heart palpitations

I hope death is like being carried to your bedroom when you were a child and fell asleep on the couch during a family party. I hope you can hear the laughter from the next room.

unresolved grief

can we talk about how fucking exhausting it is constantly trying to distract yourself from your own mind? not being able to have any real time to relax yourself because you’re so terrified of your own head is so mentally and physically draining and if it’s something you’re going through i’m so sorry and i love you. this is a very real and common side effect of depression/anxiety/other mental health issues and more people need to talk about it.

I’d like to add that it’s also a self feeding spiral. The exhaustion weakens your ability to cope. Which further drives you into that state until you’re so far gone that you can’t even recognize the person you are. Where you’re not sure if there’s even a you underneath it all

"The worst kind of addiction is when you get no pleasure from the vice but can't do without it"