Trippy 迷幻

“I have found my being existing in only two states: laying next to you, or wanting to.”

You give me goosebumps I have five cigarettes Make that four It’s 2:53 and I’m bad at everything Except for aching on the floor

I don’t really know what day it is, I just know that it’s 1:21 a.m. and I just woke up. I was dreaming about you being with me, I really miss you. God I’m super fucking sad because I can’t see you around Thanksgiving and my god I am so worried about you because I know how hard it is for you, especially this time of year, I trust you but I still worry, I’m sorry. Any ways I woke up in the dark but I could’ve sworn that I saw your beautiful head of purple hair sitting on the edge of my bed. I had thought I saw you sneak in and start reading one of my journals. I called out your name but you didn’t answer and I was so scared like why isn’t she doing anything yaknow? God I started crying and I practically begged you to talk to me or at least acknowledge me. i finally got up from my bed and found that you weren’t there and I was literally seeing visions, like that was the 3rd time this week that I thought I saw you.

I like how sleeping next to someone means more than sex sometimes, the body’s way of saying ‘I trust you to be by my side at my most vulnerable time,’ you have no defenses when you are asleep, you tell no lies

She wasn’t my first kiss but she’s the kiss that mattered, the kiss that made me realize I didn’t want to kiss anyone else. So now my lips belong to her. Just look at them… Her name’s written all over them.

I wonder how I would’ve ended up if you hadn’t walked into my life.