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fuck my life. Okayyy

oh God yes

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we should talk sometime

I'm sick of pretending to care. I don't. Auuuu auuuuu

okayyy so I'm going to ask about modafinil next pdoc appointment #okay

u know those direct to buy quack services where they'll give you ketamine or testosterone or ozempic if you subscribe to them for $200 a month? I just saw one that's selling modafinil targeted towards young professionals who need to "lock in" on their work. I have had chronic fatigue and difficulty focusing for years secondary to dysthymia and long term antipsychotic use and I am so very intrigued. I wonder if it would be appropriate to ask my psychiatrist directly about it. i am always nervous to ask to trial a controlled substance bc I don't want to appear to be drug seeking, but if they're selling it online then the bar feels as if it's been lowered lol

I just diagnosed myself with a spigelian hernia but I'm choosing not to acknowledge it or do anything about it because my surgery date is in less than 3 weeks and I don't want to risk some fuckass doctor telling me I need to push it back to get this treated first

I'm starting the process of patenting some kind of contraption that whips me with live wires and chains every time I hit snooze and sleep until 1pm on my free days off