What's one more try

First goal met! Next goal 150.0 :)

5/4-6/4: 159.6/155.0

Waist skinniest 33/31.75,

Waist widest 38/37,

L/R thigh 24.25/2424.25/24,

L/R bicep 12.75/12.5, 12.5/12.25

Last week was a mess. I didn't meal prep my protein so I was eating a lot of box lunches coming off of the mother's Day weekend which was also my brother's fancy dinner out. So one cheat meal turn into three cheat days turned into an unprepared week and I was sitting around 158. This week I prepped a big batch of chicken. I've been counting my calories. I've been getting my fitness in every day getting my sleep, waking up and working out at 5:00 a.m. and I'm back down to 157 so hopefully we're back on the right track. I definitely recognize that if I don't prep I do worse so I need to make sure to have those big batches of protein prepared so that I can not eat those salty box lunches.

In non-food related things, I've been doing better again with taking my vitamins every day and flossing. I need to get the water picking back up to where it used to be but at least I'm getting a floss in like 6 days a week so that's much improved. I am getting a lot of fitness in which is great. I have my first triathlon in 2 weeks and my next road race two weeks after that and then two weeks after that is my first sort of deadline when our visitors come to town.

156.8! Trending lower! Counting calories everyday with the exception of last night's special dinner after a long bike ride. Getting my fitness in, getting my steps in, and most importantly, tracking and staying accountable. Even on days when I feel like I'm splurging, I'm still staying under or at the calorie goal the nutritionist gave me in October. I've hit my protein every single day! 49 days to go!

Waist skinniest 33,- 32.8 Waist widest 38-37.8 seeing a smidge of movement!

156.4

5/4: 159.6, Waist skinniest 33, Waist widest 38, L/R thigh 24.25/24.25, L/R bicep 12.75/12.5

Meals tracked.

Watch charged.

Clothes packed.

Praying for willpower.

I have goals. Tri on June 2 (30 days). Fam visiting June 30 (56 days) who will comment on my gains. Dr visit Aug 28 (116 days) who I promised I would lose for.

Goal: 153 by the tri (4% loss)

Goal 2: 148 by June 30 (~4% loss)

Goal 3: 140 by endo appointment (1.2#/wk average)

The oct Nov challenge was great. I loved the lifting, list inches and about 5# but hated the meal tracking after about month. Now here we are in Feb and I've gained it all back. I am heavier now. 158 😞. I have a month til my brothers wedding and I have a half marathon in two weeks. I don't want to be this weight. My baggy shorts are tight. Why is this so hard?

If I can buckle down for a month I can be 150 for the wedding. My other bro lost 20# since Christmas, but he's alone and only focused on himself. I just would kill to be back at my "fat" 145 self at this point.

I got all the new apps set up, sent in my start measurements and tracked my food today. It's a loose track, just easing into tracking with estimates. Tomorrow I will measure it as best I can. She gave me a calorie goal and protein macro to follow this week. No sign of the workout yet. I'm recovering from our poorly trained 10 miler, going for a walk today bc I feel like moving and want more steps but I'm really sore. My back and feet hurt.

Mindset wise, I'm feeling really positive. I can do this. I can commit to something hard for 60 days. This isn't cheap and it doesn't have a ton of coach contact but the weekly check in will be good and motivating. I'm a little afraid that I won't know the lifts but I think I can do it. The workout app looks intimidating. But I can read the how to and make it less scary. I'm reading the literature and listening to their podcasts. I really want to make this a lifestyle reset.

Need to commit

I don't know why I am struggling so much

Nothing is working

I have to remember that I am making progress elsewhere. I've read more books this year than since highschool. I've become someone who flosses. I take my vitamins and put on my night cream. The habits are compounding but the big one is food choices and amounts. I know the problem I just refuse to let myself succeed.