ʚ vee ɞ

theres something wrong with me but i cant fix it. i dont know what it is. but everything is wrong. everyone is mad that i cant function. im a disappointment but i dont know whats wrong with me. i cant change. ive spent 7 years trying to change. ive tried to be normal. nothing motivates me. i cant get up. all i can do is be a haunting existence and silence everything im feeling. one day ill die but till then ill die inside knowing ive wasted so much time doing and being nothing. im nothing. ill never be satisfied with my life. ill neve have the chance to live a life i wanted. because i got a life where i cant even figure out how to be a person. im not even real. i cant be real. my existence is just in my imagination. but still i have to push by just for a little satisfaction. i have to push by to live. but i cant push. ill never live.