Wave Lengths of Thought

Coming out the box is the tale they jot, never see the picture because it's something we're not, I try to it fill out with the truth of me, came so far with to fall in disbelief, that I've settled for less, but became so grown, their thinking I'm blessed, well I'm thinking I'm wrong, so I listen to the rhymes trying to feed my soul, give it all up if I knew the role, but I know I don't, and i play my strengths, I know they won't, so i take in faith, the belief in myself is more than a name. Well the belief in myself is what will bring me the gains.

Inquisition of the position i stare, open mind to the visons we feel as they share, hoping for the best, saying fuck the rest, they put it to the test and some they beat the quest, but some they fall apart, we’re all searching for God, whether we know it or not, we can reach the top, whether we know it or not this shit will never stop, so don’t reveal the flaws, cuz there’s pain in every scar, so don’t reveal the flaws, cuz the living we know that it’s hard, man i know it’s hard, so i write upon a distance, the feet within and instance, outside the realms existence, thoughts they pounder an inference, alive i feel the difference, but never to feel complacent, i hope they can relate with, beyond the graved behavior, or ones beyond the savior, because there’s more to savor, and only we can save us.

What we come to a open soul, blinded faith for what we know accept the path because it goes back and fourth a bumpy road, what you heard you can't accept, emotions play beyond the nest beyond the fog we all contest an empty hall a shallow rest, and you can't stop the angers flow, because it goes beyond a stream, water high the ocean deep you can't let go even though you see, due to hope of what might be, and as the sight begins to creep, it begins to show it begins to seep down to your heart and what you keep, a passions thirst as a dying leap that protects your mind and protects your keep, defense mechanisms built in the seams, as you lose it all and fight to breathe, remember your worth and remember your dreams.

What you thought was just a joke, you keep on writing to keep it closed, meaning hidden from the real world where danger lurks at every curve, spending time to feel the worse i did it so to just reverb, feelings lost beyond the smirk, show us all the killing curse, it’s one we put upon ourselves by trying to be the greatest self, highroad living can’t you tell, but upon this day i denounce myself to being an asshole to protect my health, protect my mind because this living by being kind has been the way i’ve known in strife, has been the blade that makes the knife and reaps the pain that’s in my life.

I thought i could choose and give myself a lesson of, where i was and how i came tested truth heart of blood, but where i stand is understood difference maker the gift of trust, makes us believe that we will see beyond the shades of hopeless lust, its what we want in a moments youth, money fame the drugs the truth, take us back to what we knew before we became the victims too, society changes blink of eye, you were him a different guy, trying things, quit the shy, three years later your past the lies, that were told to keep you tied, to fitting in with what was right, but i rather be with what is wrong I’m no different i don’t belong, but that don’t mean i can’t evolve, grow yourself and become the strong, that you believe will change it all, tables turn and standing tall, beyond the frame that breeds the fall, growth beyond your greatest faults.

What i felt wasn't quite the same i open up to feed the frame, give emotions in Jesus name never knew but still tried a different aim, gave you something better when i told myself don't let up but now i see you were doing it just to get a heads up, well i was doing it for you 4 months and counting two summers of youth, i try to stay true, but long nights and missed calls can change up the view, false statements and deprived anger a release for the truth, but i can still say this if you listen to the context, i give you all of me for the sake of being honest, i care about you no matter what in my eyes i've seen enough to know you care and want the trust, to move past the fear of growing up, i just hope you know I see whether your being tough, your all i really wanted, i couldn't dream beyond it, this how i responded you were enough.

The only way out was the same in, i thought that we could communicate and maybe be friends but in a sense i feel what i feel you deal and conceal and everything becomes a bitter end, i hope to later in life spend my time to work and confide in the reason that hides and never resides in the image or sight, but in the depths of the mind that will always decide to move past the fright or fear that is strife open our souls and make it all right, cuz now as i write no one really reads understands the parts that come from the deep, parts of my thoughts, even though lately i lost, sight of the path and to endear is a cost, despite all the vibes i feel like i'm caught, i always say free your mind but am i really doing it, my thoughts aren't really me or mine so how am i really doing it, there more about connections of people i connect with why i can't be the same relate past the difference, or why the girl i chose, in which i open up and reveal the cloak with the bitter oaths, turns around and ignores the most generous ohms i have ever shown, or why the people always choose to self glorify things that noose, and kill the things that we can prove, to ourselves and not to who or the world of senseless youth, but all in all i can't change, or speak the truth if it comes my way, there's always distrust that will fog the brain, and thoughts like these will never reach the plain, that they deserve whether coming from me or her, so we live our lives where ever our thoughts concur, maybe one day it becomes a blur we become happy in life forgive all the past and leave all the hurt, because its what we deserve.

I sat down thinking of the life i have been living, working many hours while wagering for the feeling, one that i will never get, from her side i can't forget all the words that made me test myself along a weary quest for simple care and thoughts of trust, the reason for a persons lust but ended up with nothing but a angry mind that began to shut, began to doubt, the things i said from heart to mouth but really what i did not see, that i began to trap the free, thoughts of knowing who is me, i let it go i lost myself, journeyed far but i needed help, i gave it all i gave my wealth the care I'm made of the heart that's felt, she'll never know never tell because she's lost in the world that is her hell.

If i put down these words i can leave them in the past, when i feel i know it hurts the reason for the last, i mean three has been the curse its the reason i was mad, you know how it feels to know that shit won’t last, they always say it’s different and these feelings they will pass, but never do they go I’m open like a show read me like book and they shot me like a bow, but little did they know i was aiming for the heart, spinning in the distance just to tear that shit apart, cuz every word they spoke it was hatred from the dark, never killed my soul i just let it all depart, left it in the airway and i killed them with my heart, aiming past the fairway green to hit my mark, beam of Noah’s ark, that’s really how i feel when i see beyond the field see beyond the view knowing that i’m different no matter what i do.

For what its worth i never hide inside, because the truth that's felt can never be denied if you feel the same it will multiply and give sense of these misty sights that never fail to take the flight that sends you high and drops you low builds you up to receive a blow one that takes the evil grown from vicious women and meddling foes and turns it to the pain we know life in general kills the ohms that we made to give our soul give a heart and warm the cold around the ways we have shown i only say to display my thoughts because as i ride through the dark I'm in a time where I've worked hard gave alot with no regards to people words or the part where times are different i feel discard my mind envisions the path afar and as i travel it becomes the stars a foreign jungle that blinds and scars to learn the lessons beyond the ark and become more than we have thought.

One set and I'm on, going off the fire deep, I've lost faith in my song, wilderness of foreign things, never leave me alone, the ever thoughts that last in heaves, i pay the cost cuz they never leave, i dreamt it once, this greater being but all in all it ain't me cuz if it was then i would see that time is lost when i think and i don't act, i don't mean what's on my heart because it's seamed up so tight that i can't breathe i fear my thoughts beyond the deep they are dark and i can see that no ones here and no one dreams, they don't know they don't fiend, if i give my all its going to be, my genuine soul my feelings reaped, till i fall and become deceased, i stand right by and love my team, love my fam, love the seat that i took cuz its me, become yourself and let things be, this all happens when i sink, in disbelief.

How to feel in the open stage, eyes across their beaming gaze, that’s all on you to just amaze free their mind and spend the phase of transition in a wasteful haze, and never see what is truly fake, from the images that will lie in wake, to eat your mind as you, you fade, to never come back and be come a frame, that society forms and is the hate, that holds us back in this narrow space, emotions we feel and try to relate, I understand I feel the same, you want to belong and free the pain, of being different, to them your lame, but to you yourself you’re great, there’s more to you despite the change, of thoughtful faces that relay your mind, thoughts in paces spend the time, hopeful graces mean your fine, you watch them fall as you, you shine, it all will happen, it will all entwine, and as it goes just free your mind.

When I come up on a purpose, I can only feel it's worth it, things may reach the surface, and determine the pain that hurts us, so we avoid the common thieves that try and steal our shine, their hope to hit the scene and live within the times, try and please the world and never realize, that the truth is inside yourself, and not within their lives, of the people that we please, we tell ourselves the lies, that everything will be different, if we just give it time, never being patient, always looking for a sign, never feel the vibes, to understand our feelings, understand our minds, we give in to the feats, and lose it all to pride, that's when you know it's over, your thoughts have been denied.

Comfortable and confident that's where she wants to be, tangibles and heaven sent is all she really sees, nobody really knows her, but amazing that is she, I know it for a fact because I see beyond the grief, I see beyond the surface, her smile it has a purpose, when she lets it show then her world will spread wide open, take her from the dark, as once where I was lost, hurting becomes a cost, when you try and grow your heart, as I sit here from a distance, and write to free my heart, knowing that one day, it will go beyond the waves, and her thoughts will up and change, reach the inner being, because happiness lies in phase, travels to the low, and peaks up on a high, I hope you know I know, I was once that different guy.

Maybe I’m running away from the very thing that sets me free, finding myself behind the fog open eyes to let me be, open mind to let me see, avoids the falls and open seams, set the time and bring the dreams, open hearts that let you breathe, never pressure and never crease, that flow beyond and never cease, because we vibe and let it mean, more to us then the sky high beams, that we build ourselves and try to reach the surface faults that we have seen, from tv and the video scenes, or try to compete with unnatural beings, that are in our head and fade our leads, that we gain when we make the team, become the one and let it be, all in my thoughts if I let them see.

We all see with the thoughts of our mind, perception blinding the visions entwined, deep in our soul the fear of the life, we hold so dear but never entice, never supply, and always deny, like if it don't appeal, like if we don't want it this year, or should I say want it at all, at one point we knew how to deal, but thoughts as they shear cut the rope for a fall, one that will kill or show you what's real, weed out the fake that was grown in so tall, crowding the scene damping the calls, fucking with vibes and hurt is the cost, never for patients, the era is lost, and that how I feel when my vision is gone.

How could I complain, I have seen some brighter days, man I’m thankful just to say, if I didn’t have my friends, my family or the rays, from the sky up above me then I wouldn’t be the same, man I’m thankful for the past, and all of my mistakes ,the things that held me back, the people i misplaced, when it was all about the cash, as I wasted all my gains, I thought I really knew but I ended up in pain, or when my old old best friend was all about the girls, or that one special summer when my homie changed my world, might lose another because he’s lost up in the whirls, can’t see the bigger picture cuz he’s lost up in her curls, I was about to do the same, but as my thoughts were rearranged, I thought about the future, and where I really aimed, I see how we are living and it’s something I could change, I took a step back and viewed it on a plane, altered up my view, faltered from the path and came up on the new, something deep inside, something that is true, it might not be a gift but I’ll give it all to you.