Okay, this is the last time I'm going to post about this.

A lot of impatient people were whining about Chroma not making the doc fast enough despite the fact they're a high schooler with a life behind the screen. So, I made my own personal doc on it.

I also saw anons rushing to Meadow's defense saying there's no evidence of Meadow being a terrible person and that kinda irked me. And so, I'm going to talk about my side of the story once again, but a bit more organized. And I'm bringing a bit more evidence along with it.

original post by @.puppybaby15 but has since been deleted

HI EDIT this post has blown up so here's a much better pedo warning

TAGS:

proship / pr0sh1p / pr0sh!p / pr0ship / proshippers are welcome / proshippers are valid / proship safe / profic / darkfic / noncon / subcon / dubcon / dead dove do not eat / shotacon / shotac0n / nanacon / cronacon / NOMAPs / lolicon / zoophile / paraphile / paraphilia / paraphile safe / paraphiles are welcome / endos please interact / endos safe : tags for ppl to find more who all support finding children attractive in fiction whether animated, live action, or outside of fandom media. who support shipping themselves with animals. not to be confused for anthros/furries/neko characters,, they support loving animals like pets. supporting non consensual / "tricked" consensual / "somewhat" consensual sexual activities. supporting "fiction never affected reality" and thinks fiction cannot harm anyone whether outside of fandom spaces or within it. Black ppl/Non Black ppl, anyone within the LGBT community, neurodivergent ppl, CSA/grooming victims who weren't in fandom spaces can show otherwise. (and when we do we are met back with hate/harassers) for endos, they're people who fakeclaim having DID/OSDDID/OSDD/UDD/CDD.

radqueers / rdq / pro rdq / pro rq / pro radqueers / pro radfem: ppl in the gross "community" often wonder why radqueers/radfems/raciststs are in their spaces...gee i wonder why. as said from another acc, you guys normalize romanticizing abuse, you're gonna bring in people who normalize being abusive and hateful towards ppl within the LGBT community, whether they're like you or not. i already came across two pedophiles who label themselves as radqueers. so no surprise there.

Phrases they use:

"you're pro censorship" you can be against censorship but not for allowing pedophilia being glorified online and outside the internet. there's no way you need to choose to be one or the other when said creeps choose to be both anti censorship yet pro pedophilia. being anti censorship means being against people censoring LGBT/Black content or freedom of speech (against genocide, racism, homophobia, transphobia, ableism, abuse, colonialsim, removing history). being anti censorship is not meaning you should be against incest/pedophilia/SA being censored. Trump literally thinks racism shouldn't be censored. He wants anything related to the Epstein Files censored to protect pedophiles online and outside the internet.

"worry about real problems in the real world " we do. apparently worrying about internet safety is not something anyone has ever done in our world. we worry about the safety of children outside of fiction, we worry about Black ppl/Non Black ppl of color facing racism/colorism/misogynoir outside of fiction. we worry about real child victims who were groomed by adults outside of the internet.

"it's a coping mechanism" glorifying abuse/CSA/pedophilia/racism is not a coping mechanism.

"my therapist said it's okay" no therapist would say this is okay. but if yours did, leave that therapist, call the authorities on them. especially if they used these same phrases to you.

"it's just fandom discourse" again. it's been done outside the internet. you cannot say you care about the safety of children or anyone online if you don't care how they're being groomed/harassed within your fandom spaces or your communities outside of fandoms.

"get out of the puritan culture" same ppl who say this are the same ppl who once called it "anti culture" (anti meaning "not for" pedophilia in fiction and irl).

"you're ruining our fun" so it is fun to imagine children as attractive? so you admit it? saying it's gross to view children/abuse as attractive is not ruining fun. same thing has been said to racists whenever us Black ppl or non Black ppl call out racism in their fandoms/outside of fandom spaces.

"there's other things to worry about" already said, yes there are, doesn't mean you gotta choose between hating pedophiles who invade spaces online and those doing the same outside the internet. you can hate both.

"fiction never affected reality" "fiction doesn't affect reality" "reality has never been affected by fiction" Ppl in these gross communities get angry whenever we bring this up. Sharks were killed cause of the fictional movie JAWS. We Black people have to fight hard to stop harmful stereotypes being glorified and excused in movies/shows/games/anime/comic books. if it didn't affect reality, why are people trying so hard to put their propaganda in their shows now during a literal genocide? why are people trying so hard to remove even fictional stories of characters of different cultures? if fiction isn't anything to worry about, then i guess we shouldn't care about racist stereotypes in fiction. i guess we shouldn't care if someone depicts trans women as ugly or not given any screentime. then you shouldn't even care deeply about fictional characters who are underage, but you do cause you clearly know fiction has affected your brain.

"you're a predator" oddly enough, they call you a predator for telling grown adults what they like is wrong. you're a predator if you threaten the safety of children and adults alike. you're not a predator for saying it's gross to view children and SA as attractive.

"you don't care about real victims" if we didn't, then we wouldn't care about victims who have been groomed by people like you. i know there are victims who told you to stop, and you either called them a fake victim, blamed them for their traumas, or harassed them further.

"you hate trans women" you literally are saying what transphobes have been saying that "trans women are pedophiles". you are equating trans women as such by saying this cause what do trans women have to do with you loving pedophilic ships? what do trans women have to do with hating pedophilic ships? (those who say this are radfems/radqueers btw and will say this once they find out you're a trans/non trans man against pedophilia in fiction/reality)

"you're ableist" victims of CSA have told y'all to stop. same as you saying hating pedophilic ships is the same as hating trans women is insane. many who are also saying this are "age regressors" .age regressors are not pedophiles. at least, those who show in their dni they do not feel comfortable around you creeps. there are age regressors who don't fetishize children/babies/teenagers. you thinking anybody who is disabled like you would all agree what you like is okay IS ABLEISM.

"not all proshippers are harassers" doesn't matter. you still engage in fantasizing about child characters in fiction (whether they're portrayed through a cartoon or in live action movies/shows).

"kids can consent" no they can't. to say this is what pedophiles outside the internet say. why even call yourself such names like "paraphile/NOMAPs/shotacons (literally a japanese slang word for "liking young boys/minors" but using the excuses "they're 1,000 yrs old" "they look young but they're an adult within")

"Not all proshippers support pedophilia/abuse" then why call yourself a proshipper? why still be around spaces and people who do? why use the tags known to be used bynpedophiles?

"you don't know what a dog whistle is" dog whistle has been a term used since nazis were using the code "88" to identify who is a nazi and to find more. using the code "proship please interact" literally meaning you want more people who like seeing children in gross activities within your space.

and many often will insult you or call you any slur they can think of to show they're angry. many often make new accs just to stalk/harass you. many also use the excuse "just don't read it then" the same people who say this also ignore your DNI's when you ask for them to stay off your feed. we wouldn't have to deal with any of you if y'all didn't reblog our content, follow us pretending you aren't a proshipper, and posting in tags that are against you. (once you view the "antiproship" tag, you'll mostly see proshippers and the tags i mentioned in it. all to again, rage bait us.) they'll even reblog this just to say "tldr" or get mad at how long a post is. and will just skim through and not read this (both pedos and neutral users).

others may even deem this as "problematic". neutral people are also to be avoided. those who think it's "fandom discourse" or "just hating fandom ships" are those who truly don't care about anyone's safety or trauma. neutrals may often say "i'm not a proshipper, but i'm not an anti. ship whatever you want." or "i'm not a proshipper but-".

Also creds to @antiproship-lizzie

what the actual fuck?

Oh cry me a river im busy outside of tumblr

also don't be ignorant and don't spew bullshit

people call them out for it

"There's no evidence of these allegations!" "They're all proven false!" "I didn't actually go through it!"

Hey so btw, tweettweetmeadowz DID IN FACT go through it <3

And there's even more!

The person who got doxxed was their ex, who was and currently is a minor! Meadow was encouraging people to sign the people in the server to sign up the ex for scams and porn (btw, said minor is very sex repulsed and Meadow knew that).

Also, Meadow was even willing to give out more than just the minor's number.

From what I saw, the adults you were talking about who encouraged you were about 2 years older than you. You were about 16-17 at this time. The oldest that some of them were was about 18 if I remember correctly.

Also, Meadow was being actively told not to do this because it might go wrong or because it was wrong IN GENERAL but Meadow still continued on.

People who were a part of the encouragement, later did sincere apologies after the heat of the moment had died down. But then there was Meadow who did a... Interesting way to apologize. "I'm so sorry" repeated over and over as the people in the server were like "It's okay! We're not mad!". The majority of the people in that server were wrapped around that sicko's finger.

Meadow took the route of putting the blame on his "BPD" and how it makes him do erratic stuff (which apparently was actually STPD and not BPD according to Meadow? Last time I checked, STPD doesn't make you do shit like doxing someone). Also, he put the blame on how his trauma from the relationship with the ex he doxed caused him to do this as well. Not to forget, when people were talking about how that was pretty fucked up to do and it shouldn't have even happened, Meadow pulled this out of their ass as a way to get people to stop calling them out in the server <3

Yes, Meadow did apologize to the ex... While actively leaking the conversation to the whole server (and kind of making fun of it), despite knowing that the ex has trauma from that kind of stuff. Plus, that apology to the ex was half-assed in my opinion. And he quoted Logan Paul "I had a lapse in my judgement". (Not actually but he did say that exact thing as he was not really apologizing but rather excusing his own actions...)

And lastly, I've come to make an announcement:

What happened in that server wasn't okay in any capacity. What myself and others did in an act of "revenge" was not okay. My apology back then was less than okay especially and I never truly apologized to anyone other than my ex. I never went through with the signing up of my ex but that doesn't excuse any of what happened.

Said ex and I have already spoken about this topic. We covered it when we cut contact about 3 years ago. I apologized profusely and we came to a conclusion that what I did wasn't okay, and that it shouldn't happen again. It hasn't happened again, because like I said, what I did waz entirely and wholely fucked up.

I fucked up a lot in my teens, and I wish that there was any sort of way that I could make up for that behavior. I hope that I've shown my behavior has changed, as I've stated before [it isn't an excuse], I was a mentally ill teenager who was unmedicated and being groomed behind the scenes. It's not an excuse by any means, but I want you to understand the kind of world I was living in. It doesn't excuse why I did it, and I don't think I'll ever be able to make up for what happened, but maybe it will explain it to you.

"This is a lot more than just online discourse." Are you just now realizing that?

Your apologies now are just as shit as the ones back then. You have traumatized people and been an awful person to basically everyone who has ever encountered you and didn't agree with anything that you stood for. No amount of apologies will EVER fix what you caused.

This isn't just how you were in your teens, this is also about how you are as a person now.

You're a selfish, manipulative, controlling, perverted asshole who tries to portray yourself as some angelic being sent down by heaven to "do good" when in reality, you're just scum of the earth, plaguing it with your filth. Ruining shit rather than making stuff better.

Not only do you demonize people who pissed you off once or even just do something you didn't like, turn everyone against them, you also lie to make yourself look like a victim in the majority of the situations that YOU put yourself into by being an awful person.

The fact that multiple people are coming out with their experiences with you and that they're all awful experiences that YOU caused should be a sign that you need to do better at "changing yourself."

(doc is going to be actively updated as i recieved new evidence a day ago, happy valentine's yall)

@galaxywolfcomet

@antiproship-vodka

Okay so, I'm going to talk about my experience with Meadow and how fucking abusive he actually is.

I'm not looking for any drama, I just need to vent all of this negativity out before I can officially move on with my life.

Feel free to ignore this, y'all.