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' i'm not seeking penance for what i've done. i'm asking for forgiveness for what i'm about to do. '
' i was starting to worry you might be in love with me. '
' you still think this is about you? '
' you should have just killed me. you coward. '
' what? so that's it? '
' by my side is the safest place that you could ever be. '
' life is not a fairy tale. not everyone deserves a happy ending. '
' it's not me you need to worry about. '
' we all pay for our choices. '
' i know my soul is damned if i take his life. '
' choose, and choose wisely. or others shall choose for you. '
' you're going to get yourself killed. you know that, right? '
' we don't live in a world that's fair. '
' it's a difficult thing, isn't it? taking a life. '
' people seek the truth no matter where they find it. '
' what the hell does that mean? '
' you really think you can change anything? '
' do i look capable of making healthy life choices? '
' i gotta say, sometimes... sometimes, i think you really just might be the devil. '
' keep going like this, you might just end up happy. '
' you're the only person i can trust. '
' i know what i did. i know who i am. and i do not need your help. '
' you make that choice sound so easy. '
' you don't get to create danger and then protect us from that danger. that's not heroic. '
' you won't suffer alone. i'll be here. '

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@dreamvisit said, " sheΒ calledΒ meΒ dark,Β twisted,Β andΒ mean. "
πΏΒ Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β βΒ sheΒ ββΒ whoΒ ?Β βΒ Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β blondeΒ headΒ swivelsΒ immediately,Β Β eyebrowsΒ pinchΒ withoutΒ anyΒ furtherΒ confirmationΒ orΒ investigation.Β Β willΒ smokeΒ riseΒ outΒ ofΒ herΒ ears,Β Β willΒ herΒ eyesΒ glowΒ redΒ andΒ incinerateΒ theΒ targetΒ onceΒ theyΒ landΒ ?Β Β Β (Β Β doomsdayΒ doesΒ notΒ approach,Β Β butΒ theΒ threatΒ ofΒ andromedaΒ draggingΒ someoneΒ byΒ theΒ earΒ isΒ aΒ veryΒ realΒ threatΒ indeed.Β Β theΒ flurryΒ ofΒ insultsΒ areΒ alreadyΒ beingΒ drawnΒ fromΒ theΒ dredgesΒ ofΒ herΒ mind,Β Β sharpeningΒ themΒ intoΒ weapons.Β Β thisΒ angerΒ wouldΒ beΒ uncharacteristic,Β Β ifΒ itΒ wereΒ notΒ summonedΒ forΒ theΒ goodΒ ofΒ someoneΒ else.Β Β )Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β βΒ whoΒ saidΒ thatΒ ?Β Β iΒ canβtΒ believeΒ β!Β Β thatβsΒ justΒ β!Β βΒ Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β sheΒ huffsΒ aΒ hotΒ breathΒ again,Β Β fistsΒ purposefullyΒ clenching and unΒ -Β clenching.Β Β andromedaΒ makesΒ anΒ effortΒ toΒ schoolΒ herΒ featuresΒ intoΒ somethingΒ pleasantΒ andΒ passably.Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β βΒ well,Β Β itΒ simplyΒ ainβtΒ true.Β Β anβΒ iΒ gotΒ plentyΒ ofΒ timeΒ tβconvinceΒ anyoneΒ ofΒ that.Β Β anyone.Β β
the righteous anger makes her heart flutter, just a little. andromeda is fierce in so many things. brave where malia is scared. and it would make sense for that to transfer to her friends --- a passion that was so tied to who annie was. malia was just always so surprised to be included in that. " oh, " she tries to shake off the shock of andromeda's quick defense of her, actually contribute to the conversation some. " uh, my sister. " it was malia's own fault really --- she made a promise to herself to stop interfering where she wasn't wanted but it was just so easy. the draw so intrinsic in the dreamworld, the fight too easy to partake in. annie's huff of indignation warms her, the thought that someone might believe in her drawing her in like a fireplace in the winter. her smile is small but genuine. flattered, above all else, to have annie care. " thank you. " and she means it, genuinely. vaguely she wished that all her interactions could follow so loyally like this. her eyes turn out towards the view. a setting sun casting a beautiful paint stroke across the sky in several dusk colors. at this point: was she just being mean? was the right thing to do to just LET her sister live in delusion? " i just . . . i guess i don't know what to do anymore. " hand on cheek, she turns her gaze back on her friend. " lately it feels like the harder i push, the more i break. "
@dreamvisit gets a short starter. π
the blonde sat down on the floor next to her friend and let out a big sigh while slowly turning her head. there has been a question that plagued her mind like no other. β do you think you would like me out there as well? like. . . in the real world i mean. β she couldn't even face malia while she waited for an answer from the girl. almost everyone she ever met abandoned her one way or another and while a part of her would love to finally meet the brunette in person, the other part was so scared that it would end in disappointment and rejection.
malia shifted slightly. the presence of margot a welcome treat, a blissful break to the monotonous void of whoever's dream they'd commandeered. it had been a rough week. amy had officially aged out of the system, and their goodbyes were the last she'd heard of her. zoey didn't take it well and malia? malia had seldom felt so . . . alone. it was pathetic. to need her friend so desperately, to try to seek her out when she might not be doing the same and she tried hard not to show it. but now, knowing margot had looked, even a little, for her made the weight in her chest loosen until she could breathe.
her words, however, shock malia. evident clearly in her wide eyes and open mouth. that was a question better suited for MALIA to ask. whether they'd even be friends if it wasn't the 'alone together' of it all. if margot had any other options. " what? " she doesn't mean to ask it so bluntly but the idea that she could ever not want margot's company was insane to her. sometimes it felt like she was the only thing holding her together. the only person in the world who got her, even a little. " i'd like you anywhere. " the honesty feels raw but in this, she's confident. she scuffs her feet a bit, watching the ground phase through sand, concrete, wood at her indecision. " would you . . . like me? "
hiatus notice! gonna be low to no activity from october 7-30th, hope you all have an excellent october <333 π
People should make more doomed by narratives siblings relationship.
Like with lovers you can just sever it and not have it related to you ever again but with siblings how could you?
You grow up with them you raise them or they raised you you both know how unforgiving the world is to both of you? You would die for them but will hate them for doing the same and yet none of you would regret it and both of you know it. They could be the person you loath the most and miss the most cause you still remember how they sneaked a candy into your hands. You can sever the tie but you can never look away at what you've lost, at whom you've lost because fate doesn't allow you to be together, eating dinners in quiet peace, if only there's another life, another time, where i can make you another plate of pancakes i would im sorry im sorry im sorry β
β what were you thinking ? you could have been hurt ! β / @shiftergene
malia's answer is stunned silence, at first. it all happened so quickly, she thought ---- she thought she could take down all three of them, she thought she'd practiced enough CONTROL for that. the others had to get away, they all knew that and malia acted on the quick impulse that only time could provide. she would've been seriously hurt if the other person hadn't stayed behind. or worse.
her heart is beating so fast in her chest it's like the whole world has a sickening beat and she has to take a few more seconds, just staring at the crumbled bodies around them before she remembers that most questions want answers. " i---i wasn't thinking. i thought i could take them all. " her manipulation IN dream world was controlled, but she really hadn't practiced with her powers awake nearly as much. so much was proof when she'd only gotten ONE of her intended three targets to fall into a forced rest, the rest she'd just frozen when it hadn't worked. shocked that a plan she hadn't put any thought to could have such dire consequences. finally, FINALLY, she looks back up at her companion. she was new to this --- all of this. didn't even know there WAS an underground until she'd found it, and while running was nothing new, being chased was. she should say thank you for the save, she should leave as a clear liability, she should practice more, she should, she should, she should, and yet all she can ask is " are there more? should we run? " she's never been in this position before and a part of her says they can't just leave three unconscious bodies in the middle of this alley while the more rationale argument fights that those guys could do far more damage awake than the two of them could ever do in turn. it's so obvious she has no idea what to do in this moment and yet still she finds the need to say " i'm sorry, i---i'm new. i didn't know what to do. "

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β i just wish i knew what i was doing here. β / @lereveur
malia shifts uneasily. dreamworld is whatever they make it, and malia often warps to make it more comfortable. hell, even in this moment malia's added a nice bench to sit on. the kind happy families she sees on her walk home after school go to. she materialized pillows, comfortable ones just because she was practicing with control these days, and she'd made it so that the buzz of someone else's dream, whoever it was they connected in, was distant and far off. so that they might both have privacy and not just the unbearable weight of silence when malia inevitably neglects to say the right thing. so the action to shift in her seat is more of her real life discomforts than an actual byproduct of their current situation. malia's never met anyone like her, aside from her siblings. and her siblings were so different, and often so unreachable, even when malia wasn't trying to be combative. she couldn't talk to them, not openly, and sometimes that silence was suffocating. which is what's made margot so special. few and far between, they don't always align in the dreamworld, but more and more malia's been . . . quietly seeking her out. for companionship, for comfort, for a friend. maybe. it'd be a new development for her, and she's really not even sure how that's supposed to go but with the distressed dip to margot's brow, malia knows, even without experience a real friend would provide some insight. a real friend would HELP. it panics malia, just a bit, that she doesn't know how to do that. " me too. " she murmurs, instead. that always was the question, then? WHY THEM? and maybe even further, why all of them? were they connected? was it purposeful and if so, whose purpose? were they supposed to seek it out or have it thrust upon them? she doesn't know the answer to any of those questions, not a single one, but she thinks about the endless nights. the constant ebb and flow of drifting in and out of others people's thoughts, hope and love, always always from the outside looking in and realizes in that very moment how she doesn't feel so alone right now. the thought pops into her mind and she can't help but say it as soon as it does. " but i'm glad i'm here with you. " she looks at margot briefly, embarrassed at the admittance and yet meaning it all the more. the fact they've even gotten to the point where they could actively seek each other out was something malia cherished beyond comprehension. she wants to move past the obnoxiously obvious over-emotion as to what exactly their friendship meant to her. maybe born from the lack of communication over the past few days --- attributable to so many ordinary things like sleepless nights and timezones, and the inability to predict the dreamworld but she can't help but wonder if maybe she wasn't found because she hadn't WANTED to be found. she looks down again, hair falling into her face before her hand comes to push it back behind her ear. " where've you been anyway? "
γ Β RP MEME :Β Β VARIOUS KINGDOM HEARTS QUOTES.Β Β γ Β Β * change pronouns as needed.Β
β thereβs no hope for you! β
β i heard your voice. it cut through the darkness around me. βΒ
β we shall go together. β
β i just wish i knew what i was doing here. β
β i started having the strangest dreams. βΒ
β a puppet is a puppet. β
β the game isnβt over until itβs over. β
β so youβve gained the power to protect what you hold dear? β
β your heart shall be judged. β
β different name. same fate. β
β iβm with you. β
βΒ βiβm me,β he says. β
β you really shouldnβt have betrayed us. β
β i owe my return to many. some of which you knew. βΒ
β iβm no hero. trust me. β
β iβve been waiting for this. β
β weβll never get anywhere with you just stating the obvious. βΒ
β trust our bond. β
β i knew youβd come through for me. β
β all shall be lost to you! β
β do you want to scream? β
β itβs weird. i feel like iβm forgetting something really important. β
β there is more to light than meets the eye. β
β iβm even dragging you home. βΒ
β your memories shall be mine! β
β i know. iβm ready. otherwise, i wouldnβt be here. β
β your betrayal outstrips them all. β
β thatβs right, we are friends! β
β donβt i even warrant a hello? β
β iβve seen you spaced out before, but this is ridiculous. β
β donβt be ridiculous. iβm here to back you up! β
β the end is nigh. β
β you should share your power. β
β throwing the battle? looks to me like you just plan old lost the battle. βΒ
β canβt i bend the rules? β
β i can give you purpose. β
β got it memorized? β
β accept the darkness. β
β insolence! β
β despair shall be yours. β
β you shouldnβt have abandoned me. β
β°ββ€ DIALOGUE PROMPTS : Assorted a set of various original dialogue prompts !
β i canβt do this without you. β β i need you, donβt you get that ? β β can we get takeout on the way back ? i have no desire to cook tonight. β β get away from me ! β β well, thatβs a new one. β β i have decided that i will no longer be thinking. not a single thought in this head, from this point onward. β β i know i sound like a broken record, but you need to hear it. β β do you have any idea what time it is ? iβve been waiting for you ! β β iβm starting to wonder if the light at the end of the tunnel isnβt that great after all. maybe i should stay in the dark. β β iβm fine ! iβm perfectly fine ! β β i know youβre ignoring me, but iβm going to keep talking anyways. β β when i enter the room, i should have a theme song. β β sometimes i wonder why there isnβt a laugh track whenever you enter the room. β β my list of grievances would be about a mile long. β β what were you thinking ? you could have been hurt ! β β you know that you can always call me when you need me. β β i want to complain, but i donβt even have the energy. β β you know that movie trope of sticking food into the dvd player ? yeah, turns out it really is a bad idea. β β i never wanted to be like you. β β i didnβt ask to be stuck with you. β β stay out of my way. β β stay out of this. β β who did you insult this time ? β β i may have insulted the wrong person. β β i hate them. i hate them, with their voice, and their perfect hair, and their deep eyes, and β¦ β β itβs a wonder youβve made it this far. β β letβs play a game, shall we ? β β go back to the shadows you came from. β
β you look like a mess. β β what is it going to take for you to talk to me ? β β here, let me fix it for you. have you never tied a tie before ? β β i have an extra ticket. do you want to come with me ? β β i have to catch them before they leave on their flight ! β β i ran here to catch you before you left. i need to tell you something. β β this is the leap of faith. β β i need you to trust me. β β i donβt believe weβve met. β β so, you must be the infamous [ name ] . β β here, let me hold you β¦ itβs going to be alright. β β iβve been doomscrolling for the past three hours. i need to get out. β β would you like to go on a walk with me ? β β when was the last time you took a moment to just breathe and be in the moment ? β β youβre not the person i remember. youβve changed. β β who hurt you ? β β someone whoβs eaten that much ice cream is clearly not okay. come on, talk to me. β β have you tried turning it off and turning it back on again ? β β iβm sorry iβm late. β β iβll go with you, if you donβt want to be alone. β β wow, thatβs terrible. here, you try it. β β youβre soaked ! what were you doing out there ? did you forget an umbrella ? come inside so we can dry you off β¦ β β i could listen to you talk for hours. β
πΏ andromeda wakes with the sun. even a trace of it, a wink in the distance -- it wakes her all the same. their temporary home is shelter enough, but when the trace of morning peeks beneath her eyes, they find her patiently waiting for their arrival. malia will likely be up soon. it's no competition to see who wakes first : not between the small handfuls of hours they collect and the haunted looks they shake off in the morning. andromeda thinks the least she can do is make herself useful.
dirt is never difficult to find. the earth is always close by, and far more pliable beneath her hands than anyone else's. it had been called a green thumb whenever anyone asked : i just have a green thumb, i guess ! i'm only doing what they need, i only listen to the earth, i only am it's hands and eyes and ---. she stops before a break in the concrete to sprinkle a handful of seeds and douse the soil in a water bottle's worth. a five minute trek backward bring's a handful of breakfast supplies as if grown from her farm itself.
" they don't taste like concrete - dirt, i promise. i did a taste - test on the way. do you have a preference for grape color ? red versus green ? any favorite vegetables ? " a singular beat is taken before andromeda's words continue without allowing a reply. " i can't believe how many people don't have a favorite vegetable. like, not even one you like more than the others ? it's not, like, rocket science to figure out. also, not that deep of a question. like, i could answer that pretty quickly ; i can't believe people who're like, i haven't had a vegetable in years. huh ? " the words are muttered in a voice barely above a whisper, but relentless with early morning chatter. she might as well join the birds. " east, " she repeats, almost scoffing, blonde head shaking dismissively as if she cannot believe they think the pair of them are going east. she moves to place herself beside malia, the coolness of the early morning stark on her skin. hands extend with a vine of green grapes and four kiwis with no more explanation.
it takes malia a second to process the conversation, and by that time they were already in the middle of it. her brain still felt like tv static. waking up always gave her this specific kind of exhaustion that meant deciphering what was real and what was dreamed. even having been left in the wake of her own making, she gives a small, encouraging smile at whatever sentence just ended. in truth, she didn't know much about gardening. knew about the earth only as much as annie had told her, and had less opinions than most, probably, but even with all that information deficit, there was something so pleasing about the lilt to her friends voice when she got excited. she gives an encouraging hum of acknowledgement, not wanting to break the flow and squinting through the glare of sunlight. malia doesn't move when andromeda joins her, grateful for the proximity. maybe this wasn't a vacation, maybe it wasn't meant to be comfortable, but malia would take the small mercies where they came. she looks from the extended hand to andromeda's face --- surprised at the offering meant so specifically for her. she smiled honestly. " thanks. " it was quiet and not nearly enough to encapsulate the actual gratitude she felt but expressing herself wasn't necessarily a strong suit. she accepts the gift instead, reveling in the exquisite taste that bursts from the first green grape. she closes her eyes, noting the warmth of sun on her face and bliss of taste like she hadn't eaten in months. malia had never been one to stop and smell the roses, to notice the little joys of an everyday existence and there was something so different and magnetic about the way andromeda saw the same things. when she chews, she's able to remember some of the conversation she'd forgotten. andromeda could name her favorite's quickly and yet malia didn't know them. her eyes open, turning to seek her companion and she asks " what is your favorite vegetable, then? " in the silence.
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malia lands, mercifully, seated. she's not entirely sure what the formula towards dreamland-ing totally is, but some entrances were better than others. the harsh meet of face to concrete or the gentle opening of eyes in someone's perfect day. today was gentler, the soft creak of swings, the white noise of background chatter and the distant laugh of children. A PARK, then. how sweet. malia realizes she's turned into the park bench she'd landed on, a companion seated across from her clearly giving the illusion of being in conversation. their mouth is open, eyes intent on malia and she has the distinct feeling that they're only on the cusp of the scene. that just beyond, out and across the street would be nothing. like stepping off the peak of a waterfall, the way out was clear. AND YET . . . it wasn't always, but malia tended to enjoy the dream's she was sent to. maybe not initially, and certainly not in nightmares, but if there was a pattern, then she'd found it. everybody talked more freely in their dreams. said things their lips couldn't form awake, and malia liked to think she provided something, even small or forgettable, to help for just a moment. it's the familiarity with the dreamworld (and the knowledge they aren't real) that allows her to stand with confidence. heading in, rather than out, she follows the path. hard, cracked pavement twisting and bending around the wide expansive grass, the small playground, the couples using the fair weather for a picnic. malia can shift things in dreams, even those not her own, minimally, depending on the person, and she uses it often to walk without interruption. the gentle push, like a gust of wind to carry those walking the opposite direction slightly out of the way so that they don't bump, and she does so almost absentmindedly. easily, without thought. honed in more on the way the sun, even fake, felt warming her skin and the peaceful, happiness of the moment when she's suddenly, abruptly bumped into. a moment that hasn't happened since she was 11 and still trying to figure out how to use her powers advantageously. she's shocked, to say the least, mouth dropping open into a little 'o' and brows furrowed. " sorry! " she says, almost instinctively at the man across from her now. @overeve , HIS DREAM, then, if his decidedly unforgettable presence was any indicator, but even being his dream, malia should have still had some, if not a significant sway in the tempo of it. interesting. " got a bit lost in thought, it seems. " is all her scrambled mind could come up with.