YOU DON'T OWN ME !

Not every love is sweet and kind Sometimes, love is dangerous Poisonous, addictive, obsessive Leaving emotional, mental and physical scars Don’t want to walk away, refuse to let go To need, no matter how much it hurts To know the same pain is returned Because some don’t want just the sweet They crave the bitter too

       she nodded her head momentarily to answer the other girl’s question, a little pout edging on the side of her lips. that would be her goal for as long as she could possibly remember, but wasn’t it every teenage girl’s dream? “am i asking for a too much here? like, is that not expected?” titling her head, she awaited for an answer from her new mentor, it seemed like gabriella just always knew the right thing to say. at this point, delilah’s hooked. it finally hits her over the head, she’s popular by being herself. this isn’t a facade that she’s promoting, she’s too interesting for words. her eyes widen just a bit as gabriella’s confession processes in her mind, it was too good to be true. “whoa, seriously? i mean, not that i thought you would’ve been around, but you definitely could have anyone that you wanted.” she smiled for a short second, removing the hair away from her eyes. that had caught her by surprise, when she.. if she.. ever came to terms with her sexuality, she’d have to tell the other what she first impression was. “every kind besides this kind, that’s usually what it seems like to me.” a little giggle is forced to fill the momentary silence, her words having too much accuracy behind them. “right, i mean that’s almost a given. the only thing boys in the bronx want is a summer fling, and after they fuck you and tell they you that they love you.. they leave.” her mood is shot due to her revelation, the boys back home weren’t anyone that you wanted to do associated with. once they got what they wanted, resulting from a blowjob to full blown sex, the only option they chose was to leave. it was the final straw to delilah’s attachment to the male population, now she was ready to explore her new options. “would you believe me if i said that i have never done anything with a girl before? my family would literally disown me, which is why i still haven’t touched upon it.” a pout now replaces that former smile, she continues to fiddle with her thumbs as her attention is adverted  elsewhere. “me? bad ass? are we talking about the same delilah here? well, if we ever get to the point, i’ll be more than happy to listen.”

     "maybe i’m biased because that’s not my goal in life, so i just assume that everyone else follows suit.” she shrugged before taking a moment to actually think over what she was saying. she might have been onto something here. “honestly all i want in life is to have a good time, in no matter what form it takes. i don’t bother with anything else or waste my time doing anything that i don’t love doing. which is why you won’t see me sitting in a lot of classes here.” it was true, gabriella had a habit of obtaining a record high of absences. whether she made the effort to skip class, or just decided to sleep in. luckily for her, her grades made up for it. gabriella was blessed with an above average intelligence that allowed her to pass courses with ease, and without having to sit through too many lectures. now she’d have more free time to do things she felt that actually were important. “that’s what i don’t fuck around with little boys like that. if i’m going to have some dick in my life, you sure as hell know it’ll be from a man.” gabriella had a habit of leaning towards older men, she just found the boys her age to be too immature. these men had never once found out she was still just a high school student, they probably wouldn’t have believed her anyway. the way she carried herself and acted in the bedroom was of someone who was much older. delilah’s confession caused both of gabriella’s eyebrows to raise. “hm? really? well, luckily for you.. your parents aren’t here. so now you can do all the touching you want.” gabriella eyed the girl at the opposite bed. “but you have to have had fantasies, right? you can’t tell me you haven’t fantasied about a woman’s touch. women can please you better, you know. because they know exactly how you like it. they know exactly how to get you soaking wet and begging for release, with only two fingers and a tongue.” after speaking, gabriella slowly trailed her tongue over her lips while never breaking eye contact with her roommate. 

also give me a you’re really innocent and i find that hot as fuck so let me taint you thread

“I could die before she gets here.” Aspen sighed, resting her head in her arms. “I’m so hungry.”

     “i don’t even know what i want yet. everything looks so good.”

“It would be wise for you to refrain from talking to me until I’ve eaten because I am so grumpy and hungry right now. I need a burger. And eggs. And bacon. And waffles.”

     "oh stop being so dramatic. the waitress will be here in a second. luckily this place serves breakfast all day.”

“i accidentally set your plant on fire and i felt super guilty so i went to the store to buy you another plant but they ran out of the plant that you had and i didn’t know what other kind of plant you liked so i may or may not have bought you enough plants to fill a small greenhouse?” au

rylan was so stubborn, that it actually made things a lot worse than they would have been if he just asked for help. “ i don’t need – “ he cut himself off, because he did need help, but he couldn’t just admit that he needed it because he tried so hard to be independent and take care of himself. but taking a deep breath, he realized he did need her help, even if he didn’t want it. “ i’m sorry. “ he spoke reluctantly. “ you know i’m not good at … that. asking for help. thank you. for helping. and the whole, not judging thing. and for opening the bottle. “ he spoke, sitting down at the table before pushing the chair next to him out for her with his foot. “ it just sucks having to be so careful, ya know? i’m lucky it wasn’t my dominant arm but still. i worry i might not have full function again. “ 

     gabriella simply stayed quiet as he spoke, and even apologized. which was something she wasn’t expecting from him. they were similar in a lot of ways. they were both independent and stubborn. if gabriella had been in that situation she probably would have insisted on leaving the bottle on the floor and saying she wasn’t thirsty anyway. there was a bit of immaturity in her ways. “you’re welcome.” she said simply before sitting in the chair beside him. “thanks.” she scooted the chair towards the table before turning her attention back at rylan. “hey, don’t think about that. you still have options, you know? physical therapy and what not?” truthfully, gabriella didn’t know too much on the subject, but she tried to be as encouraging as possible. 

“i’m not being a baby! i’m protecting my life,” she scream to the other, shaking her head. “i’m not jumping, nope, fuck this, why did i agree to this.”

     “you’re a baby!” she repeated in between laughs. “come on! it’ll be over in two seconds!”

       it wasn’t like delilah to egg on these lies, but when her only option is to fit in at this school, she’s willing to do whatever it takes to make her stand out. if making herself seem more interesting worked, then she’d basically create her own background just to relate with these other people. “right, i’m just worried about making it back home in one piece.” she smiled, now positioning herself with her legs crossed to further make herself comfortable enough to continue this conversation. “i don’t know, i always thought you have to be cool to be popular.” she’s be speaking according to the movies and books she watched as a younger girl. the popular girl in school had everything, the cute boys, the minions and the parents that granted her every wish. everyone else in the school was a ‘ supporting role ’ to the ladies that ruled the hallways, which delilah usually found herself being a part of. “i guess not.. maybe you do have a point.” she chewed at the side of her inner cheek, realizing that she’d need a better plan. if this was coming from one of the ‘ popular ’ girls then she’d have to mentally take notes, and retry her approach. “really? from the looks of it, seems like boys are attracted to the girls that live for opening their legs.. which is why i’ve been single for way too long.” confessing took a little more out of delilah since back home these conversations were foreign. she spent more time talking to her father’s friends than her own, that’s just how life worked. “a challenge? ━━please, don’t tell me you’re talking about like them making a bet or something.” of course, boys will be boys, and play harmful tricks on girls for bragging rights. delilah might’ve been at the end of this joke before, but she’d never be one to admit it. her face grew with the red tint, moving from just her cheeks to her whole face. her cover had been blown, leaving the other to see her adoration. “yeah, you’re pretty badass to me.”

     "ahh, so your main goal is to have friends and be liked. hm? right? now that’s a whole different story.” she was already learning so much about her in just a few short minutes of conversation. maybe delilah was just opening up to her because gabriella was a stranger who’d have an unbiased opinion on anything that she would say to her. another laugh came from gabriella at the mention of girls opening their legs. “if it makes you feel better, i’ve never been in a relationship.” gabriella wasn’t one to stay tied to anything, let alone anyone. she quickly found herself getting bored with activities and needed something new, so how would she ever make it through a stable relationship? “but trust me, boys are attracted to any kind of girl. you’d be surprised how easily it is for them to get their dick hard.” she sighed a little before looking over at delilah. “don’t get me wrong, girls that open their legs more than usual are definitely going to get some more attention. that’s like standing out in the middle of the street with a bag full of free money, honestly. it’s trashy as hell though.” gabriella rolled over onto her side and rested her hand on her head, with her elbow against the bed. “i wasn’t, but that’s not uncommon. boys are pigs. that’s why i mostly tend to stick towards girls. not only do they act better.. they smell better, they also taste better too.” her words were met with a cocky grin that tugged at the corners of her lips. gabriella was no stranger to talking about her sex life, or just sex in general. “badass i like. i’ll take that. i think you’re a little badass too delilah. in your own way. i can sense it, i just don’t know you well enough to say what it is.. yet.”

“you can’t reallly expect me to do this, you better be fucking kidding me.” // @vcxen

     "stop being such a baby and JUMP.” gabriella called out from the bottom while moving her arms and legs to continue to tread water.

“i don’t usually have the time to actually, y’know– hang out? i hardly even remember the last time i ate a burger like this.” mason pointed out, letting the taste of the burger sizzle around in his mouth, taste buds going static. he was an actor. an actor that’s on a extreme diet– he’s known for breaking the rules. “if my trainer knew i was eating this, he’d kill me. i swear on that.”

     gabriella took a sip of her pop before glancing over at mason. “then don’t tell your trainer. plus, you have to have something to burn off in your training sessions, right?” a laugh fell from her lips before she ate a couple of fries. “honestly i don’t eat out like this, ever. i like cooking so i make most of my meals at home.” 

       ‘so far, so good.’ delilah thought to herself after answering her first question, a little sense of accomplishment floats over her as she continues to fiddle with her fingers. this was too much of a change for delilah, she was slowly realizing that interacting with daddy’s friends and people from the real world were two very different things, shaking hands wasn’t cool any more. if she wanted to make it out of here with some dignity and a next level of hierarchy of popularity, then hanging out with gabriella would be her mission. but first, she’d have to dig herself out of this prude situation, while figuring out her own priorities.. and gabriella definitely seemed to be at the top of that list. “there isn’t?” she spoke softly, yet not wanting to seem embarrassed. “i’ve been kissed, yeah, totally have been kissed..” a little smile plays at her lips now, wondering if the lies will ever seem to end with her. it was like lying to her roommate was cool, but she didn’t want to seem like a total flake who hadn’t come out of the box yet.. this was tough. “i mean, there’a slight chance that we’ll be roommates again next year, right?” her curiosity extended to the other side of the room with this question, maybe having gabriella around didn’t sound like such a bad idea after all. she had seemed like a pretty chill person to be around, unlike the stories her friends back home advised her of. but then again, back home didn’t have any credibility, they weren’t open to change. “own being innocent? that’s not.. cool.” she moves the hair away from her face, she owned this ‘prude’ cloud over her head more than anything else. “me? cute? thanks, that’s so swe ━ thanks, aw.” her cheeks were beginning to change back to their rosy red shade, her body was beginning to feel weird. the brunette opposed to her was a sight to look at, definitely, making experimenting would be all that it lived up to, after all. “please, i’d rather not be these things either, i wish i was as cool as you.. or at least, half, i could think i could ever pull that off.”

     part of her wondered if delilah was telling the truth about being kissed, truthfully, she didn’t care if her roommate was lying or not. gabriella valued honesty and was honest about almost everything, but she’d be crazy if she tried to make it seem like she never let a little lie slip here and there. “there’s a chance yeah. you never know.” she shrugged nonchalantly before pausing again to let the other finish speaking. “who cares about being cool?” her eyebrows wiggled in slight annoyance about the concept. “i mean think about it this way, are you actually cool if you’re trying to be cool?” gabriella laid down on her bed, looking up at the ceiling as she spoke. “let it just flow, be natural. if you’re innocent, awesome, own it. some people dig the whole innocent thing. they find it alluring, or in some aspects, they might think of it as a challenge even.” she turned her head to look back over at delilah. “but don’t try to be something you’re not, delilah.” her gaze traveled over the other’s expression, unsure of how her words were going to be taken by her roommate. she hadn’t meant it in a harsh way, her words just sometimes came out a lot harsher than she intended them to be. “your blush is adorable.” she said simply before raising an eyebrow. “you think i’m cool?” a little laugh fell from her lips before she looked back up at the ceiling again, her hands were folded on her stomach. “that’s a new one. i’ve been called a lot of things in my life, but cool isn’t one of them.” she shrugged before moving her hands up behind her head. “i’m not sure why you don’t consider yourself cool either. there’s nothing about you that i’ve seen so far that i’d consider uncool.” 

“You know, you never fail to surprise me, Gabs. You’re a strong headed woman. I like that.” Alex winked with a chuckle putting the peroxide and things away back on the shelf.

     there was a smirk playing on her lips. “not many people can handle it.”