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it feels so much weirder when other trans people make a big deal out of having thought I was cis. Got hit with a "oh, wait... are you like, one of us?" at work today and they didn't believe me. I explain that pcos has caused me to have a strange time (which blows to feel like i have to constantly explain in order to be listened to, like medical history that specifically relates to what's in my pants is the price of admission), and get a "well, it's doing you favors" in return... started talking about not being "able to try to pass", how I'm lucky. Like the reason I look this way isn't one of the more physically and mentally painful recurring issues I've dealt with since I was 10, like being stealth (and completely invisible and/or scary to my community) is my goal. Telepathically sending the next person to say this kind of shit a wave of nausea every five minutes and cramps like mine, idc. It is all still so incredibly transactional to get to know people, and I am still a broke motherfucker.

Low priority issue, but this world needs sexier body braces as soon as possible

so far I have, in fact, scared off everyone I've started talking to up here that isn't also from a rural area, but ah well lol

"Don't wave at me, gay boy" was yelled with ill intention by someone who had just asked me for a cigarette I don't have, but unfortunately that is kind of fucking hilarous to me

A friend of mine heard that the dog we will be moving to here with us is a husky and they started researching service dog training for ehlers danlos syndrome (which exists now, omfg), and like... I hadn't thought of that, but he'll probably end up big enough to not get smooshed trying to keep me from falling over, that is... maybe possible and probably would be helpful, if he's chill with that lol

Gave my shitty LED mancave sign to a young trans man I work with, so happy to see it go to a good home

my wife informing me when we get back inside that a guy was following us so closely for two blocks (while firmly grabbing something in his bag) that I could have stopped suddenly and like break checked him lmao... He screwed off before we turned for home, but it IS funny to me that I am so oblivious that it probably looks like I just do not give a fuck to anyone who would like to give me trouble

I am so beyond excited to get into the piercing industry. I don't have a dream job, but I sure as shit have dream skills >:3

First interview at cool body piercing place went welllll holy shit !!!!

Accidentally off my meds for a few days, but didn't notice until I got anxious about something small and silly just now. my brain is screwy, but I'm excited to find out how much of that was just from feeling hunted all the goddamn time :^)

hoping to give more hostile boytoy showgirl now that I live in a nicer place send post