Well Myself

Happy anniversary, philes!

It’s not like anyone, even myself, really cares anymore, but… I guess that it’s the moment to say something, even if it means barely a thing.

Yesterday, the show I grew up with, the show I learned to love and care so much and that has become such important part of my life to the point I marked it on my skin (I have two tattoos related to the show) celebrated its 30th anniversary. There was a big convention organized by a nice group of people that took effort in making this dream come true. It was not easy but apparently things worked well. I’ve seen fans happy, sharing their pics, saying how special it was for them to be able to meet cast and crew, as well as other philes who love the show was much as they do. I could not attend for financial reasons, but I’m happy to see all that love directed to The X Files and to people who created it.

It leads me to why I’m writing this. The two absent lead actors, David and Gillian. Yeah… I know the relationship fans have with a beloved show is completely different from the one actors have with their job. It’s not as emotional as we wish it was. It’s mostly business. But we all have to work and we know we get attached to elements of our job, friends, memories, the experience itself. So it makes me incredibly sad when none of them mentions the 30th anniversary of the show that make them who they are.

Am I disappointed? No. Am I frustrated? Nope. I’m just sad. I know there is the WGA/SAG-AFTRA strike to consider, but I feel like something went missing. It’s Mulder and Scully we’re talking about… and there is this void, this empty place of their missing this milestone. And it makes ME sad.

I know David is not very active on social media. I know he isn’t good at promoting his own work. I can understand his not posting about it. He has talked about how important the show was for him to become the author/actor/director he is, its importance in his life, he joined the writers of the show at the picket line with that funny sign saying The Residuals are Out There. It’s not the same and I wish he had a better team to take care of his SMs. We know he could use a better promotion.

My real problem is with Gillian, and it’s nothing new, unfortunately. The fact that there is a post about the 10th anniversary of The Fall and nothing for the 30th of The X Files is just one the things that pisses me off. She even had her SM girl online yesterday to reblog Connie’s post, but nothing about the show. And we know she could make it without saying its name, without breaking any rules if she wanted. And that’s my problem with her… she only uses the show for clout, for its money. Just a little reminder: Netflix pays no residuals for all her shows. That alien show she dislikes so much and she wants so badly to erases from her filmography is exactly the one that pays her the residuals actors are fighting so hard to get. That bizarre beverage company she pretends to work hard with drinks - sorry for this pan - from The X Files likes nothing else. Why don’y they have Sex Ed or The Fall featuring in their posts? Why Scully? Let the show be… or at least show it some gratitude for the fans and the most iconic character she will ever play.

I’m sorry if I sound bitter… it’s just bc I cannot with the lack of love Gillian displays for Scully. And Scully deserves so much better. She is such a decent person. As a phile, I wish Gillian could appreciate her more than she actually does.

Anyway, I hope, one day, Gillian gets herself a better team, people who really care about her image and her legacy, people who will advice her to do the right thing in order to preserve her name recognition and the career she built so hard without the help of any bf.

Stay sane, folks!

Bye

THE X FILES 30TH CELEBRATION ANNIVERSARY

day two — favorite season

favorite episodes of season 5 + VHS covers (insp).

@lgbtqcreators creator bingo 💖 poster design.

August 7, 2023 is the 63rd birthday of my favorite writer of the 21st Century. David Duchovny has written four novels, one novella, co-written a graphic novel, three albums of original music and scripts for movies and television plus a chapbook of poetry. Why do I like his writing so much that I celebrate his birthday? He has a style that fits my world view in a way like no other writer.

It was Charles Dickens who wrote this passage, “It was the best of times, it was the worst of times, it was the age of wisdom, it was the age of foolishness, it was the epoch of belief, it was the epoch of incredulity, it was the season of Light, it was the season of Darkness, it was the spring of hope, it was the winter of despair, we had everything before us, we had nothing before us, we were all going direct to Heaven, we were all going direct the other way-“

It is David Duchovny that writes in a way that seems to claim that this is every day. He knows in the depths of despair, a person can find something funny. In the celebration of joy a bittersweet wish for someone gone surfaces. He instills frailties and flaws in all his characters and then celebrates resilience and the way we find connections. Those who might criticize inconsistencies in his tone of written books, films or television are missing the point. We all walk around daily with tonal dissonance. We yell at the people we love while being kind to strangers. We relish the beauty of a sunrise after a night beside a dying relative at the hospital. We worry over things that won’t matter a month from now and, yet, seem to pay little attention to the significance of action and thoughts of today. We are intellectuals who make foolish decisions and we are fools who intuitively do the right things. We are selfish and generous. No writer expresses this reality of life as well as Mr. Duchovny. He tells good stories which cross genres and forms. He is interested in the way stories get told and how we connect to them. He paints with words a reality of life that contains so much tragedy and fairy tale, it feels real even when it is about a cow’s journey to India or a man’s fevered dream before death due to COVID. He is interested in how we all write the narrative of our own life and that inspires me, when I frequently fail to achieve or have done something stupid, to consider what the narrative of my own life should be, to forgive myself, to seek a reason for joy.