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I like this person a lot, it drives me crazy cuz my mood depends on what happens between us, we decided to stay friends even tho we both like each other.

one day i feel so in love with him, waiting for his text, would do anything to hang out with him.

the next day i dont care. which is very weird.. cuz i'd wait the whole life for him if it means ill end up being his..

i thought its just a random crush and it will fade the less we talk, but no, im lost in my feelings, i like him in a way that's driving me insane, i want to skip the time and have him by my side already.

it's not something that i feel just from the surface, its very deep and i dont know why.. i'd do anything for this man, whatever it takes and i really don't get why.. i wonder if its cuz i saw his soft side and how much he loves kids, the way he says " i lovee yoouu'' to his baby neice, or maybe cuz he is very sad and i just want to hold him, could be cuz of his little laugh after he succecfully rage bait me? cuz he is so cute.. but i dont think these are enough reasons to be in love with someone.

i read once that if you dont know why you like a person it means you are in love.

do you sometimes sit alone and feel like something is choking you?, but you're not sure what's choking you, could be your feelings or the lack of oxygyn that couldn't reach your lunges because you're hiding under your blanket so no one can see your tears?

i'm just tired of turning around and finding no shoulder to cry on.. no person to hug me and tell me it's gonna be okay..

i'm really tired and alone.