Fat to Fit and Fabulous, the road to Strength&Fit

I know it’s been a super long time, since I updated this blog. After, 12 long years I have come to the conclusion that I need a break. I have beat myself up, gone through injury after injury and just plan killed myself triathlon training and as much as I like doing it, I have decided to just take a year long break. It’s no longer fun for me. Granted I have had my biggest gains this year. However, I have realized I cannot keep doing this. I came to the conclusion that my training is essential spiking my cortisol levels and causing a domino effect on my thyroid issues. That I’m diligently trying to fix and resolve. I am going to be embarking on a new journey and path, more weight lifting, more toning and strength training and more walking. More mediation and some yoga. Let’s see how this next year goes.

So today, I finally got back into the gym for day two after taking an entire month off. My bestie decided to join me on this excursion, which is good because I need the encouragement. Its been tough after coming back after having lower back issues. I was able to do 10 reps, 2 Sets on the roman chair. Which for me is a drastic improvement. I have never been that good with my core. It's just time that I change that.

Sometimes it’s worth the wait. Almost three weeks on wish app. But so definitely with it. Anyone knows that even with someone helping you to measure your arms legs or body parts m, it is still difficult to do.

So another fabulous year older and a little bit wiser. One thing I have learned over the last year is that sleep, is so important to weight loss. My old bed was derailing my progress. So I set out on my maiden voyage of my birthday month with a goal and a quest in mind. 1. Get a new bed mattress no matter how I pulled it off. 2. Get a new bed frame for said new bed, so I was no longer wrenching myself off the floor to get out of bed. 3. Get rid of a mattress that was a complete absolute reminder of my ex who broke several of the metal coil springs. Good riddance to bad rubbish as well. Why you may ask... simple... my bed was sabotaging my progress as well as declaring out right war on my sciatica nerve. And I was losing ground every day. Every morning I was met with excruciating pain in my lower back, that it felt as if my poor back had had my spine yanked out with a crow bar. Not fun when your about to turn 41 and you feel like your 91. Selling a few strategic items I was able to buy myself the best birthday present for myself. A new mattress, all foam, no springs and the IKEA bed frame I had been wanting for the last few years. Sometimes wishes do come true and the universe opens up when you use the law of attraction to focus and get what you need. A sleep party for one. Now I just need to use law of attraction for my weight loss. Maybe a partner in life who will love me unconditionally will be on my new items of attraction. But for now I'm grateful to wake up happy and not in severe pain and back on track.

This what 41 one looks like with your bestie when she is 8 years younger than you. Helps to keep you focused on looking good. And seriously no filter either. Not to bad if I say so! Better to be Fun, Fabulous and fearless!

I have finished another month, now onto the next 11 more. These last two months have been interesting for sure. Today I was able to get five minutes done on the row machine, not to shabby for a girl who is rehabbing her ankle, knee and elbow. Talk about feeling like a broken doll. But I'm hustling through it to get back on track. I will say that the green tea and ginseng is definitely making a difference this time. We will see in four more months where I stand on this little weight loss story of mine.

I have come to the conclusion my body has become accustomed to a certain set point of weight I hover around. Which is a scary 400 lbs. Let me set the record straight... I hate this. It's like no matter what I can't seem to get past it and continue to go down. And I will admit, I'm probably eating to many sweets again. The month of October is so easy to do with Halloween candy every where. But that is not the biggest factor that I believe is missing out of my life. It's the fact I have lost all motivation at this point again. I only have myself to blame at this point for I am letting the fact that the relationship I once had with my ex husband that was off again, on for a nano second and off again because he was a covert narcissist effect me.Truthfully, it runs deeper than this. I am morning the loss of my best friend and boyfriend that last only three months. Not a day goes by that I don't think of him or wonder what he's doing and regret the way things played out and end. Sadly I was more deeply invested and in love with this individual than the man I had once been married to. Part of it was due to the fact that when I had freshly gotten divorce this man listened to me as my friend for five years. So it wasn't a fly by night we just met type of relationship. He was there during what I didn't realize at the time, some of my deepest lowest points. Always being a light for me and always being the mirror for me to recognize the truth and point it out to me that I was not addressing things. And now without him in my life what so ever I feel like a sail without no wind. He always brought the best out in me and did it effortlessly without being direct. Which is why when we unraveled it was the hardest thing I have had to ever deal with. I took his words of wisdom for granted and believed he was a true friend. He took his friendship away like I didn't matter. Not realizing at the time that his pressuring me and what I was going through at the time was causing me to unravel for I just couldn't deal with the circumstances that we're going on. Nor did I understand them. Now with objectivity and clarity I realize that I had never truly let go of the past and realized how much brainwashing and gas lighting my ex had done to me. In addition, to accessing how many people in my life has been a narcissist in my life sucking me dry with their drama and crap. Which I for the most part put my foot down to. So it gets me to my point of this blog. I have lost focus, motivation and drive because I feel like I have lost my light. And I am scared and frightened to light my own fire to light my own path. To travel a path in the darkness is truly harder than to see a light at the end of the tunnel and want to reach for it. Where do I begin and where does one start from??? For I know I will get no where if I stay silent and frozen in the dark.

I know it's been a while but here is another round of my fun utility box art finds around town. This lovely can be found on the corner of Desert Inn and Maryland Parkway. #publicspaces #lasvegas #citybeautification #interestingart #ellectricalboxes #publicart #publicartlasvegas #lasvegas #vegas #vegasbaby

The other day I finally hit 600 followers, I will be announcing a give away in the next few days. I am getting the prizes made and rules put together. I will be giving away six items for this giveaway, so be on the lookout for my video on the rules and what to do to be entered into this lovely giveaway for my Instagram peeps. Good luck 💜💜💜😎

Hi guys, here is sneak peak of another dragon wand, this one actually has no finish on it at all. I will resume some wand making in the next couple of days. I want to do some fairy wands and dragons in purples. Enjoy the sneak peak, it will be headed to the store soon. #etsylistingsoon #sneakpeek #dragon #dragonwand #wand #cosplay #magicwand #harrypotterinspired #raventemptressdesign

So new that it magically appeared in my store as a new product. Just in time for Halloween, my beautiful silver dragon magic wand. Perfect for the dragon lover in your life or cosplay enthusiast. #harrypotterinspired #magic #magicwand #dragon #silverdragon #dragonobsessed #dragonobsession #wizards #wizard #dragonlove #dragonlover #dragonlovers #etsy #etsyshop #etsylisting #etsysellersofinstagram #etsystore #etsyfinds #cosplay #cosplayer #cosplaying

The irony of this morning the first cup I grab to get something to drink was my cup this morning, lol sign of a good morning.😈❤️😈❤️😈 #morningmotivation #raventemptressdesign #etsyshop #etsysellersofinstagram #etsyseller #morningcoffee #notquiteawakeyet #etsylove #goodday

A preview of the wands going to fair. #raventemptressdesign #sneakpeak #halloweenprop #halloween #wandobession #reinfaire #renaissancefaire

Ok my dragon peeps, here is the sneak peak of the dragon on I posted the sneak peak on for wand. #dragon #dragonobsession #dragonobsession #harrypotterinspired #wand #wandobession #halloween #halloweenprop #sneakpeak #raventemptressdesign

Ok I could help myself, I just love Halloween. So here is a new bookmark added to the store. Here you go all of you wizard and witches a sorcery themed bookmark is now listed in the store. #sorcery #sorcerybookmark #bookmark #wizard #wizardbookmark #witchybookmarks #halloweentheme #uniquegift #bookaddict #bookmarks #bookmarksforsale #etsylistings #etsy #etsylisting #etsyshop #etsysellersofinstagram #etsyfinds #uniquebookmark #metalbookmark #metalbookmark #bookmarkers #bookmarker #bookobsession #bookobsessed

Welcome and happy Sunday because it's my fun day, another one of my favorites has reached my shop again. These fabulous butterfly dangle earrings. #butterfly #butterflies #butterflylove #etsyhandmade #butterflylover #etsygifts #etsyfinds #etsyshop #etsysellersofinstagram #etsylisting #etsy #etsylistings #earrings #earringsoftheday

The butterfly best friend bracelet set has returned to the etsy store again. #butterfly #bestiejewelry #bestiejewellery #bestiejewelryset #uniquegift #fashionjewellery #fashionjewelry #etsysellersofinstagram #etsyshop #etsy #etsylisting #etsylistings #bracelet #braceletsets #raventemptressdesign