Poetry

Spill spill my feelings in a well

Drop after drop the well is filled

No space no room for more

Where do i go now?

I am a burden

Feelings are my burden

I lock myself inside

Watch the key burn in flames

Im safe inside

No one to hurt me

But those feelings never stop

They're always on the road

Travelling throughout my soul

Never settle never calm

Never stop ringing my alarm

If only i shut it down

Smash and snooze

Instead i crush my soul

Shape it into a tiny box

Where i shall save up all my sorrows

All my bad memories that sting too

Guard it close with an iron fist

Lock it with steel and chains

Those are toxins to my brain

But the good memories I shall keep

Safe and sound they remain

Where they can be the flare in my darkness

To guide me through my night

With every tick i hear

A new second is born

With every tick i hear

Another is set to die

Tick…Tick…Tick…

Swiping the dust off

the clock stare back

Only to remind me

I can't stay in the fog

Trapped by myself

Afriad of losing myself

In the maze I was born in

Tick…Tick…Tick…

Hearing a distant laugh

Through the barrier i listen

Though the cracks i peek

Only to be blinded by

The sun of a summer day

I wish to escape my prison

I Smell flowers through

The thick concrete wall

I feel the warm sun

Through it's tiny cracks

Tick…Tick…Tick…

My heart pumps them non-stop into my mind.

They do me no good and give me no pride.

But that's me what can i do?

My thoughts are carved onto my face.

And every move and sound i make.

So here i write this in utter silence

With my thoughts but they can't stay quiet.

They are my lifelong friends.

We argue and fight all the time.

We're in a prison and no one can escape.

The world is spinning so fast but i see u so still and clear.

Smiling back like u came to save me from this whrilpool.

i hold onto you, you help me find my peace.

Thought i made it, but our bond brittles.

I see pieces of it fly away into the darkness.

Then i fly away with them.

Falling down, seeing pity on your face.

If you care, how are you so cruel?

But it doesn't matter, all i got is handful of sorrow.

My arm up reaching for the help i need

But if there's no help then what do i seek?

Your love is all i need.

But if there's no love then what do i seek?

A thought leaves

Another comes greeting

My mind is overloaded and heavy

Put it out of it's misery

I'm not worthy

Make them stop

Sweetie, make them stop

You make them stop, sweetie

Then you gave up, sweetie

You can't stand this

The worse of me

Neither can I

But i try to be

Better, happier

Loveable, worthy

I'm just not worthy, sweetie

I'll be eating cookies in the shade

Mistakes were made

Words were said

Wish my tears can go back in time

To tell you i love you instead

But my love for you

Is forever growing

No matter what i said

And i will learn more about you

Be wiser just for you

Make you smile or happy too

That's what i care about and it's you

Hear your voice at night

Admire your smile by day

That's the life i want

Forever, Then and today

Trust me cookie One last time

As history shall not repeat itself

only repeat my hand in yours

Your beloved smile glowing in my mind

Your laughter echoing in my heart

With every beat it beats

Here i am as i write this

My life on pause and frozen

Waiting for my day to start

Only when you wake up,

Can i open my eyes for a new day

Forgive and maybe forget

But you will forget

As this will fade as unimportant memory

Against the memories we shall create

Full of you, me and happiness

Praying all day that you trust me

Believe me and love me

You're my blessing from God

That i won't mistreat again

I thank God you're here

*I love you* to the farthest universe and always back

While i wait

As the sun burns my skin

I'm burning in hell as i sin

Oh, look at the cloudy sky

No faith left, so i gotta lie

Lie and lie

Get used to it

Love it, adore it

We all lie

Part of us dies Everytime

We lose ourselves in this world

A world full of lies

We trust in lies

The truth is burnt and dead

Lies only remain

As grains of sands they lay

Run to me

While i die

As my lies burn my skin alive