letters

i'm so lucky to have these moments with you.

I came back from a very dark place and for that I am so proud.

look, you're gonna be ok and that's that. however this all works out, it's physically impossible for you to feel this way forever. this is temporary.

you're my latest war

how could you just throw me away like that? now its like we were nothing. you took so much from me and never gave anything back. fuck. you.

sometimes i wish you still loved me so i could have somewhere to go. the world has turned its back and i can't find your hand anymore. i'm not okay. not without whatever we lost.

it breaks my heart that you get to be happy. its always like that. i thought you were going to take care of me. god, i thought you were the good one.

sometimes you have to fall apart to come together again.

tell me you still want me like you used to. i never stopped wanting you. ever.

i feel sick when i look in the mirror. i feel sick when people touch me. i feel sick when someone breathes on my neck like you did. i wish we never met.

fuck being alive when nobody loves me like you did.

holy fuck. i'm so scared.

it would be nice if she was the good one

apparently you fuck with my head in the day time too.

do you even know how much i actually care?

god damn it. fuck you.

it’s not fair that i’m craving your false affection because i can’t find real love.