No better feeling than an empty stomach tbh. I almost forgot.

At this point I don’t even care. Starving is the only way I have ever successfully lost weight and I’m gonna do it again. Nothing else fucking works. So here’s to eating one small meal a day, if at all, and drinking a fuck ton of coffee. Honestly wish I could smoke cigarettes again too but oh well.

Lmao it’s funny you think I even have an ego about this dude I just want you to leave me the fuck alone.

Eating 1 to 2 meals a day without trying cause I have no appetite and when I do eat I get full very fast. Loving it.

I know he loves me but he never seems to want to have sex with me anymore and I don’t think it’s a big deal to him but it is to me but I have so much sexual trauma that I don’t even know how to ask him about it…

Why doesn’t he want to have sex with me…?

Throwing out all her shit felt so good. For a long time I just put it away and figured I’d always just keep it in a box but then I threw it away I kept a couple things I liked or thought were useful and there’s some stuff I still used anyway but it felt good to truly put that behind me. I can’t wait for the rest of my life

I feel like total shit about myself and my body rn and then my boyfriend and I only see each other two days a weeks and tonight is our last night together this week and we didn’t have sex so idk I guess he probably doesn’t want to cause I gained some weight or idk I just want to fucking die…

I need his support and he doesn’t quite know how to support me but I don’t know how I need him to support me either so idk things are just pretty bad in my head these days and everything hurts so much

I’m not doing great and today is a very stressful day and I have no support and honestly I’m not sure that I can make it through with sh

Well I guess at least I got hit on on my way home that kinda helped my ego a little I guess