Picking the best and worst time for this as tumblr is making insane changes lol
Although I don't really interact with anyone on here, I'll do it the big dramatic way because I always get so sad when people just suddenly disappear from the Internet.
This blog will be going inactive.
I made the decision about a month or so ago, but the new changes are just a good extra-initiative to finally type this up.
The chance I'll come back isn't exactly zero, but saying βindefinite hiatusβ would still feel dishonest.
I want to say a big thank you to all the artists and creators that have kept creating GW2 art over the years, I've enjoyed it a lot & I love sharing what I enjoy. It would be impossible to express how inspiring all of it was to me, and how excited I was every time an artist I wasn't yet aware off landed on my dashboard. While I don't really share my art anymore, there was a time when other GW2 artists greatly motivated me to make my own fan art of the game, and to try out new things.
It's great to see that the community is still here, even though some have left over the years.
Also a big thank you to everyone I commissioned / who created art for me over the years, and a heartfelt apology that I essentially only bought gold commissions β I might be swimming in gold but irl I'm just not in a position to pay for art (frequently). Soooo sorry for that. Also, to those still taking gold commissions, god damnit raise those prices. 100G is literally less than 5β¬ / 5$ right now.
Cheers all, keep on creating, no matter if it's GW2 art, personal art, vent art, whatever. Make it bad make it ugly try something new do something fun share it with the world share it with your friends keep it as your little secret. I've been trying new things recently and it's been helping my mental health greatly.
There's still a lot of art in my queue (most without responses, thank fuck) and I'll probably continue to check in for a week or so but then I'll stop logging in.
Reasons under the cut
Not gonna get too much into detail because it would just be too long, but I've been steadily losing interest in the game. Almost all my friends have quit and the latest update to raids made me realize this once more, all while being shipped with the horrendous wardrobe change. There have been multiple changes over the years that I... disagree with, some visible, some not so much. I don't hate the game or the devs, it's an amazing game, I'd always recommend it to anyone, I've just not been liking the direction ANet has taking and as a veteran player who spent way too much time on this game there's just not much for me to do anymore outside of new releases.
Also, on the personal side, I've been suffering from severe depression for over a decade now, leading to unemployment and too much time in front of my PC. Together with my last therapist (hoping to get appointments with him again, fingers crossed) I've been working on reducing my PC time, both to have more room for other things and to make the time I DO spend at my PC more enjoyable again. So cutting this blog out of my βlimitedβ time when I haven't really been too engaged with it recently is just a logicial step for me.
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been sitting on these for a while and I think they're as done as they're gonna get! trying to simplify isgarren's whole wardrobe deal is about to make me start throwing things
some rambling/thoughts/etc. below the cut
idk I seem to be in the minority here but I do actually genuinely like isgarren. lol. lmao.
BUT most of the criticism I've read about him is all very valid. he's a character with a ton of potential that just isn't being used for some reason.
he doesn't exactly learn from his mistakes. he just kind of immediately shuts himself down emotionally and puts every bad experience into a box that he hasn't opened for centuries. that avoidance and weird selective amnesia makes him very compelling, but at some point, something has to happen. isgarren deflects every attempt to converse about the aforementioned Box, and at this point, it's starting to sound more like lazy writing rather than good characterization. I think voe is starting to tilt in an awkward-heart-to-heart-discussion direction, I hope, and I'm BEGGING anet to let us have an honest, genuine conversation with Isgarren about EVERYTHING.
I think isgarren's strongest characterization came in soto. his possessed monologue on top of the spire is something I think about often. we meet him at his absolute most vulnerable; possessed, at the mercy of cerus, and at the mercy of the commander who he's actively needling in all the wrong (right) ways. it's such a fascinating character introduction.
isgarren is a wonderful pragmatic/impersonal contrast to the commander's selfless/"i'd save the farm" mentality and I NEED them to yell at each other about it more.
I'm not a fan of how easily the commander came to heel next to Isgarren's side, and I wish they'd both tug at the leash a bit more, so to speak.
(again, I feel like voe is heading in this direction, ie. Isgarren can't touch ancora and the comm now knows about his exile. for once, it seems like the commander has a bit of power over him; both physically and emotionally)
(this is just me hoping that we get to see isgarren break in the next story update. he's got so much stacked against him right now, and as stoic and unmovable as he is, the Recent Events and Revelations are bound to get heavier and heavier to bolster by himself. I need him to either get really pathetic about it or just completely shut down. both would Cause Problems, and that's what I'm looking for.)
uhhhhhh this is absolutely just me, but I want the comm and isgarren's relationship to be a little more erotically charged. idk. I think the commander and isgarren are currently the two most powerful beings in tyria and that's a sexy and fun little relationship. I want them to fight. I want them to argue. I want them to stubbornly disobey their orders/a-previously-agreed-upon-plan bc they think they know more than the other. I want them to be in awe of each other. I want them to begrudgingly respect the other's power, authority, experience, and knowledge. I want them to kind of hate it. I want them to kind of love it.
I think isgarren is a voracious reader. that man reads everything (canonically including smut involving himself, to my absolute delight). I like to think that he's always in the middle of reading something, whether that be a tome, relic, history book, or Goldclaw's latest release.
he's also messy as hell, and is a little bit of a gossip hound. he likes To Know(tm).
I'm so enamored with the concept of a punk-ish, recently exiled isgarren deciding to take up residence in a floating tower. the unnecessary theatrical drama of that whole little number is so endearing to me.
I love that his all-knowing, all-powerful, holier-than-thou outward projection is occasionally rubbed away just enough to catch glimpses of his child-like petulance underneath. he's such a difficult person to get along with. he's just the worst.
I think he's a person who is obsessed with aesthetics, and, by extension, art. yes, it's good to be armed with knowledge and ability, but presentation is just as important. he's clearly given the astral ward a recognizable and concise aesthetic, and he's not even subtle about it. he likes all his little soldiers to be lined up just so in freshly pressed linens and newly polished weapons.
isgarren is a very good gift giver. I don't think he's handing out presents left and right, but he has an extensive collection (he's not called Isgarren the Curator for nothing, I'm sure) and knowledge of all sorts of artifacts, books, jewelry, weaponry, etc etc to know exactly what to present someone in the rare event that a gift is necessary.
Now that he's Out And About again, I think he probably gets mistaken for a djinn a lot
(I'm a little disappointed that the nickname given to him by those who are familiar with him is "Ren" and not "Izzy")
since i don't have time to do valentines art this year, have some cuties commissioned from paperboa!
Sinnie [barky blue boy] belongs to @shroomlet
Rui belongs to me!
Bran [fluffy albino vari] belongs to @vampiricsheep
annnd Runa belongs to me :>
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Aside from my Bday It's also Valentines Day today. Not that I nec need a certain day or reason to draw these two anyway. π€£
This one is one of my favorite works in a while. Ace and Enya, loving and supporting one another while both are haunted by their past. π They're each other's Beacon...
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You are the way, you were born to the ascent
So rise, my radiant
With my pride, bear your heart into the end of me
There is no death, I am with you, my darling
If I am breathing through you
The Ascent by Caligula's Horse
So I wanted to draw the spear etchings from elementalist and finally got an idea how...