Talking to myself. Got a little long for my taste so it's under the cut now.
It's like. I think the intended course of action is for Liam to give me whatever I need and don't have. Which would be fine, except:
He need to be 100% in cofront autopilot for it to be automatic. I actively dislike it when he's in this state and I try to prevent it. (I've been trying to help him learn to step back more fully)
I actively dislike poking around in his memory manually and go out of my way to avoid it. (Feels bad) (Difficult) (Virtually the same as diving into the sludge)
I generally just don't want to have to rely on borrowing memory from him like that in the first place because they don't get written to my own memory well that way. Why would they need to be? So I try to avoid it on principle. I want things written to my own memory.
That doesn't rule out just having a good old fashioned conversation where he explains things to me, though. Problem is, and I say this with zero malice, zero judgement, and all the love in the world to the bastard: God he sucks at it. Also, we usually need a chat client on hand for that.
And that's even if he also remembers what I'm forgetting. While he remembers more than me: He has sludge of his own. We're kind of just fucked if what I'm missing is deep in the sludge for him too.
So. Yup. Memory. Thumbs up