hi im here!
well, hello marauders tumblr! It's Colleen! If you're following this blog, you probably followed it because I made some videos on tiktok under the username wandonthecouch, but I deactivated my account about a month ago. I thought I would want to keep it up in case people wanted to go back and watch some videos, but it just got to be a little too much keeping the account up. I'm sorry if people were wondering where it went. (Side note, I also got locked out of my spam tiktok account lol, so that's why that account is still up.)
I know I don't owe an explanation as to where I've been, and I won't really go into detail (idk who will even see this post, but i digress). The TLDR version is I went to get immediate professional mental help because things got bad. I'm not writing this for sympathy or attention (ew), I'm writing this to let people know that getting help is OK! It's valid! It doesn't make you stupid or weak, because I thought that for a long time. If anything, it means the opposite, especially in today's world. It's so scary to admit when you're not doing okay, that you're a danger to yourself. A lot of people can't admit it. And I know for me personally, I should've gotten this kind of help a long time ago. But sometimes, you don't really realize the reality of a situation until it smacks you in the face. And my reality was looking pretty dark.
Social media was one of the things I didn't even realize was hurting me as much as it did. That being said, I wouldn't change anything, espcially getting into the marauders fandom. It got me back into nerding out over fictional things, something I'd lost over the years. Now, I nerd out over other things and it's a blast!
That brings me to my next point: I'm changing this blog up, because I'm still writing fics (just not marauders, rip farmers market au), but it's just for different fandoms- so if you're not in the Pitt or (you guessed it) Heated Rivalry fandoms, feel free to unfollow!
I just wanted to make this post so I'm not leaving people in the dark about where I went- I'm here! Just in a different way (I'm going to be changing the look of my blog around), and I hope that some of you stick around. <3


















