mosieline the vampireweakend queen

i was in-treatment. im not going to really get in depth on the whole situation but let me just say that it had to do with basically a suicide attempt. i was cut off from basically everyone except for my mom (literally, no one but my mom). im not even allowed to remain in contact with people my age that i meet through in-treatment. it was miserable and did more harm than good. i had to communicate with friends and my girlfriend through my mom. it was seriously degrading and miserable. im also being closely guarded. i cant have a razor and shoelaces and belts among other bullshit things. i have no doors on my room. i just got to talk to my girlfriend - really talk to them - for the first time in two weeks because i was cut off from contact with basically everyone.

i feel very small and weak when this time of year comes around and like the only thing i can do is get wasted and try to forget