Saige

she started losing hair

she started losing her period

she started losing consciousness

(this is in no way an attempt to deter people from recovery, just some things that aren’t talked about that I wish I had known)

You can’t just start eating again- while you may have convinced yourself you are in control, recovering and getting back to a normal eating schedule is so hard and mentally draining

You will continue to count calories- the little calculator that is consistently counting and tracking will not instantly disappear, even if you’re aiming for a higher calorie intake you’re still counting and it takes a lot of time and effort to break out of this harmful routine

You will have bloating- since your stomach isn’t used to having food in it constantly, when you start eating again you will be very bloated in your stomach/ face, this can be hard to deal with especially with body image issues but your weight will begin redistributing properly the longer you are in recovery

You will be inclined to binge- when you start eating you might develop an “all or nothing” attitude towards food and start bingeing, this is not healthy, it will be hard to resist especially if friends/ family know about your recovery because they will be encouraging you to eat more

You will relapse- OR at the very least have the urge too, recovery isn’t linear and success comes with preserving even when you relapse and want nothing more than to fall into old habits that seem more comforting