キミは愛せないな

"Otogiri Tobi" long advertisement board, at Ikebukuro station.

雨催い寄り道をした I stopped by (somewhere) as it was about to rain いつも食べてた菓子パンだっけ Was it the sweet bun that I always eat? 放課後の教室に斜陽 The setting sun in the classroom after school 飲み込まれそうな夕日が綺麗だ Was so beautiful that it’s about to swallow me up

続いてくれるだろうか 終わらないで Will it last, I wonder Please don’t end just yet

正しく汚し合っていた僕ら 互いの悲しみに夢中さ 痛くて舐め合った喪失感 散文的な快楽でもいい We’ve tainted each other the right way And obsessed with the sorrow the other bears A hole in our hearts formed as we licked each other’s pain I don’t mind even if it’s only a prosaic pleasure

生きているのがどうしようもなく恥ずかしい 気のせいだと思いたくて、思えなくて 眠ることすらきみなしじゃ儘ならない Being alive makes me feel hopelessly ashamed As much as I want to believe it’s all my imagination, I just can’t Without you, I can’t even get to sleep

陶器のようで柔いその頬に傷をつけたい 僕らみたいなクズにはそれしかできない Those cheeks of yours, so tender as porcelain, I want to wound them Scum like us can only do so much

愛だ恋だと腑抜けた歌うたって きみという毒でキマっていたいね 悲しいことばかり考えはじめて終わんないループ ずっと待っていたこのトキシックな逢瀬 きみは有毒で最悪で最愛の、優しい地獄 まだ抜けない離脱症状 Singing a mindless song about love and desire I want to be drunk on the poison called you I start thinking about nothing but sadness, an endless loop I’ve been waiting for it since forever, this toxic rendezvous You’re the poisonous, the worst, the loveliest, my sweet hell The withdrawal symptom that has yet to go away

果たして、価値観は狂った きみ無しの人生など滑稽さ 片足で立つような現実感 世界の殆どがグレーアウトした バグりだす脳下垂体の暴走 パキるAM4時過ぎの幻聴 「誰もがお前を愛している」と教えてくれる 消えかけの月明かり As a result, my concept of value messed up This life without you is just a joke A sense of reality hits me, as if I’m standing on one leg Most of the world has been grayed out Going haywire, the pituitary gland starts causing bugs Getting high, I hear hallucinations past 4 AM It tells me “Everyone loves you” The moonlight fades away

夜半の祝福さえ朝に食い尽くされ また息をしづらくなる 誰もが僕を愛していない ひどい悪夢が現実ならきみを服毒していたい 僕らみたいなクズのためのラブソングはどこ？ Even the blessings of midnight are eaten up by the morning It’s getting hard to breathe again No one has ever loved me Were this hellish nightmare real, I’d rather take the poison that is you Where is the love song written for scum like us?