I over explain myself because I grew up defending myself. Not because I’m guilty or lying. Because no one believed me

sometimes i wonder who i’d be if i didn’t spend so much energy just trying to stay alive

Current mood: trying not to explode into a million fucking pieces

i’ll be fine one moment and then suddenly I’ll be stabbed in the chest with self hate and complete depression and there’s nothing you can do to ever feel better. You just feel dead because your body just feels like suffering for some reason…

sometimes i don’t care about getting better anymore. i just wanna give up.

my 5 year plan is to get back my joy

I confuse people. i have a happy personality and a sad soul. i'm bold but shy. i love deeply but sometimes i feel heartless. i'm healing and hurting at the same time. i'm dedicated to growth, but i self sabotage

I hope it doesn’t always feel like this.