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It's probably better this way anyways and it was stupid of me to think things would turn out differently. I shouldn't have tried or hoped or exposed myself to this again. Or believed that what was said to me was not just something to make me feel better and not a lasting feeling. I'm so upset. I'm deleting this app from my phone.

Skyler acknowledges every selfie Julian posts but not me in any way at all. Reblogs the pic that they tag them in but not the one I do and claims they "haven't been on tumblr for a while". Yea ok. I get it. I'm v v v upset.

I'm v depressed & lonely & I miss Skyler a lot & we haven't seen each other in 2 months but I feel like they don't care about me right now. They seem to not care about seeing me or spending time with me or cuddling with me. they don't tell me anything lately they just post online and are distant/detached towards me. I'm trying to just leave them alone and not say anything. I know they are having a difficult & stressful time and they know this distance is hurtful to me. My friends don't care what I post or send them anymore either. Certainly not Skyler either anymore. I guess no ones online apparently when I am which is not true. I'm just constantly ignored by the people I care about. People think I don't deserve my url now too. So why even bother honestly. This post is a mess.

they played robyn at work today & i almost cried

Secondarily I also constantly worry that because they aren't telling me things they are just telling someone else instead but that's not true either and I know that. It's very hard to convince myself though

Everytime I go to talk to Skyler lately I just think they really wouldn't care about whatever it is I have to show them or say & I should just leave them alone. They're too busy to talk to me anyways. Sometimes I feel like we wouldn't talk at all if I didn't engage them first and then I feel like I'm just making everything up and imposing on them and they don't care about me. Which I've been told is not true at all but it's difficult to be confident about it. Especially when they are often rly distant towards me because of their own anxiety problems. Anyways I just feel crappy...

i can only browse this website if i pretend the majority of my mutuals arent actually my friends, which tbqh is probably true anyways

Happy Valentine's Day I love Skyler

i dont want to be on tumblr anymore & i wish i was less sensitive

bummed that didnt get reblogged :c

currently/for the last 2 days wondering if skyler will say anything to me for valentines

It’s so much work not throwing up every morning. I just want to sleep

Skyler asked why I was lonely earlier & I just told them I didn't know... (ᴗ˳ᴗ)

im kind of feeling uneasy about following justine again, not because theyre not great, but because they visited the city that i live in from the other side of the country but didnt even bother to text me? so they really dont value me much as a friend i guess. idk. i followed them anyways but im still kind of upset about it

Everything's ok