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What I miss most about the 2 weeks I was off T because of my doctor sucking was how soft my nipples felt. Like just as sensitive as they are now but they didnt get hard as much & I feel like that was a lack of T thing but it was hot to feel a softness I wasnt used to. Tits are so fun to play with

Thinking about meeting someone off of an app who shows me what theyre into by letting me look at their Tumblr and seeing that theyve reblogged or liked a bunch of my posts about misgendering and detransing & wondering if I should just tell them thats me or try to bait them into "introducing it to me" by playing dumb

Real name is Emily for anyone who wants to take advantage of my depravity (will delete this later so feel free to take note to use this against me another time)

At the movies alone & I lifted my binder so im just sitting here with my tits rubbing against my shirt

Thinking about the detrans hypno I watched a couple days ago where I ended up repeating again and again "fuck Im just a girl, I really am a girl" & how hot it was to just be told what to do and how to feel and how to be. Also would say "im *birth name*. Im not *name I use now*" just as like a cherry on top since Ive worked so hard to change my name legally and have people not call me that but here I am rubbing away to calling myself my birth name. Also due to prescription issues I havent gotten to do my shot for itll be 2 weeks in a couple days & my tits have gotten so sensitive & I keep thinking about how each day that passes is another day my t levels get lower and its been hot ngl. Like Im the closest to detransing as Ill ever be and its so fun to play around with that

Listening to this audiobook & this lady said to this rough & tough dude who got this trans dude pregnant, "didnt take you for gay" & the guy said "pussy is pussy" & I thought that was hot ngl

Thinking about sex where I get super subby & am laying in bed with someone who wraps their arms around me & makes me grind into their leg all while calling me a good puppy. It goes on for a good while until they tell me to lay on my back & start to fuck me till Im a whimpering mess

Need to gag on cock till I cry & then be called puppy & get praised heavily so I associate crying and having my throat used with warm happy feelings

I truly am a subby bitch at times bc when Im playing call of duty and start to get frustrated that Im losing a lot, I'll go on here, start scrolling and start rubbing and my mind clears up and all of a sudden Im no longer thinking about how many times I was getting shot, the thought of people shooting their loads in me floods my head instead

Not me forgetting I was on tumblr and just holding my phone slack in my hand with the screen facing my mom and what was showing on my screen was a girl in a top that shows her cleavage and she was pushing her tits together & taking photos of them

Last night I edged, well idk I tried ruining an orgasm but idk if what happened can count as a ruin, Id say I started to orgasm then took away my hand but kept rubbing my nipples and that was pure bliss but then came after like 3 minutes of edging or however long it literally felt like I was on the verge for so longgggg bc I was rubbing both my nipples with one hand in like a sloppy manner lol like they were so sensitive so I was just doing whatever I could to keep them under my fingers bc I had to like press my tits together to do it with one hand but my other hand was rubbing circles around my clit and I was trying so hard to not rub too hard but with just enough pressure that it felt like I was gonna cum for such a long time and when I finally gave in to the need to press my clit harder, it wasn't like a typical orgasm, like usually it feels like a big burst of yummy feelings but this one was like if the big burst was spread out but still felt so good and yeah I really hope I can ruin my orgasms some more, its kinda fun to edge like that bc I feel like such a whore when I take the extra effort to make it all last longer when I could just rub and cum and make it quick