eulogy

sad to see that you’re leaving atx :( do you know how long you’re leaving for/is it permanent? hopefully your health will get better soon🙏 <3

moving back to my childhood home at the end of the month because my health is becoming substantially worse. it’s not in my control but the feeling of failure is….. so pervasive. goodbye friends. goodbye places i’ve come to love. goodbye people i hated but still made atx home. i feel like im being punished or something. fuck man everything i am has become sand sifting uncontrollably through my fingers, like each second of the past six years is raining from the sky and i’m trying to catch each drop before it’s all gone but it all runs straight through my grasp. i can’t stop crying. i’m gonna be a ghost again. haunting my hometown. and for now there’s no end in sight. fuck my motherfucking chungus chud shit ass life.