i am you, and you are me.

Dont be very woried about me since i deserve all of this

that’s buffalo bill like actually

was i normal / forgivable / worth saving at the party last night? be honest haha 😂 🙈

just completely unable to comprehend any sort of pain or misery he might be putting me through but also maybe im being the clingy insane one and i should take a hint

when the grumpy one is soft for the sunshine one 🌞 🥰 and the sunshine one doesn't appreciate that kind of condescension from someone who holds everyone else in the world to rigorous intellectual scrutiny 👀🔥👀 and the grumpy one low key thinks the sunshine one is a lil morally bankrupt and self obsessed for maintaining the facade even when acknowledgment of struggle and negativity is necessary for constructive change 🤭 😌 and they get divorced. they get divorced. 🧑‍⚖️❌

our text conversations are so dry and makes me sad vecause we are just talking to talk, which in itself is something, not being able to let go so we just make meaningless small talk which i know he hates but also like oh my god i held him in my arms not a month ago. i had him. we used to make eachother laugh and cry and yell by how excited we were to talk to eachother. i miss him and there’s nothing I can do about it vecause even talking to him just accentuates the gap between what I want to say but can’t and the gap between what i had then and what i have left

i know it’s not going to work out i know im just perpetually dragging out something that is done but i just can’t let go yet, maybe in a month, but he told me he’d come back for my birthday which probably wont happen, maybe he’ll come this month, maybe next, maybe ill never see him again

close enough welcome back April 2023

sorru to my ex if you’re reading this but this reminds me of when my ex was 4 hours away while we were on break and i genuinely would have driven that far to see him at the drop of a hat. But you simply can’t do that because it’s not reasonable to ask of another Person or yoursef!!!