life has gotten better for me. I still have scars from what happened two years ago, I still feel fear at tumblr notifs and canāt say some words. But Iām getting better.
there is a way out. This ānomā community is built on blood and bodies, children who were abused, it was so easy to say it would never happen to me. But it did.
I have had to come to the realization that I was groomed. I was used by people I thought were friends. I was tricked into producing content that I told myself I was ok with but I wasnāt. I was raw and naked so when they ostracized me, it felt like hell. I almost died. I almost left my partner and real friends behind. All over what is really a kink that I shouldnāt have been playing with, at least not in the way I was. I thought people were safe, but they werenāt. There is no way of twisting Vore that makes it less of a fetish thing, thatās what it is. You donāt need to find it arousing to accept that it is a fetish and children shouldnāt be interacting with it. Children shouldnāt be making art and writing for adults of that content.
i survived. Im still alive, Iāve been accepted into multiple colleges, including my dream college. I donāt feel like offing myself every day, I donāt miss them anymore. Because they were predators. Maybe not on purpose, but thatās what they were. Life goes on. Thereās always another thing to enjoy, a safer thing, a fandom that isnāt adults and children pretending that a kink isnāt a kink. I can draw for people who donāt use me for it, and wonāt hurt me. I donāt need to do things that make me uncomfortable. I can just be comfortable now. I donāt need to be in pain. I can say āvore is a kink that I developed from being exposed to it repeatedly when I was really little, and thatās ok, if I donāt like it I will just not interact with it.ā
there are people out there who wonāt hurt you. There are adults that donāt see children as prey and care about them. There are fandoms that arenāt sickening and let predators form from kids and adults. You can feel safe. You can leave, you can stop pretending that this is ok, that youāre comfortable.
life moves on.
this rant gets me nothing, but I have seen people spit on you, VCW, because sometimes itās hard to believe that there is an afterwards. Children will fight against disillusion because reality hurts at first, they are mad because you show the ugly parts. But your words do mean something, your actions have helped people.
To anyone reading, if you were hurt by the Vore community, there is an after. There is another fandom waiting for you, another group of friends who wonāt use you, and real things to live for. I have no grudge against those who hurt me, I would still let them into my life, but I am more careful now, and that is ok.
