The words float around in my mouth then
As fear makes my stomach churn,
But my heart grows warm with excitement
Things I don’t know if I’ll be able to give you
Once you come into this nasty world
Pictures played in my mind when I saw
Resting on his chest, sleeping soundly
Hands ghosting through your fine
Fingers tracing your back
Nestled in my arms, calm and serene
The one that never failed
Playing at the park, giggling as we pushed you
And took turns going down the slide
And when you slipped from my womb
It felt like the stars slipped from the sky
I didn’t get to meet you,
My one job was to protect you,
And as relief washed through me as I lost you
To lose something I love so much
If I could’ve held you in my womb forever
Just a tiny egg, not sentient or feeling
Because I know you’d be safe,
And I never would’ve lost you
To hear your little pitter patter of feet
What I wouldn’t sacrifice to feel you
Snuggled against my breast,
Tummy filling and cooing softly
As I knew I was giving you life
As you would’ve given me life
June 27th will come, and June 27th will go
And you will not be here,
Heaven wanted to keep you a bit longer
I’m so sorry my little Junebug
That my body became a grave
Before it could become a cradle
Something we almost were to you,
But never got the chance to be