I can't ask you to stay. When you want to leave and be on your own. Because now, it's you before me, us. I can't say don't go. When you dread to be around them. Because now, I'm just a dream and they are the fun. I can't want you for myself. When I can't have you. Because now, I don't deserve you. I can't need you. Because now, you don't need me and I'm too much. I can't show you it hurts. Because everything has changed. Because I lost what we use to have the moment you stepped out on us, that very first time. I love you now, but there's still a few parts of myself that misses the then. And I try to hide it, to keep it a secret, to stay silent. But it hurts and I just want to scream out loud. But I'm so scared of losing you again when I barely got you back. Everything is a secret, everything is hidden, everything is separated, everything is different, everything then is gone and now I have to accept that I'll never get it back. The past is gone.