i find that about every four years, something shifts within me, and that shift is the catalyst for death, but also rebirth. when life feels uncontrollable, i take what i can control and i destroy it; then i reshape it until it bends to my current whim.
so welcome (back) to this amalgamation of a thing. it’s somewhere between a writeblr and a mental dumping ground. i was originally going to try and keep this main blog contained to just my main wips but that's literally impossible for me so i'll just be going back to my original ways in a cleaner environment. i will still have my art blog @hyacinthsballs & my reblogs blog @babylonsfalling but i'll probably still just end up reblogging my friend's stuff over there instead of here. we'll see if i change my mind again.
you can contact me either here or on my art blog for commissions as they’re always open, anything helps as i am extremely unemployed, not for lack of trying.
the usual tumblr reblogs will go on @babylonsfalling.
however, for those new and in desperate need of a tl;dr
vacant (ren) • 28 • black american • he/him (transmasculine nonbinary do not they/them me) • queer • neurodivergent (autistic with adhd tendencies and an anxiety disorder) • college student
18+ we talk about sex and gore here
i write gothic things. it’s my favorite genre of fiction and i think everything i write ends up in that realm one way or another. i also love history. like a lot. so those two things tend to blend in some fashion in most of my wips. my current three mains are:
find their full wip intros HERE. but for a snapshot:
btaf (and its sequel, bdae) -> traditional gothic :: 1800s historic supernatural fiction featuring vampires, werewolves & heavy handed pro-choice commentary and metaphors
paramour (and its sequels: monochrome, p&p, and empire making up the tfog series) -> steampunk gothic :: fantastical rococo french steampunk fantasy featuring extremely messy relationships, terrible people, religious commentary & eldritch gods
cotpmm -> southern gothic :: fantastical alt hist jim crow adjacent chesapeake bay island thing featuring cults, colorism, and allegories for systemic racism
the current status (as of april 2026):
btaf draft 2 is finished and is currently/theoretically with alpha readers. i should be getting those back in june and then i will begin rewrites and editing (though I’ve already started tbh)
paramour is in the re-outlining phase. there is a pieced together draft 1 that has a lot of good elements but it needed more depth, hence outline. once that’s done (eventually) i’ll be writing draft 3 betwixt writing btaf (*yes i consider outlines drafts in their own rights)
cotpmm is in early development. i’m still naming people lol. once i get the core elements down i’ll start outlining and take it from there.
this will probably change when i start repopulating this blog with posts.
talking -> general tag
s: paramour -> paramour tag
s: btaf & s: bdae -> betwixt thumb & forefinger / betwixt death & eternity tag(s)
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no because i get it—it just kind of hits you all at once.
under a cut while i try to work out why i just cried about a movie i barely grasped. spoilers ig? idk man.
mahito is living during ww2. he is traumatized by a tokyo bombing wherein his mother was hospitalized for an unknown reason, and she dies in the fire. his dad takes them out of tokyo to the countryside where he marries his wife (himi’s) younger sister natsuko and knocks her up.
mahito is traumatized. he has ptsd flashbacks about trying to run to the hospital to save his mother. he hits himself in the head with a fucking rock to try and make the memories stop, but he still dreams of it. he feels like if he could’ve gotten there faster he could’ve somehow saved his mom from dying (even tho that makes no sense) — hence why he keeps hearing her voice calling out to him and asking him to save her. that’s what the heron feeds on.
the entire dream sequence / magical world shit is honestly not necessarily the point and part of me getting stuck on the details took away from getting the broader message — which i did Get while i was watching sorta or at least i was thinking it — that mahito has to go through this journey to make peace with his mother’s death. it wouldn’t surprise me, not only bc of the war but also in an era wherein people tended to go to the countryside for their mental health, if part of the reason for the move out to the country was also for mahito’s sake. it wouldn’t surprise me cuz we see on his first day at school that he immediately gets into a fist fight with other kids. his dad despite being busy is a good father who loves his family. yes he got remarried but he still cares deeply for his son and probably saw how bad he was struggling. natsuko looking exactly like her sister while a coincidence or family resemblance is also probably not an accident; he (the dad) was probably trying to have a “new mother” that looked like himi so that mahito could transition better.
mahito knows this and i think that’s why he’s so standoffish towards natsuko’s attempts to bond with him. she knows he’s hurting and not only is he her son now, she was his aunt anyway and the only remnant left of her sister. even though she’s having a baby she cares about her nephew/son. when mahito gets hurt (seemingly in the fight not knowing he did it himself—or potentially she does know maybe that’s why she feels so bad) she immediately blames herself. on some level she knows that she can never replace himi for mahito and she blames herself for trying to. she cries about not letting him get hurt but i feel like she was talking more about the emotional pain he’s feeling.
mahito acts so stiffly—there’s a purposeful way that they animate his eyes to show where they sparkle and are lifelike but in the beginning half they don’t because he feels dead inside. that “malice” he talks about at the end of the movie, is what he’s feeling when his eyes are dead. he hates himself, his life, that he couldn’t save his mother and so on. even though he “knows” he cannot bring his mother back from the dead he follows the heron anyway because he wants to live in a world where he could.
that’s really what the dream world represents: mahito wants to live in that reality where he could’ve saved his mom. but if his mom was saved it would alienate natsuko and his new younger sibling wouldn’t exist. it’s only through traveling through the dream world that he sees both what a joy new life can bring (the warawaras, symbolizing his new sibling) but also that dragging out things that should not exist in the “real world” like the pelicans, it only causes harm to everyone. himi’s journey was up and she did what her life was meant to do: bring mahito into the world. she understands that which is why she returns to her own time, but also why she says to natsuko while she’s asleep that she will be mahito’s mother. natsuko, while not being in the movie often, also shows her resistance and grief about being mahito’s mother becuase that means she must live in a world where her sister is dead. she can’t accept that and so the tower called to her.
mahito and natsuko both come to accept their grief. when offered the chance to continue to persist in this dream world forever, mahito realizes that there will always be pain: his scar. he will always hold onto some of the grief anger or shame if he doesn’t allow himself to move on from his painful hurt which would be allowing himself to believe that if he could save himi in the hospital fire his life would be better. by allowing himself to move on, he can learn to see natsuko as his mother and appreciate the elderly maids (like kiriko), and his new sibling that hasn’t been born and so on. he can see beautiful things—pain does not persist because life is always changing and isn’t stagnant like the magical world.
so it collapses because he refuses to hold it up. mahito refusing to wallow in his own grief destroys the tower and frees all its inhabitants. and when himi comforts him and says that she isn’t scared of fire and she’s more than happy to die (basically) if she got to be his mom—knowing that her younger sister would watch over him when she passes—i think it’s mahito’s mind allowing himself to come to terms with the fact that his mother wouldn’t resent him. she loves him and wants him to live and love and be happy.
when the heron tells him he has to forget, it’s not that he has to forget his pain or his grief. like his scar he’ll always remember it. but he has to forget the time where he thought stagnancy was the way to heal his wounds. time is the only thing that does and like the heron implies, over time the grief mahito feels will lessen and he won’t hold onto it as tightly. but the thing about stagnancy is that it causes you to constantly hold onto your pain. “it’s normal to forget” means that you shouldn’t hold onto that pain and anger and let it rule your life.
and i think getting to the end is where everything hit me. it hit me that this was a story about grief and pain and acceptance and that the only way out is through. mahito had to go through the tower to its deepest levels in order to free himself from the shackles of his pain and guilt. and on the other side there’s light and life in his eyes again. he’s happy and accepting of natsuko being his mother, of being with his family, of being open to changing with the world instead of refusing to move when it changed around him (like his grand uncle).
i imagine that everyone who ended up in the tower probably was dealing with some pain that was left unaddressed and how long they spent there is indicative of how long it took them to overcome their negative feelings. some like natsuko and mahito understand the message of the tower and leave quickly, while himi stayed for a year then returned. the grand uncle never got over his pain and desire to rule it, so he stayed for his whole life and hurt countless others with it. i think it also speaks to generational trauma; if you think about how the warawara are born and the pelicans consume them because that’s all they can do it’s like. the torment nexus orphan crushing machine run by the few orphans who survived their go at it. mahito’s grand uncle left this hanging tower and generational curse upon the family of never moving on from pain and holding onto malice indefinitely. but himi, natsuko, and most importantly mahito leave that pain behind when he could not. the tower is destroyed because the curse is finally broken there’s no reason for it to be there anymore. they can move on.
and so the return to tokyo 2 years later. the war is over, mahito and natsuko have addressed their grief, and they can continue on as one happy family.
and i cried because the only way out is through. the only way out is through. but you have to live. be open, and process, and love. but live.
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sometimes my Beloved Mutuals will rb a post about a certain character archetype and i will have to physically restrain myself from saying “yeah you would say that wouldn’t you”
mal is one of my fave characters in this for fun project and at some point before i nuked everything you probably saw me talking about her. BUT tl;dr mal becomes bruno's new best friend after the slow burn fall out with pax, and not only that becomes his qpr partner and house mate for life tm once they graduate college because the two of them become magic storm chasers and so they're often on the same projects with each other.
she's gray aro and poly and is one of the main people who helps bruno figure out that he's aro himself and that just bc he is doesn't mean he can't still have meaningful relationships. she's definitely a party girl through and through and thrives being the life of the party or center of attention. however she's very emotionally attuned to other people and herself and she's never afraid to ask for or go for what she wants.
her and bruno are peas in a pod. they're super alike and that's part of what makes them work so well together. she never really envisioned herself settling into any kind of steady relationship but her and bruno took the entire concept of platonic life partners who fuck like rabbits and went with it. she is Very Very good for him. also i love the fact that she has a storm patron and can use strong magic bc she mostly uses it to fuck with people pfft.
Khoda Demon-Geke (hwsts)
demon-geke doesn't actually play a huge role in he who smites the sun bc he's uh. dead. cough. but there's a plot reason about why it happens.
basically though he's gin's father, and in stark contrast to his son, the Affinity he's associated with is light; his name means "brightness of the morning's rays." (the khoda part just means chief) he was always a very happy man, who took things in stride and always cared about his people deeply, always seeking their betterment. he and gin had a really close relationship, with gin truly looking up to his father. not only is gin devastated by demon-geke's death, but he's also stressed because he becomes the next khoda in his stead which means he now has the task of leading his people with an impending war on his doorstep.
if demon-geke lived longer and got to meet tsokhizhe, he would've very much approved of gin's feelings lmao.
Sir Gleriath of Concordia (the many lovers of the king of concordia)
EXCEEDINGLY UNWELL ABOUT THIS MAN
as the wip title implies, sir gleriath (or just gleriath tm) is one of the lovers of the king of concordia (ricaud). his first lover actually! and also his first friend! the young prince and knight met one another when they were children, and it was always agreed upon that gleriath was ricaud's personal bodyguard. unfortunately that did lead to him witnessing the horrors; ricaud's father was extremely tyrannical and abusive towards ricaud himself and gleriath hated the fact that he couldn't really do anything. both because of his position as a knight against a king, but also because he was just as much of a child as ricaud, being only 2 years older than him.
when ricaud decided to run away at 14, gleriath chased him and decided to "defile" his honor by turning away from his knight's oath to the kingdom and only swearing allegiance to ricaud. that was around the time that they met hyhfrit the mage who informed ricaud of his prophecy to overthrow his father. without gleriath's support, ricaud genuinely would've never been able to do it, and honestly one of the reasons he did it was that gleriath promised to kiss him on the lips when he became king. ricaud is easily swayed pfft. but it was mostly knowing that gleriath was promising to be there for him not just as a knight or a friend but something more as well that helped ricaud decide to follow his fate.
once all of that is settled and ricaud becomes king, gleriath is usually never too far from his lord's side. he often has a bemused relationship with his king and while hyhfrit tends to be ricaud's head in terms of matters of state, gleriath always encourages him to follow his heart. (hyhfrit accuses gleriath of babying ricaud too much but he can't really help it). he always encourages ricaud's relationships with others and even participates in some occasions, but really he's just happy to be by ricaud's side.
his life isn't just ruled by his devotion to ricaud (though what kind of knight would he be if he wasn't pfft) and he tends to be regarded as a brotherly and occasionally wise figure to others who meet him. he's serious about his duties and is never phased when a threat or change of plans are thrown his way. of course he's exceedingly chivalrous but he does have a playful side to him that those close to him get to see. he's a terrible drinker though, and is pretty kinky. that whole subservience thing is more than just from his position cough.
but yeah i love him a lot, ricaud loves him a lot, a billion out of ten i love KNIGHTS.
JIHI MY SAD SAD BABY JIHI????? OUGH??? i'm actually gonna reuse his profile that i made for a gauntlet thing i did several years ago (which maybe i'll bring back one day cuz it was fun doing that):
“jihi” means mercy. “arthea” means lofty hill.
39, cis man (he/him), romance: debatable; he’s hard to tie down to most things. he’s flirtatious and enjoys the tease of it, but if things were to try and get serious he gets flighty. sex: yes. preference: feminine.
deep midnight skin and dark, shimmering indigo eyes like the deepest depths of the ocean; they seem to have a strange reflective quality about them that is hard to tell if they absorb or reflect all light. his hair is jet black and frames his face in waves, curling around his cheeks and the nape of his neck. he has a crooked smile that quirks to one side, and he is long and lithe in build and stature, standing around 5’11”.Â
ILLUMINATOR (HEXER), trained as an upperclassman to francesca, cameron, and miona at pinella's pass survivalist school, so while on paper his training says he's a scout, in actuality he's a hexer. he is a very skilled in hand to hand combat and tends to fight with his bare hands. the maginc lumine that hexers use allows him to absorb the ars (basically magical component of the soul) of monsters and plants and nearby things as he fights to make his punches more powerful and devastating. when he's absorbed enough, he could rip your beating heart out of your chest faster than you can blink. another advantage lumine gives him is that it gives him the ability to essentially melt into darkness and become completely invisible to the naked eye. he basically bends light around him into nothingness and steps into the pocket it creates—which is a terrible explanation but he’s bad at explaining how it works himself. the only person who understands this is erebos—but that’s also because he’s an illuminator as well.Â
before jihi met madja, he was already quite a mysterious person. still, he was mysterious in a helpful, relaxed kind of way—he just kept his emotions to his chest and didn’t always let people know what he was privy to or what was on his mind. he loved to tease and got along well with his previous teammate, altair, for this reason, as the two were quite alike. he could be vague but you could tell he had a deep compassion for the people he allowed into his life and he would do anything for those he cared for. if you ask cameron, who has known him for many years… madja changed him. she isn’t sure how or why, but the same traits that he has feel more hollow and on edge than he used to be. he is wholly and solely devoted to her and would drop anything, anyone—kill anything or anyone to please her. its not natural… but he’s too caught in the whims of it to notice or care. at least, yet. another person who notices this is odd is jagoda; who is jihi’s younger brother. the two of them don’t really have much of a relationship… due to the fact that jihi didn’t really grow up with him and their two younger siblings jacira and jitka. the three younger ones moved to Kingsburrow from Snake’s Canyon where they were born to lead a better life, but jihi refused to go and stayed there with their father—causing contention among the family. nowadays, the two of them acknowledge each other… barely. but well. jagoda has his friends, and jihi has madja, and that’s enough. jihi tells himself it is.
Fun facts about them: he is very dense when it comes to how other people feel about him. he hates the taste of water and has to be coerced, bribed or tricked into drinking it. he loves to take naps, especially on those he trusts—its like the biggest show of his affection for you.
the reason that i say that he's sad is a lot of plot spoilers and has a lot to do with what madja did to him and his old team... and it's not really something he can easily recover from. it pains me SO BAD HEAD IN HANDS. HURTING SO BAD FOR HIM ALL THE TIMEEEE THROWING UPPPPP
yippee thank you!!! :> i'll do 4!! so this is gonna be long asf my bad ohdjflscv
but you got: MIRANKA (tcol) + Britton "Britt" Best (dream warriors) + Blackpeak (vdtrt) + Deborah "Bora" (bdae)
MIRANKA (from TCOL)
MIRANKA is one of the deities, which you can tell by the way i type his name (in all caps its a respect thing). he's the god of relationships, love, friendships, affection, beauty, hygiene, sex, intercourse, Bonds, desire, camaraderie, and yearning. he also is technically the god of mental health as his main type of oracles who serve him, Oathkeepers, essentially function as psychologists/therapists and relationship counselors and use his teachings to guide their temples and practices. very few of them actually receive direct visions or have contact with MIRANKA himself, though Bondforgers do in the rare occasions where they make Bonds.
Bonds are a specific type of magical pact that you can make with another person to gain magical benefits from your union(s) only get by presenting yourself and your partner(s) in front of MIRANKA. the pact isn't bound by romance and you can technically make a pact with anyone HOWEVER the pacts basically have terms and conditions set by MIRANKA and if you fuck up uhhh he will fuck you up to put it kindly. its very VERY rare for people to seek out Bonds and usually people only go to Oathkeepers to create little-b bonds which is the terranean equivalent of a marriage ceremony (though again its not really bound by romantic conventions, you can also have bond ceremonies when you adopt a child to signify you're their parent for instance). those don't feature the magical component or potential wrath of MIRANKA so its the safer choice lmao :) breaking a Bond is genuinely believed to be more dangerous than slighting the goddess of war for context OHRDFJC
MIRANKA also has an alter form. in terrae, alter deities are basically the splitting of the consciousness of a deity to either inhabit a specific role that might be too taxing given their other duties, or as a way to remove parts of themselves that they don't want to keep and they can either know about them consciously, or not know they exist in some cases. MIRANKA however, does know his alter, RANKIMA, exists as he purposefully created her to guide the kisks who were trapped in the unforgiving deserted region of kiskkaddon for several generations--long story but basically second age bullshit LMAO.
RANKIMA is the goddess of unity, oasis, palm trees, deserts, mirages, dancing, family, and obligation and is also the tamer of Oyehind or The Great Desert. unlike her alter, she speaks very commonly often to the kisks to help guide them in this unforgiving terrain and she is a goddess of unity and obligation because kisk culture is stricter about the whole 'marriage' thing because Bond forging is seen as necessary and commonplace as a survival tactic so that RANKIMA can bless you and protect you. their culture does place more of an emphasis on what we'd consider kind of "traditional marriage" and there's some characters in the main plot (jace and miki) that kind of explore the nightmare of that and how different it is in comparison to the main continent and diisai's "looser" views of marriage and commitment.
in terms of his place among the other gods, MIRANKA is considered the younger brother of MUINENS in the family tree. despite his status as a god of relationships he himself isn't in one (if i had to say he's aromantic/asexual tbh but don't quote me per se he's a god its complicated lmao), and instead he serves as a mediator of the relationships among the gods (especially IIARAN and IISIDIA that's a whole can of worms). he was born from the threat that IISIDIA issued to the people of terrae after their first (and only tm) civil war as an enforcer of IISIDIA's will (don't break my oaths or i will fuck you up), which is why he's considered her son and why he's considered scary as hell by terraneans and no one is interested in crossing him. despite this, he is a bit mischievous and does occasionally like to meddle in relationships both in a positive way (he's been trying to get YLENE and YUTARA together for ages and he's so fucking tired) and in a kind of younger brother way (he loves teasing MUINENS about her situationship with MIZDARR and she hates it LMAO). think of a spiteful, powerful, but well meaning cupid pfft.
RANKIMA in contrast is much more laid back and serene. she thrives more in harmonious situations and she is very level headed and carries a more responsible wielding of terrifying might. she often collaborates with YLENE in taming Oyehind when it becomes too rowdy and the two of them kiiiiiinda have a bit of chemistry, though she is equally happy to share that spotlight with YUTARA, YLENE's first and major love. unlike other alters, she and MIRANKA view themselves as two halves of the same whole (or twins) and they actually often spend time together.
tl;dr ren has done a Lot of worldbuilding on these tcol deities and this giant yap was totally necessary pfft.
britt is one of my "maybe one day i'll make a visual novel" ocs and i've had her since i was a kid actually! tl;dr her and the other dream team kiddos are apart of a story where basically they live double lives: one in the real world where they're ordinary kids, and one in their dreams where they are the chosen ones of a fantasy land staving off the forces of evil. things come to a head when all of them are in college and they all-through mysterious circumstances-end up going to the same school and actually meeting each other in real life. and wouldn't you know it, the forces of evil are now seeping out into the real world and so they have to take all their YEARS of training in the dream world and use it in the real world.
it turns out tho that the dream world isn't really a "dream" like it is legitimately another universe/plane of existence and basically the forces of evil are trying to collide the two realms and take over both of them or smthn like that. i haven't thought about the bad guys too hard but typing all of this out is starting my brain juices revving sooooo i may work on this some.
but onto britt herself, she's the middle child of three and comes from an extremely wealthy family. she was born in england, which is (unfortunately) why her name is britton bc her mom thought it was cute and her siblings are named similarly. unlike her family, britt is less vapid/oblivious of her privilege, and often tends to butt heads with them which is why she ended up going to a "cheaper" school in college. she's headstrong, loud, and will immediately call anyone on their shit and is MORE than happy to use her privilege to fuck someone up.
i've been debating back and forth on if i want to make her a trans woman p much bc i made these versions of the main cast's dream-verse selves in this picrew and i thought it would be kinda funny if she was a trans woman and all the guys were trans masc. court's still out on it!
i do know that her and one of the other guy's (seth) have a thing for each other but they are both kind of like. hm. not obtuse about it but they have a hard time opening up about their feelings so britt usually has one sided arguments with him that seth finds funny.
i really love britt! she's so funny fr.
funny that i got his sister and now him! so tl;dr blackpeak is a dragon (probably, court's still out since i can't make up my mind about this damn story) who has a really really hard time with commitment both in the keeping promises category but also in relationships.
he's in a situationship with an elf dragon-tamer named corsel and basically back in the middle ages, the two of them met when corsel was tasked with getting him to release a princess from a tower, though when corsel went he figured it out that the princess was actually in love with blackpeak (since he has a human form) and she went of her own accord. corsel was like that's cute but she's engaged so like can we wrap this up, and blackpeak agreed to break off his relationship with the princess if he could "have" corsel instead. corsel didn't really entertain it forrealzies but sorta was like i mean whatever floats your boat, so blackpeak abandoned the princess, which kinda shows his nature of being kinda selfish and thinking about his own wants.
anyway the two of them spend at least a century together and have the longest slowburn ever though blackpeak does continue to sleep around and corsel keeps him at arms length, at first because he doesn't want to deal with blackpeak's bs but then because he knows he's falling for him and wants a monogamous relationship that blackpeak wouldn't want to have. they do eventually end up sleeping together and that starts the sort of springtide of their relationship where they're like obsessed with each other. but eventually the elf kingdom that corsel is from wants him to come home to rule and corsel asked blackpeak to come with him. instead of communicating his fears (and actually addressing any of their relationship issues fr) blackpeak takes off and corsel's heart is so broken that he becomes a rogue wandering prince that never returns to his homeland.
in the modern day they end up meeting again, and this entire time blackpeak has super regretted everything. he didn't really leave because he didn't want to be with corsel but more because he was still trying to figure out his feelings and felt kinda pressured to be tied down. and corsel kind of realized he was asking a lot out of blackpeak but like communication who they don't know each other. blackpeak did try to track corsel down however he had to stop when moonglend was born bc his parents didn't want to take care of her so he ended up raising her by himself as a single brother-dad.
when they meet blackpeak is in another situationship and that makes corsel super mad because wow we're meeting the same way you clearly haven't changed and i was stupid to trust you with my heart and blackpeak is like baby pleaseeeeeeeeeee. so yeah. its just mess basically.
i could probably make the two of them a mini story on their own but my brain has always had them in the vdtrt universe so LMAO.
so bora is actually a character from btaf's sequel bdae and is the sister in law of biscella's "reincarnation" sol. she's engaged to sol's older brother, martin, and the two of them actually met when sol gave birth to her son as she was the main nurse that was there helping sol and they all kind of bonded from there. at the beginning of bdae, sol, bora, and martin are all living in the same house and are helping sol raise her son (diego) and bora and sol are basically sisters. sol trusts bora with everything and bora's medical expertise is something that comes up later in the book so i can better explain how certain parts of vampirism work. she's really protective of her new family (sol, martin, diego) and she's also just got super big sister energy. i care her <3
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funnily enough the character you got you may or may not know but this is kinda contingent on if you know anything about vampires don't take roadtrips
but you got:
moonie, beloved.
so for context: vdtrt has changed quite a bit from when i first thought of the story which i kinda detail HERE but in that original story moonglend was a dragon lady.
there's other art of here in my old traditional sketchbooks too but i am Far Too Lazy to grab those rn.
but as i've continued to wrestle with trying to make the story work and make sense (going from a supernatural school with multiple species, to everyone being all vampires) the one thing that i've always tried to keep about moonie is that she is very distinctly draconic. she always has scales and horns it literally doesn't matter what kind of story i'm writing. wanting to keep moonie a dragon-adjacent person has also kind of fucked with me trying to make this story make sense BUT LIKE. big fucking shrug.
regarding her personality tho, moonglend is literally a death glares at you across the room type. i will expose my (imo) terrible 2016 writing to show off the first instance where she met everyone cuz i think it describes her p well:
She was tall, elegant and regal and had thick, deep purple hair, streaked with lavender. However, unlike my mother’s, Vlad and my own skin that was practically paper white and was pretty standoffish as it was, her skin was a purple-ish grey color that didn’t even try to disguise the fact that she wasn’t human. A forked tongue flickered between her teeth, and my eyes widened. Not human in the slightest. She had thick black horns that curled upwards, and while most people’s irises had whites around them, instead hers were black like soot. Her irises themselves were an electric cobalt blue.
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“Moonie!” He called. The girl looked up from the bouts of snow on her shoulders, and the distasteful look that she was giving it faded when she landed eyes on him. A small smile came to her face, and she easily maneuvered her way towards our table, gracefully and elegantly. She stopped when she reached the back of the booth, and easily leaned over to wrap my brother in a hug. “It’s been so long since I’ve last seen you!” Vlad exclaimed. “It hasn’t been that long.” She said back, and her voice was shocking to my ears. It was haunting; almost ancient sounding, like the voice you’d hear rumbling from the depths of the earth. She patted Vlad’s head, and I noted the way her fingers extended almost like talons, with deep black, obsidian colored nails. I couldn’t tell if that was just nail polish, or if they were naturally like that - and somewhere in my gut, I knew they were naturally so. Her eyes flickered to Demille and Awilda, and though I felt myself somewhat unsettled by her, they both smiled at her easily. Awilda even stood up and hugged her, which surprisingly the strange woman reciprocated.Â
cringing very hard but whatever.
she takes a long time to warm up to people, the only reason she's so open with vlad, awilda, and demi is because she's known them for years and feels comfortable with them. not long after her introduction she basically glares darren to death bc she doesn't know him and its kinda funny. but once she does get to know you she's possessive, protective and extremely loyal. she's also strong asf, in every iteration of this universe i've ever made the only person stronger than her among the main gang is gabe but that's only because gabe can't die. in terms of brute force tho i'd honestly put my money on moonie.
i've kinda toyed on and off with the idea of her and awilda getting together in a sort of golden retriever/black cat kind of way but their chemistry has never stuck with me so i'll probably just leave them as is. in the newer ideas that i've had about vdtrt where everyone is a vampire adjacent thing, she's a krystallo or basically a type of vampire whose blood hardens into scales or whatever. she also has an elder brother, blackpeak who is in a situationship with an elf guy long story, and they're like at least 100 years apart in age.
but yeah! that's her! my irritable dragon lady who i love to death. i really wish i could figure out what the hell i wanted to do with darren's story so then perhaps i could feel more concrete about literally Anyone in that bitch but yknow /shrug
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