just another white elm growing at the end of town

im not even fucking doing anything wrong you guys just dont see us as people. there's no reason for you guys to not like us you just dont care

How to ask for reassurance without just being deeply fucking annoying

even if i did it now nobody would care because im not an obedient kid anymore. the price of autonomy is loneliness

Genuinely was just never meant to make it this far

highk prob killing myself before I graduate

IM GONNA KILL MYSELFFFFF

I hate band so so fucking much oh my god irene im going to find you

im not even joking im not even joking I hate all of you except our psrtners so much

I hope ALLLL of you die

I DONT HAVE ANY FUCKING. DRUMLINE SPIRIT YOU DONT TREAT US LIKE PEOPLE

only good for being idealized and used #girlwhatever

like if a byoukidere actually just hated you

im going to say things we will blatantly regret later and that only feel that way because im taking them in bad faith if i let myself actually speak. but im never allowed to actually speak

obviously im exaggerating so none of this matters. but I want to be more than just the bad part of a person. we aren't very separate but even then I want to be seen like a person even when im 'being like that'. is that so bad to want. I want people to see me as literally anything more than just what they want from me. and lord forbid I express this because I have to mask it behind 10 layers of I Know I'm Dramatic and Too Sensitive when am I allowed to actually feel