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Credit: Davide Caso. I layStaring at the ceilingTrying to find that sparkTo give you something to read My mindIs not empty of thoughtYet when I begin to writeIt all falls apart Why is it so hard?To say what I wanna sayMy heart strings breakI want you to feel my pain…

Sometimes I hate being soberI miss the old meThere was something fulfillingTo feeling so empty Time was frozenOnly thing that matter was meBlissfully happyEven though it was slowly killing me Credit: Estaro Whitehorse. Wild nightsStaying up till the sun comesAlways with random peopleSomewhere I lost “me” Things were excitingFelt new, yet old in same wayDidn’t care what was happening nextJust…

Credit to Tiziano Zaffiri Shallow breathingLack of sleepPushing my limitThere’s no controlling me Chest feels heavyAs I strain to breatheWant this to be overWhy do I inflict this pain on me? Body achesCold sweatsMuscles tenseI might be OD’ing Dropped to my kneesPlease god save meI won’t do this againDo you believe me?

At a fork in the roadWhich way do I go?My life has no sense of direction Feeling very lostAs time has slipped awayLife’s obstacles have gotten the better of me Trying to find my purposeAm I cursed?Or is everything happening to me on purpose? Future out of focusThe bright light has gone dimAnd thoughts have turned dark Feeling like a failureCan’t keep the bottle away from meOne shot turns to…

He think he does But he doesn’t love me It’s called lust It’s a fever rush type feeling that rushes over us And then it’s gone Just like you Well you will be soon Cause you’re still sitting here confessing to me how much you really like me How you care How you can’t wait to be near You say you’ll see me soon Blush. All of this is meaningless Poor baby you’re about to get your heart…

Drawing by Matt Wingett Writers blockI’m left with strained lines of feelingsTrying to dig deepUnearth my deepest thoughts I don’t write to just writeIt always comes from a certain feelingA different timeA different lifeFor I am forever changing No lies can be told hereMy truth can not be suppressedYet I still struggleWith what to write next Pen to paperLet me confess something’s to you…

Slow long walk to my terminalThe gate is closing soonDo I dare look behind?Are you coming too? Boarded the planeMy seat is by the windowCondensation dripsLike tears on the glass The life we built togetherWill soon be left behindThe plane has started upAnd will soon be in the sky Im left with a half heartHope your face soon fades awayTrue love lostAnd Im left with all the pain

*credit to artist found on google search* What are feelings?I feel noneTaking sips of whiskeyAnd I’m just numb Try to tell you how I’m feelingJust to end up feeling dumbWhat’s the point of talking about my feelingsWhen everyone just gonna judge Drugs are for temporary healingJust a band aid for my heartNow i’m sat all aloneGetting high in the dark Depression taking over meAnd I try to escape…

I love you hardI love you softI love you loudI love you…Sssshhh… How did we get here?What did I miss?Holding on to our memoriesThe good times will me missed You are differentAm I different?Our lies are still the sameBoth very stubbornWe are the ones to blame Forgive me for the tearsI’m facing my regrets“Together to the end!”Ever since we first met Don’t you fall in loveWas my mantra way back…

I want your face to disappear,I hear your voice with every dripping tearYou say you know heartbreak?Yet you feel no painHow could you love me if you don’t feel the same. My love is deepmy wrath did creepMy odd behavior was controlling meId give anything, to go back to the daywhen you was just a voice i heard some daysI was suppose to get boredAnd you just be dumbI play my gameAnd you run awayI…

Heart beating slowBreathing very shallowEyes are glossy overAs they slowly began to close Angst filling me upLies don’t stay in the darkYour view of me is breaking me apartDisappointed I just wanted to numb myselfStare off in a dazeSmiling softly to myselfYet you know Lie to myselfBut not you thoughPleading for forgivenessTime to be honest with ourselves You still stand by meAlways been a bit…

Photo credit: Craiyon No rulesLove is not fairBroken heartPieces spread out everywhere Lies and secretsGuilty promisesTrying hard to keep it Where did things go so wrong?Why is your callback taking way too long?Sweet kissesPlease I don’t wanna miss it Stay with meThe nights are cold without you in our bedForgive meIs our love too good to last? You are apart of meMy heart feels so emptyTell…

Artwork Credit: Pintrest Tired of the unfocused watery eyesThe racing thoughtsFrom flashes of all the good timesToo much concentration spent on deciphering the liesFinding ways to heal my broken heartWith still time Puffy eyesFrom staying up staring at my walls in the darkSame song on repeatMy heart skipping beatsAs I wait for him to arrive Ears fixated on the door to hear it creakMy anxiety…

I feel like people are tired of me. Over the whining and sad me. Maybe I should write about some happy things, fake all this honesty and post more of my life , like it’s a glamorous fantasy. I am a princess in a castle far far away, And yes my heart was broken and my family all began to die on me. And just when I thought I might as well end my life a handsome prince came to recuse me. He slayed…

Artwork Credit: Pintrest Told me that you loved meAnd I believed itBelieved in us so much Realized that was liesThere was a secret you was trying to hideAnother women you was hiding on the side Unfortunately true love doesn’t existIt’s all just hot sex and lust with a twist So don’t tell me that your sorryAnd how I’ll be missed Time to goTime to let goMy heart is broken.

Asking for more chancesAs if I have the right toYou been more then patient with meDon’t know how I could do this to you Broken trustBroken heartBroken manIs how I left you Told you loving me would be toughYou wanna hate meBut you love me too muchAnd you can’t stand it Mixed emotionsAnd I keep stirring the potMy moody daysHas you feeling so lost How much strength is left in you?In us?I can’t…