will gregory allow me to have an order of pancakes to myself tomorrow for brunch?? i just really want pancakes...and i'm feeling selfish and hungry...

need waffles or pancakes to sustain my life

i'm really glad i passed my test. cause if i didn't i don't even want to imagine what i would be like. 

Wow my fucking life is so ridiculous and I fucking hate people and I wish I didn't have to deal with my fucking family sometimes. Like I love them but they are the greatest source of my stress. I am studying for the biggest exam of my life and it's like they don't understand that so they're doing everything in their power to fucking annoy me and stress me out. My mom just called me to ask for rent money that my dad put into my account cause, get this, my mom can't keep her bank account out of the red. Are you fucking kidding me? I'm back from Texas and we are starting this bullshit again?! Like no fuck all of you. Fuck everything to be honest. Are you fucking kidding me that your car broke down?! Fucking kidding me that you don't have money to fix it even though I specifically said that you should have tried to rent this townhouse because you don't make enough money. Like FUCK YOU FOR NOT LISTENING TO ME. MY FUCKING PARENTS ARE GOING TO BE THE DEATH OF ME. Also do you know what my dad did call me on my birthday. You know what I told him? I told him I was engaged. He's never met my boyfriend cause he's a fucking coward and can't get his shit together. You know what he says to me after I tell him? 'If he lays a finger on you I'll kill him.' ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME DAD ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING? Cause like LOLOLLOLOLOLOLOLOLLLOLOL guess what I haven't seen you for like years so it's hilarious that you think you'd spare time just to see me to kill my boyfriend. EVEN MORE HILARIOUS CAUSE WHY THE FUCK WOULD I BE ENGAGED TO HIM IF HE WAS GONNA HURT ME DO YOU KNOW ME DAD DO YOU FUCKING EVEN KNOW ME?? I'm laughing right now cause if I don't I'll just cry for hours and I can't do that right now cause I have to study for a test I'm going to fucking fail no thanks to any support or help from my own god damn family.

i finish my internship on thursday....and then after that i drive home and rejoin society and the internet again. back to normal life? i feel like i've been on vacation for like 6 months...even tho i've been working. tropical weather is amazing. i'm gonna miss it a lot. :(

OMG i only have 3 more weeks of this internship and i think i'll actually cry when i leave texas bc i don't want to go back to my family and deal with all the shit i left behind. i also just want to live by myself for a while, but i can't cause i don't have a job right now. i'm just....ugh why do i feel this way? :(