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It was part of the fun. Hamin was close to his thirties, he wanted to be stupid while he still could. Soon he would be a forgotten man that once was an idol, and he would look back and wondered if he really did the most of the time and opportunities he had. But he wouldnât force him to do anything he didnât want to, since Hamin himself hadnât planned to swim either. It had been more a spontaneous idea than anything else. âI do. I do now. I was in the basement for too long that I had forgotten how being an idol feels like, you know. I got to rest and learn to do some stuff, it was nice, but this is better.â Or perhaps he was in a better place in his life now that he got to enjoy what he did like he used to. Whatever it was, Hamin felt like things were on the right path again. And he could relate to everything he was feeling, it was the way it used to be for him back when Mon:star had better times. âI wish I could say that you get used to it, but being an idol is just your job. You should find some time for yourself, to do something fun, something you like. Or even spend time with the people you like, that helps. It does get better though.â
Which was a shame, because bands were awesome. It was amazing that they could sing and play their own instruments, and did it live on the stage. Hamin would never be that talented, no matter how much he tried. He thought 4AM would do great, they just needed to keep working. âIf they have taste, then they will get into it. I know itâs not easy to relax when there are so many groups around, but just like our CEO believed in you, I do too.â He believed that as long they remain positive, things would work out in their favor. âItâs a fun song, I think people will like it.â He didnât think it was for his age, but it was a good song anyway. âItâs actually quite fun, and you get much more creative freedom. I guess itâs a more adult concept, Iâm not a boy anymore and I doubt the public will like me to do so, and Iâm quite excited. I do hope you give me your honest opinion when it comes out. I wouldnât say never though, maybe in a few years you feel differently.â
things were probably a lot easier for an idol who was well established within the industry and well respected and had been around for years and years. though, of course, hamin had his extra troubles of being mon:starâs leader on top of everything, but after being an idol for so long you had to get used to things. having a camera around was probably like second nature, though to jungwon it was still very new and a little unnerving to have a lens always pointed in your direction. âi spent nine years locked in the atlas basement and i have no intentions of going back to that if i can help it,â and it had been an incredibly hard and tough nine years as well. the constant dread that he was never going to get out, that those younger and more talented were going advance and he would be stuck as a trainee for the rest of his life, or more likely, until atlas grew bored of him and just let him go. âright now, though, i donât really have the time to do anything for myself. itâs just constant debut schedules and recordings,â though he wasnât complaining, he knew it was necessary, âand even this is just another schedule, really. because, if it were up to me, i would not be standing here looking at this waterfall.â he was already bored of it.
it was a small comfort to hear the more experienced idol say those things, jungwon giving him and small smile of thanks as he spoke. âitâs good just to hear you say that, really,â he offered with a small laugh, âthe amount of time i get those little voices in my head telling me weâre never going to get anywhere and no one will care about the group or our music.â jungwon knew it was just irrational, but it was just the fact he had been dreaming for this for years and now it was finally happening just added to everything. âbut iâm sure youâll do amazing solo! the fans are sure to love it. but nah, donât think i would ever want to do solo work. iâm a group guy, it would feel weird to not have anyone else around in the recording studio.â










