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Pastel goth fashion has always been a huge thing for me. Starting when I was around 8-9 years old. Having social media at that age I was in online communities a lot. I lived in a pretty average place where being a bit different was seemed as negative or inappropriate. the style seemed perfect for me due to the fact I both enjoyed goth and kawaii themes at the time, so seeing them combined made pastel goth a favourite of mine.

Obviously the style isn't as popular as it once was, and being alternative isn't looked down/judged as much as it used to be. I'm glad more people are accepting of different styles now.

I've only got into pastel goth now I'm a bit older due to experimenting with other styles beforehand. I was a bit too young when pastel goth was at its peak. I was aware of the style but couldn't afford/DIY my own stuff. However I'm older and even though its not a huge thing as it used to be I still cant let go of the fashion style. Its not only nostalgic for me but I just still enjoy the looks I can make with it now.

(also I was a bit of a tom-boy irl during pastel goths peak. Though I was secretly obsessed with kawaii and pink online </3.)

I craved to be girly but for some reason I thought I'd be liked more for being more masculine? I'm not sure if I was being a pick me or trying to be not like other girls but I definitely regret wasting my time not being able to express who I wanted to be back then.

The style allows for personal expression, with participants varying the balance between Goth and Kawaii elements. (quoted from https://aesthetics.fandom.com/wiki/Pastel_Goth)

Obviously like other people back in 2014-2016 I was a big fan of Melanie Martinez, she was a big thing for me due to her fashion and hair styles, Unfortunately I don't follow her anymore.. Mainly I just didn't enjoy her newer music and I wont even begin with the allegations made against her.

Other artists I enjoyed back then were Halsey, MARINA, Lorde, Arctic monkeys, panic at the disco, Lana del ray, The neighbourhood and The killers.

A lot of these I still listen to now and then. But these artists especially MARINA, Halsey and Melanie inspired me back then with their looks/themes of their music.

Before anime became a norm, I used to be a huge anime fan. (I got bullied so hard lolol) You wasn't OG if you didn't watch anime on YouTube in like 100 parts to avoid copyright. xD. Anime's like future diary, sailor moon, Perfect Blue, Fairy tale and Maid sama. I was a huge fan of anime romance..

Part of me is really happy anime is popular to the extent it is now, but the younger version of me was a little gatekeeper and grudges how I was bullied for it just for it to become popular.

I think sailor moon got me into kawaii fashion, anime then leading me into Japanese fashion styles which pastel goth originated from, the Gurokawa (Creepy Cute) aesthetic.

Whilst goth wise I got into from horror movies and the fact I was really into horror games and creepypasta as a child. Therefore mixing the two aesthetics.

I love the quirkiness of pastel goth and 2014-2016. Yes the era was quite toxic but I choose to remember the goodness of it, silly cat edits, Nyan cat, Grumpy cat, Pusheen, sparkles, eye balls, unicorns and those odd but cool edits of Disney princesses covered in tattoos and glasses.

I think what I try achieve in my blog is the fun and weird side of pastel goth. I'd like to excuse the harsh standards of that era like ED or romanticised toxic relationships/misogyny. I'm not a hateful person so obviously I'm aware people still struggle with these things and they do have history with the style, but for my own sake Id rather not post about them on my own blog.

I knowww that's a lot of yap but I find it genuinely fun to talk about the era and how I remember it. Kinda like a diary for me ig? I hope ppl can relate :,)