save yourself!

realizing that sticking to the "do it bad" "do it scared" mentality implies theres also a "do it bored"

Everyone knows about the infamous 2007 MCR show at Maxwell's in Hoboken, NJ. What I have never once heard a single person talk about, however, is the moment Ray Toro sings "stay with me" (from the unreleased song) into the mic that goes to the band's in-ear monitors instead of his mic for the audience

it’s june I desperately need to stop wasting time

Existence is crushingly hard. It’s very tempting to step off its road, to avoid living one’s life. One has to work hard to make sure to go through existence, not around it. It’s a terrifying reality that you can end up, almost as if by accident, not having lived your given life. At its harshest, and most literally brutal, it can be taken from you by the appalling carceral state, by systemic racism, by the endless crimes of inequality—by the theft of opportunity. But it can also be taken from you minute by minute by the shortcuts that everything you encounter invites you to take—to keep up, to do more within less time, to trade in wisdom, or even knowledge, for information. Our ever-shortening attention span craving its quick satisfactions—which affects whatever creative act might even be attempted, curtailing it before it even finds deep water—is the most powerful tool of the surveillance capitalist state, or whatever you want to call this enmeshment of powerful interests using our desire for instant access to enrich itself.

Ilya’s next seduction attempt if the shower up-down hadn’t worked

now these red ones make me fly and the blue ones help me fall and i think ill blow my brains against the ceiling