. 

Tess: Bug, I’m sorry about lunch. Preston took me back to the hotel. 

“Bad day?” Liam asked me as I dropped my phone into my lap.  

 “You could say that.” I didn’t wanna talk about it and I could see Liam knew that. He kept quite all the way back to the hotel and I was thankful he was okay with the silence. Paul walked us back up to our floor Liam went to his room and said Goodnight. I wanted to go knock on Tess’s door but part of me just wanted to let it blow over and deal with it tomorrow. I walked into Niall’s room and the room was empty.  

 “Hello?” A half dress boy walked out of the bathroom, towel wrapped around his waist and brushing his teeth. I couldn’t help but laugh.  

 “What are you doing?” 

 “I wanted to shower and get into my sweats. I felt dirty.” I walked up to him and placed my hand on his bare torso.  

 “You’re cute you know that?” I kissed his chest.  

 “Nah.” He went to the bathroom and finished brushing his teeth. I walked in the room and grabbed a pair of Niall’s sweats and shirt out of his bag. I was still in skinny jeans and wasn’t going to go back to my room to change.  

 “I love when you wear my cloths.” He wrapped his arms around me and kissed my cheek. “Any good movies we can order?” I flipped threw the channels and found an old Disney movie playing. I cuddled into Niall.  

 “Do I ever get to meet your parents?” I continued to stare straight ahead.  

 “I don’t know how they are gonna feel about you.”  

 “Why?” I sat up to look at him. 

 “Last time I checked, my mother doesn’t classify dating a celebrity as “focusing” on my future.” 

 “Is that how you see it?” Niall said sternly.  

 “No, no of course not.” I moved closer to him. “You’re more than what you do. I know that doesn’t define you.”   

“Then why can’t you show your mom that.” 

 “She controls every aspect of my life I can’t just…”  

 “You said it yourself, you’re an adult. Then show her that. This was your choice. Show her it wasn’t a mistake and it is you focusing on your future.” 

 “We’ll see. I don’t know yet.” I laid back down next to Niall and leaned my head against his chest.  “I’m spending the morning with Kara tomorrow.” 

 “Okay babe. I have to wake up early.”  

 “I know.” I snuggled into his chest and pulled the blanket up to my chin.  —————— 

 I woke up to my phone going off on the other side of the room. I pulled myself out of bed and quickly hit the talk button.  “Hello?” 

 “Hey boo. You coming over?”  

 “I just woke up. What time is it?” I looked around the room for a clock.  

 “Oh Kenz. It’s almost 1:30.”  

 “Shit! I’ll be right over.”  “Don’t rush it boo. I have rehearsal at 3 anyways. Can we just do a rain check?”  

 “Kara…" 

 “You will see me before you leave. The director called a rehearsal. We have a show friday and one of the dancers got hurt.”  

 “Oh gosh! You got the tickets for everyone right?” 

 “Course! I love you. Now go get ready. I’ll text you.” I had all of maybe an hour with Kara the four days we’d been in New York. We didn’t have much longer in America but I new we had to be back again next month. But I had no idea if I was going to be able to. Robert let me go this time but not freely. I unplugged my phone and flopped back on the bed. I scrolled through twitter for awhile reading random tweets. Liam and Louis always told me to avoid twitter as much as possible. I never searched my name I didn’t wanna see any hate, if there was any. I locked my phone and god up out of bed to shower. I started to pull my shirt over my head when there was a light knock on the door.  

 “Who is it?” I said peering through the peek hole. It was Harry, smile plastered on his face and McDonalds bag in hand. I put my head against the door. “What do you want?” 

 “Good Morning to you too.” I laughed and opened the door. “Am I allowed to come in?” I stood out of his way and let him by into the room.  

 “Niall said you guys had to get up early and do interviews all day?” Harry sat the bag of food on the TV stand and took out some french fries.  

 “They split us up into groups. Niall and Me. And then Liam, Louis, and Zayn.” I looked at him confused.  

 “That doesn’t explain why you’re back and Niall’s not.” Harry shrugged his shoulders, stuffing some fries in his mouth. I ran my fingers through my hair. 

“Well I’m getting into the shower I need to work today.” 

 “Work? Isn’t this a vacation?”  

 “Robert has me writing stories and keeping up with the same deadlines as everyone else. I was just gonna sit in the room and write all day.”  

 “Can I keep you company?”  

 “I guess if you’d like to.” Harry flopped onto the bed and placed his hands behind his head. I laughed and turned to go into the shower. I pulled Niall’s shirt over my head and let my pants drop. I flicked the radio on quickly and felt the water before stepping inside. It was hot but felt good on my skin. I hummed along to the song playing as the water ran over my body. I heard the faint noise of a door opening and closing out in the hallway. Ignored it an enjoyed the rest of my shower. 

Harry’s POV

I scrolled through twitter looking at random fans tweets.  “Harry could you go in my suit case and grab my black leggings?” Kenzie came out of the bathroom, towel wrapped around her body tightly.  

 “Uh ya sure.” I dug around in her suitcase looking. “Are you enjoying New York?” Kenzie shrugged.  

 “Not really.” I looked at her and tilted my head. “It reminds me too much of home.”  

 “Is that such a bad thing?” I handed her the leggings and she set them down on the bed.  

 “In my world, yes.”  

 “In my world home is wherever I make it.” I laid back on the bed and watched Kenzie brush her hair. 

 “We come from two very different worlds Styles.” I laughed. “What?”  

 “We don’t really come from two different worlds. I went to school, grew up, lived with my family. I got an extraordinary job and now my life is just published in every place it possibly can be. How is that any different from yours?” 

 “You’re doing something with your life that you always have wanted to. You’re literally living the dream Harry.” I looked at her reflection in the mirror. Her hair was dripping wet still, water droplets ran down her bare back as she pulled her hair to the front to brush through it.  

 “Ya but…”

“But what?” She turned around and set the brush on the bed.  

 “Nothing.” She picked up her leggings and walked back into the bathroom.  

“Whatever you say Styles.” Her voice trailing off. I couldn’t help but smile. 

Kenzie’s POV

I sat on my bed typing up this stupid article that needed to be done in less than an hour. I had to keep up with the deadlines and sadly that meant I didn’t get a break because of a 5 hour time difference. I pushed my glasses on top of my head and rubbed my eyes. Harry was asleep next to me. He had passed out at least an hour ago. I watched as his chest slowly rose and fell. He looked like a little child. I brushed some of the curls from his face and let him rest a bit longer. I heard a light knock on the door. I slowly got up trying not to wake Harry. To my surprise it was my sister.  “Tess.” She was all made up in her 4 inch black bow heels, skinny jean overalls and skull scarf. Her hair was pulled into a pony tail revealing the other side of her hair being shaved down as well.  

 “Hi bug.” She slid past me and started walking into the hotel room. I rolled my eyes.  

 “Why yes of course please come in.” I shut the door and turned around walking in the direction Tess headed. Harry was just in the other room and I really didn’t need him to wake up. None of the boys had met Tess that but for some reason I had a feeling Harry would be all over her.  

 “I haven’t heard from you all day. I was wondering what you were doing.” I pushed my glasses back down.  

 “Working.” 

 “Working? Bug this is supposed to be a vacation.” My sister had no sense of what having a actual job was. Since she finished beauty school she moved out to LA and made it in working on some Hollywood set doing hair and makeup. She was living the dream. 

 “Not really. The boys are working. This isn’t just some big lads holiday. Plus I was only allowed to come if I kept up with my deadlines.”  

 “Oh right. You work at the London Times! I totally forgot to ask you how that was going.” I rolled my eyes. Of course you forgot Tess.  

 “It working out just fine.” I faked a smile. “I really need to get back to work.” Tess began to pout. 

 “But I have been cooped up in that damn room all day. Can we please go out?” I looked down at my watch. It was 4:30. I blew the fly aways out of my face.  

 “I really need to finish up this article before 5. Then maybe we can do something.” Tessa pulled her phone out and looked through it.  

 “And what about the boys?” She hadn’t even met them yet and was already bothering me about them. I was starting to wonder if she could possibly be worse than Abby. I shook that thought straight out of my head. No one is worse than Abby. 

 “How bout I ask them if they wanna go out to dinner after they are done with everything? They might be tired they’ve been up pretty early.” Tessa face lit up.  

“I can’t wait!” She walked back towards the door letting her self. “See you in a bit bug.”  

 “Ya Tess.” I leaned against the wall and closed my eyes. Since I met Niall I had barely had a minute to myself. I’m not saying I regret meeting Niall or being with Niall or any of that at all but you know to have life just slow down a bit would be amazing. I felt a hand touch my shoulder. 

 “Kenzie?”  

 “Yes Harry?” I opened my eyes. His hair was a mess but still perfect.  

 “You alright?” 

 “Yupp. Come on. You gotta get ready.” I started walking towards the room. He just stood there.  

 “Ready for what?” I turned around.  

 “Dinner. You guys are meeting Tessa.” 

 “Oh when did you decide this?” I walked in to the bathroom and began to braid my hair.  

 “About 10 minutes ago maybe.”  

 “You don’t sound thrilled about that.” Harry leaned up the door frame.  

 “Well neither do you.” 

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I really barely have time for any thing anymore. I try and write literally as much as I can. I'm sorry for not updating in forever. I love you guys a lot and you always stick around and ask for more updates. I will TRY my BEST to update more. I really think we need to get a schedule for updating. That would help me. But Thanks for reading. You are all the best. <3 Below is the songs I listened to while writing. There are actually a lot more than you would think but if you wanna just take a listen to some of them. I'm sure you guys know most of them but you might now. 

Songs listened to: 

Adore You - Miley Cryus

Half a Heart - One Direction 

I Can Barely Say - The Fray

Beside You - 5 Seconds Of Summer

Kiss Me - Ed Sheeran 

Over Again - One Direction

Wherever You Are - 5 Seconds of Summer

Hold On Till May - Pierce the Veil 

Towers - Little Mix

Cough Syrup - Young the Giant