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They love each other.

H,K and the V City friends.

Kind of a continuation of my previous post

Also, I'm rawdogging ADHD, so my writing tends to be word vomit. Whatever.

Again, I think H&K are in a legit, but failing, relationship.

But why stay?

My theory:

This is Hs first and/or first serious relationship.

With all the things people have dug up about H, and the way the Van friends move, there is not a single pic, rumour, gossip, anything about H being with anyone before K. No exes have climbed out of the woodwork. Kind of surprising isnt it?

So why does this matter? I think it has created a false sense of loyalty for H. IF K is his first relationship, thats going to be a hard one to leave. They share friends, a past, and probably plans for the future.

He is young, just turned 25. Anyone a bit older knows how young 25 actually is, and to be that young and be thrust into sudden fame would make anyone's head spin. No wonder he clings to his past. Its a lot of change, in very little time.

I dont know how long they've been together, but lets assume 3-5 years. You discover so much of yourself between 19/20 and 25 years old. H who first met K is not the same H as today. I'm not going to assume Hs sexuality other than what he said himself, that sexuality is fluid. There is a lot to learn about your sexuality in those formative years. H writes and performs in queer media as a way to safely explore his sexuality. H stays in his relationship, if he doesnt have a lot of relationship experience, he may not realize it could be different.

(There are also the rumour that was posted on a gay forum, that H has hooked up with men in Van. Debatable if that's true, so we'll leave that out of the equation for now)

Enter C.

C, who seems very sure of himself, very comfortable with who he is. Someone who H sees himself in, can let his guard down with. The yin to his yang, his other half, different sides to the same coin. I think theres a big "uh oh" moment there, when H realizes theres an attraction, that this is a new feeling of freedom with C. Shit gets complicated. Maybe there's some character bleed. Either way, I think something happened. And continues to happen. Because they just cant help it.

Post Met Gala, H realizes how obvious it all is and panics. He can't have a known gf and have people talking about his antics with C. He needs to clean up his image. Again, its complicated.

And there's Ks back home. And thats so hard to leave. But he doesnt feel the same way anymore, and its becoming more obvious as time goes on. Letting go of K means possibly letting go of his friends, the future they planned, hurting people he loves. Hes pulling away, but doesnt have the guts to make a clean break. I do think this is shitty. He's not being kind to her or himself. It is what it is. Hes trying to make it work, for whatever reason he's finding to justify this relationship. But we all have eyes.

The Van friends.

They're shady. I think they know something is going on with H&C, although I dont think H has disclosed anything personally to them. I feel like there is lots of gossiping among those friends and K has talked to them about C&H. They see C as the "other woman" in this situation. There is no crossover with these friends and C, they dont support him or post him. We've seen Cs friend B and sister T openly support H. Van friends are not even acquaintances with C. The guy who is Hs best friend. Interesting.

Van friends push/post the HK relationship to make her visible, harder to erase from the narrative, to say she's here and she was here first, isn't she a catch, dont forget where you came from, she's been here for you blah blah blah etc. There may be more loyalty to K than H. Maybe this comes from K talking to the friends about H&C and if she can get them to show her off and her relationship, she looks like a normal girl, not after fame, money etc. Just the cool, supportive gf.

Definitely some jealousy and clout chasing in that friend group. They want to be seen with him and their proximity to him as a launching pad to their own success. H is their cash cow, posting about him gets attention. They almost never post about Hs accomplishments or projects, (his film friends do!) but post about being friends with him. Just utterly random shit on main to get attention.

H is a loyal guy. He keeps forcing these relationships to work, when he has long past outgrown them. The more time he spends with C, and the people close to him, H is going to realize he needs better.

Also remember two things can be true at once: he can love and care about K, and also love and care about C.

Basically, she told me she was really annoyed about Hudson being with Connor, because she’s not even a Hudson fan, but her dad actually saw him at this restaurant. And the restaurant is about 20 minutes from the neighborhood where she lives. She told me the name of the neighborhood and I looked it up, and it really is like 20–25 minutes away.

She said her dad only noticed Connor at first because he recognized him from the photos and posters she has, so he asked him for an autograph for that reason. She said her dad asked Connor for an autograph, and while that was happening, the Asian guy left the restaurant and went out to smoke.

Her dad noticed the Asian guy was very tall and that he was wearing a mask and a cap (and just to point this out, Hudson usually wears a mask all the time now). Outside, the guy only took his mask off to smoke. After Connor signed the napkin, he went outside to smoke with the Asian guy, and the blonde girl (who was with Connor) went out with him and joined the Asian guy.

Outside, the Asian guy pinched Connor’s cheek. That’s when her dad really started paying attention to him, because until then he hadn’t recognized him, only Connor, so he didn’t think much of it. But then he started noticing and said all three of them were outside together.

And to prove it actually happened, she sent me a photo of Connor’s autograph. When she sent it, I got excited and said it was crazy considering everything going on in the fandom (related to Hudson). I don’t know if she noticed my reaction and figured I was a Hudson/Connor fan, but after that she blocked me… but we’re still here anyway.

And honestly, all the information feels very consistent and everything matches up. I really can’t see this as fake. I also censored her name so she wouldn’t be exposed in any way.

Holy shit????? You're fucking amazing????????

Is this the same girl who said her dad lost the autograph tho? How do we have a pic of it if so? That's the only thing that's bothering me rn😭😭😭

Either out of habit, sudden impulse, or not on purpose, a hidden, stolen little touch when you think nobody will notice means so much more than big display on camera.

Jacob: Yeah, very similar level of spice

Interviewer: Okay

Jacob: No more

Interviewer: No more, like a medium Indian curry..?

Hudson: Hole

Oof Connor’s so stern with him…

First of all, I always hoped I’d never have to make a post like this… ugh I really hoped Hudcon would fully break the mold and surprise us all with their level of openness. And they have in many ways, but nothing is perfect. Alas, welcome to the realities of closeting in the entertainment industry! Sorry we all have to be here. Most of you know by now that I got my start in fandom through Larry. And honestly tonight I feel a profound sense of Deja Vu. I had a whole post about Hudson and Connor and their time at the Met Gala and what it all means, and that post will be coming in the morning! But Hudson’s little quote here made me want to make some edits to my speculation on their future plans. However, first up tonight, class is in session!

“Shipping” 101:

K is not going away any time soon. I said we’d see her again and we definitely will. She is being used as buffer and until Hudson and Connor decide to come out, she (or another buffer) will likely be there. It’s unfortunate but that’s how it works. If Connor and Hudson want to be loud, then they need someone to dampen the noise.

Hudson and Connor want to be out. You know how I know that? They show it. The thing I think most people don’t like to hear is that fans are not making things up. My mutuals and I have said this countless times. We are talking about verifiable events, quotes, behaviors not fanfictions we’ve dreamt up in our minds.

This type of fandom life is hard. It sucks sometimes. It’s obviously fun to analyze and look at Hudcon being cute, and support them in their endeavors etc. but you will probably sound crazy to people, and you have to be okay with that.

Keep it in fandom spaces. Don’t @ them, don’t tag them, don’t message them. Especially not their friends and family. If Hudson and Connor want to look up rpf stuff about themselves, they are free to do so. I’ve seen @afro-star say this before too: they have to speak up more when you push them. Don’t do it. Having us talking about them can either make them feel supported or push them into denying it over and over again, let’s not make it harder than it has to be, deal?

Last but not least, as long as cognitive dissonance like the one today has created exists, you are not crazy. My philosophy for when people say “stop shipping” etc. is: put your money where your mouth is. Maybe that’s harsh, but it’s true. If Hudson truly wanted us to stop rpfing completely, then he would stop providing the fuel, the content that makes him and Connor so obvious. Until he does that, one comment on a threads post he probably had to go searching for isn’t going to convince me of much.

+ bonus