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[33, filthy heathen, any pronouns.] Terrorpilled. i like to hunt and hurt men for sport. if you're followed by a different werewolf it's probably me. i'm VERY slow to respond to messages.
Welcome to my terrordome! I'm weird about AMC's The Terror 2018. Please tell me all about your favorite characters! I have brainworms about John Irving (he's chained to my radiator), Graham Gore (milking him) and Dundy Le Vesconte (redacted) but I love every single character.
I run The Terror Whumpathon Bingo, I co-run StanVoeux Medical Malpractice, and I am a baby mod for The Terror Big Bang.
Watch out for blood & gore (usually in drawings and paintings but also in gifs). I tag #pregnancy #gore #disordered eating. Please ask if you want something specific tagged, and beware my backlog probably isn't.
Drabble requests are always open! 200-300 words, any ship, character or setting (AUs are welcome and encouraged!). I'll make a post when I'm actively writing them and go thru my inbox.
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🩸🩸 [ :) About Me & Stuff (: ] 🩸🩸
30's, black/white mixed race, USA. And... aromantic? I say it to be visible! The internet is a diverse place if we let it be.
I love hurting the characters. Abuse, injuries, blood, open wounds, extended periods of pain, long-term captivity, period-typical surgery. It's so beautiful. <3 My cuteness aggression makes me want to hunt them through the woods and keep them locked in my basement. I'm also really into playing around with gender, dark themes, gross stuff, and all sorts of AUs.
Do I "ship"? To where? xD I'll ship anyone with anyone and I love rare pairs.
I love learning, I love reading, I love history, and sometimes I'll write a fic with historic background. I am here to play with these TV show characters like little dolls and put them in my saw traps. I generally disrespect most polar explorers and I don't think we as a fandom space owe anything to the especially imperialist ones (which a great many of them were). I don't think talking about history, current events etc hinders my enjoyment of the show and fictional characters, so I do.
I block confession and drama blogs and any TERF bullshit I come across.
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Graham Gore being injured very badly and nursed back to health. Who is best to help him thru?
Do you have any favorite Graham Gore rarepairs?
What is the best way to injure Graham?
OOOOOOO!! oh man. either James or Dundy for the first one. Dundy would make the most sense (Goodsir would technically make the most sense but this is not about him right now), but with James there's something very beautiful about being that vulnerable in front of a superior who cherishes you.
And I'm putting the rest under a read more because I had a lot to say 😭
As for rarepairs I reallyyy like Graham/Edward. I used to post a lot (a little) about them but I think there's a lot of opportunity to explore the both of them being first lieutenants. Graham is the third in command on Erebus, and the fourth in command in the entire expedition. Edward's the second in command on Terror, and he's still a first lieutenant, but he's no Graham Gore. Graham's on the track to become a captain, out of a love (and submissiveness) to duty, and while all naval officers duly strive for promotion I don't think Edward's heart is truly in climbing the ranks. He's a good officer, he has to be, because he's the first lieutenant, but he's still under the captain's thumb. So I think they fit together like puzzle pieces ☝️ I also think Graham understands Edward's own submission to leadership in a way that doesn't discredit his rank---they both understand each other is what I'm getting at.
I alsoooo. think Graham/Stanley could be incredible just on the basis of observing whatever perversions they get up to. Stanley has his fixation on James and Graham is essentially James' dog. And I think the genuine warmness that Graham has for his men is only matched by how absolutely cold and detached Stephen is ... there is so much you could do !!
But ultimately my favorite rarepair (less rare than the previously listed ones) is Graham/James. I think they're incredible. I know some people talk about the rifts and jealously they must have between them re: Sir John obviously adoring Graham Gore and how Fitzjames probably yearns for that same adoration but. I dunno! I should definitely explore that possible aspect of their dynamic more but I think Graham's submission to his duty (and by extension his superiors) is so potent he doesn't flag as competition for Fitzjames. Graham strives for promotion but he is Not a usurper. And in the scenes we get between them in the show-- Graham looks to James for approval after Sir John orders him about. I think they are very close in a very, very interesting way. I think James' vanity reaches out for Graham's absolute competence too. They attract each other.
And injuryyy 😁😁 man... I have like two abandoned WIPs where Graham gets his ribs absolutely busted. And another one where he had to undergo intensive physical therapy following a baddd rugby injury. And more where he just gets literally tortured (it's a hobby of mine) but I think the best way to injure him is one where he can't exactly suffer nobly. He is a charismatic, strong, and steadfast character so it's fun to just ... take that away. I like putting him in positions where he depends on people as badly as they've depended on him. That's the top best way to hurt him. The second best way to hurt him is by flogging. I did some research for a fic last year and read an article about homosociality and corporal punishment in 19th century English boys' schools, and how public punishment informed conceptions of masculinity as young men grew into their masculine identities, and it was enlightening! It changed the way I wrote Graham. This is just to say that I think flogging/caning/similar punishment was highly integral to how he found himself as a man and an officer amongst his fellow sailors. After rounds of punishment from the years of his education, he was never so far removed from the floggings that he witnessed as a midshipman or higher officer up the ranks; he could feel sympathy instead of satisfaction during someone else's punishment--depending on the offense. That said, because flogging is the kind of punishment that makes a spectacle out of someone's vulnerability and pain, I think it's a very sure way to break Graham down as a man. Officers are supposed to be protected (read: walled off) from that kind of shame and pain and emotion. Flogging literally strips them bare.
Ahhhh I'm literally saving this in my ideas doc you're such a genius. I need Stanley/Graham/James to exist in this world stat. What a godawful amazing dynamic.
Also if you have any links for those articles/research I'd love to read them!!
Reading about Victorian-era amputations and saw this quote from Scottish chemist George Wilson describing getting his foot amputated:
"Of the agony it occasioned I will say nothing. Suffering so great as I underwent cannot be expressed in words, and fortunately cannot be recalled. The particular pangs are now forgotten, but the blank whirlwind of emotion, the horror of great darkness, and the sense of desertion by God and man, bordering close upon despair, which swept through my mind and overwhelms my heart, I can never forget, however gladly I would do so."
Anyway so completely unrelated but Thomas Blanky from The Terror.
Pic 1: artwork by @calliopesartblog on Redbubble (this pic is a commission that Calliope drew for me and put onto Redbubble so I could buy a physical copy)
Pic 2: art by @caravaggiosbrushes on Redbubble
Pic 3: art by @spader7 on Redbubble
Pic 4: art by @vikkicomics on Redbubble
Pic 5: designs by @aeriann Redbubble (these are designed for and look fantastic on T-shirts. Aeriann was kind enough to put them onto postcards for me so I can have them on my wall)
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You can and should write fanfiction that isn't perfect. You can and should write whatever fanfiction you want. You can and should write fanfiction that brings you joy even if it's silly or goofy or weird.
Except for me. My fanfic has to be perfect and read like a novel and ruin at least one person's sleep schedule.
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An Arctic Garden in the Lungs by @willowbilly. Goodsir/Silna. 3453 words. Teen. Major character death/doomed relationship
read in these roses the sad story by @dundysoup. Fitzjames/Le Vesconte. 7942 words. Mature. Major character death/canon compliant/language of flowers
a surgeon's guide to how (not) to deal with soul flowers by ekenka. Goodsir/McDonald/Stanley/Peddie. 23457 words. Teen. Big Bang fic with art/mentions of disordered eating
mine all mine by @bluelectricblu. Fitzjames/Crozier. 2189 words. General. Forced unrequited love/flowers for survival/crack treated seriously.
Notes on a Case of Rose-Petal Lung by @gairfowl. Fitzjames/Crozier. 5820 words. Teen. Ross ex machina/set on HMS Enterprise
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I was tagged for WIP Wednesday by @coolbutcher last week! Thank you! I'm no-pressure tagging @blue-bismuth, @ferylcheryl, @fataldrum, @werewolfsone, and @scioscribe!
Here's the beginning of a little Angel!Goodsir/Merwoman!Silna fic! CW fantasy Christianity, Christian/pagan dichotomy, divine collective punishment, non-graphic body horror:
The Father God Almighty flooded all of Terra for His human children’s sins, and He cast humanity from their feet in the light of air to flukes in the heavy dark of Aqua, taking from them their fire and transforming them into monstrous half-beasts forevermore exiled from the firm dry ground of their homelands. And, lo! the merfolk were thus made into being.
The angel cried Goodsir flew in formation beside its host of angelic siblings as the waves arose to swallow the land. It blew its silver horn to announce God’s will to the masses of folk choking and flailing and begging for ruth in the cold brine below. It wept to hear God’s most favored children drowning afraid, screaming, their flesh and bones twisting violently in their skins as they were remade. But it kept sounding its horn, its tears streaking down amid the rain to the surging quilt of frenzied seafoam like falling stars. It did not break formation.
After seven days and nights the lamentations and rains had mostly subsided. The heavenly host quieted its horns and retreated. Goodsir alighted in Heaven with a newborn guilt to have borne witness to what felt an atrocity, but none of its siblings were so weak as to have shed tears, so it dried its eyes and numbed itself in the comforting light of the firmament that was still its home. As if nothing had happened.
Millennia have since passed, and Goodsir still feels guilty.
Its siblings tell it that the merfolk suffer to be alive no more than the human folk ever had. Remember that thou hast no heart for guilt, they say. Thou art an angel that hath no heart. Open thine ears again to their prayers, oversee without interference, and take consolation that we were not ordered to extirpate them. They deserved what was done.
May I go down and heal them? Goodsir asks, for it still shamefully cherishes having worked miracles of healing for the human folk.
When thou art once more ordered, they say.
There have been no such orders on behalf of any of the merfolk since their inception.
Goodsir had loved humanity. It is afraid that to love the merfolk will be for these mortal beings to end in another torturous cataclysm. It would rather simply end itself than partake in another heavenly operation of the like. But it cannot roost away from material reality forever. Not when the host has noticed Goodsir’s lassitude, its reluctance that is so dangerously close to disobedience.
It attunes its ears beyond the encompassing orchestral frequency of Heaven and to those thready signals of mortal prayer that remain. Aqua is quieter than Terra, with far fewer faithful to worship the Almighty even after so long. But Goodsir’s guilt must sit within itself like a flaw, a fault in a crystal, a misalignment that reverberates differently. Because for the first time, it hears the prayers of those whom the Christians call pagans: the Godless, and those who pray to other gods and spirits, and those whose ways of worship an angel cannot ken.
It hears the most beautiful woman’s voice it’s ever heard raised in song, reaching into the broken core of its being, a selfish pleasure at her individual existence blossoming within it. A song of immense gratitude for mortal life that Goodsir’s very grace yearns to reflect.