it feels so much weirder when other trans people make a big deal out of having thought I was cis. Got hit with a "oh, wait... are you like, one of us?" at work today and they didn't believe me. I explain that pcos has caused me to have a strange time (which blows to feel like i have to constantly explain in order to be listened to, like medical history that specifically relates to what's in my pants is the price of admission), and get a "well, it's doing you favors" in return... started talking about not being "able to try to pass", how I'm lucky. Like the reason I look this way isn't one of the more physically and mentally painful recurring issues I've dealt with since I was 10, like being stealth (and completely invisible and/or scary to my community) is my goal. Telepathically sending the next person to say this kind of shit a wave of nausea every five minutes and cramps like mine, idc. It is all still so incredibly transactional to get to know people, and I am still a broke motherfucker.















