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I turn 18 in about 7 hours. How exciting (not really). I kind of thought I’d be dead by now.

But - I’m unfortunately still around.

I think I may set up an appointment with my doctor to be either be put back on my meds or get an official diagnosis of some sort cause I know I’m not normal in the slightest.

Thanks to severe bullying, neglect, etc. \(n_n)/

Deep down, I always think people around me - hate me. I don’t care or anything, I just wish someone could atleast tolerate me.

I want to get closer to my mutuals here ,, but I get quite nervous.

I may potentially make a fic as I get more free time on my hands. Just maybe, if I seem proud of the first chapter I may let you all see it

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I am dreading more as my birthday comes closer and closer - since I will be needing to call my biological mother. I might just zone out through the whole conversation to prevent myself from simply spiraling.

I recently had some conflicts with an acquaintance - and they had the utmost nerve to claim that they know the type of person that I am?

You do not fucking know me. Don’t be saying things like that when we’ve been “friends” for less than half a year.

It just makes me want to withdraw from everything. I hate assumptions.

Ahh .. my birthday is up and coming sooner than I expected.

I’ve noticed that the characters I love and relate to heavily- have a tendency of not feeling human or accepting that they aren’t human/real

Hello my dear crows!

If you’d like to follow my twitter; it’s here !

I’d love to have more mutuals on there :)

I’m slowly picking up Russian. I really have an enjoyment with languages. I want to learn Tagalog next.

Goodnight my dear crows. May each and every one of you sleep well and wake up well rested - or if we do not share aligning timezones ; I wish you a great day filled with much enjoyment.

First day of this answering a question a day, this will be a special 2 in 1. As I see no difference in either question..

“Piece of media that left a lasting impact on you?”

Well, There’s multiple things that has left an impact on me..but if I could stick with two. I would Divergent by Veronica Roth which I’d say the book are good, or Avatar the Last Airbender. Both of these are super different on target audiences - but have the same message and ultimately the same themes even if one of them is a kids show. Both have shown me a different approach and perspective of how the world could end up.

“Favorite Film?”

Now I will give you a very different answer for this. I absolutely love movies, especially rewatching my favorite ones. If I could stick to just one. It would be either Bones and All or The Florida Project. One provides me of how love can be engulfing yourself into another until you cannot return to yourself, and the other provides how much love can be crucial for anyone - and if overlooked , it can have its drawbacks. The Florida Project is a big comfort / sad movie for me to watch.

I am coming to the conclusion that I am quite boring so, what I might try to do is find random questions online - like an ask game and answer one every few days.

It defeats the purpose of an ask game but I figured why not?

Just to be consistent on this blog - and maybe entice some conversation or something.