begin again (hiatus)

[ update on me: i’m not dead, just... really tired. my dog of 10+ years was put down last week after a sudden sickness. i’m drowning in stress from college, while still trying to grapple with my depression. never thought i’d be one to have suicidal thoughts but... anyway. i’ll be fine, eventually. i didn’t mean for this blog’s hiatus to be so long, i really didn’t. i’m sorry. ]

[ grandpa dropped the bombshell, while i went to his house to do laundry, that my grandmother w/ mesothelioma isn’t expected to make it another week- and he tells me this the day before i leave for college when i’m already close to a nervous breakdown since i’ve so much to do. i could use some kind words if you have any, but for now expect this blog to be put on hiatus. ]

[ just little eva things: owyn lyons becoming like a father/kind grandpa to her in the time period between the end of the game&her leaving the capitol. also little eva things: her (ten years later) physically punching a commonwealth BoS soldier when she hears him badmouthing the previous elder ]

[ so i’ve been playing with a mod that adds the Storyteller (from Shoddycast) as a companion to fallout 4- i started a new save yesterday as Eva and put my name as ‘courier six’. apparently this is a little hidden trigger, cos it changed his recruitment dialogue- he flipped his shit to ‘IT’S YOU! THE COURIER!!!’ and i just. eva didn’t expect to be recognized, let alone as the courier (rather than the LW.) ]